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Doris Kohler 1925-2006
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Doris Kohler 1925-2006 |
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Balladeer
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There should be an album going through my mind, Snapshots of random moments frozen in time, a smile here, a slap there, getting dressed in warm clothing before being sent off to school, looking back and seeing her standing on the porch in the snow, making sure I got on with my lunch bag intact. Peanut butter, mostly. I should be able to see her taking me for my first haircut, shaking me awake on Sunday mornings with a quarter for the collection plate and threats of eternal damnation if that coin Somehow did not happen to join the others. I should be able to hear her at the door, after the game, saying "How many homers you hit today, son?" "Two", I might say,which was always answered with a "That's nice. Now go wash your hands." Being Christmas, I should easily recall running down the steps at daybreak and screaming, "Mommy!Wake up! Santa was here!!! then running to the tree, fully prepared to dive headfirst into the cornucopial conglomeration of what I knew would be socks and underwear, maybe a pair of gloves. Didn't matter...they were GIFTS! from mom and dad and Santa. They all cared about me. Mom would open my silly gift to her, something I'd made in school most times and say, 'That's nice. Now go wash your hands." There were many happy snapshots of my youth, many bad ones, too, and to kill them the good ones went, too. I read in the paper this morning a soldier died in Iraq. Last night my mother died. My detached sadness for both are the same. There should be an album but the pages were erased too long ago I can't bring them back with the feeling they deserve. Pain of losing one's mother is surpassed only by it's absence. The memories don't come and sadness is the best I can do. May God bless you, mom. I wish you well.  [IMG]http://balladeer.netpoets.net/g raphics/tulips_pink_lg_clr.gif[/IMG][This message has been edited by Balladeer (08-11-2011 08:21 AM).] |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Balladeer Should I say the truth reigns supreme. Good write |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
I know too....and it was a treasure given to me at my birth....the love of a mother. And....It took me a little while to get all of the feelings absorbed, so that I could understand what you were going through... I agree with Nan, about 150 percent... Thanx 'Deer.. |
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Nan
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since 1999-05-20
Posts 21191Cape Cod Massachusetts USA |
It's an experience that defies reason, m'deer. It's still fresh in my mind as well, so I truly understand. Hold on to those "good" memories.. I'm so sorry your mom had to leave, especially in the midst of the holiday season... Be well, deer friend...  |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
I am sorry for your loss, Mike and am with you in spirit knowing that words cannot fill the ache. M |
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scorpio Member Ascendant
since 2002-10-02
Posts 5178right...there |
I'm very sorry for your loss Mike. I do hope the good memories comfort you at this sad time. believe in what your heart feels... |
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Draugluin Junior Member
since 2006-12-08
Posts 48Ontario, Canada |
OH how precious memories are, oh how fleeting. |
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Roniece Dawson-Bruce Member Ascendant
since 2000-01-29
Posts 5689Sydney, Australia |
blessings to you my friend... I'm sorry for your loss - a beautiful tribute! RDB |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
Ah Balladeer, I am so sorry for the loss of your mother. I miss my mom as much today as I did when she passed over in 1969. What I wouldn't give to hear her sweet laughter and to wrap my arms around her. Take care dear poet. hugs, Chris p.s. her name was Doris too. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Words fail me at a time like this Mike. Yes, our mom, (Nightshade and I) her name was Doris as well. I read this earlier and all the pain and hurt came flooding back. I waited until now to come in and give you my condolences, hoping I would have the right words. I do not. I am terribly sorry for your loss.. please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Someone once said, something like, 'when your mother dies that's when you realise everyone dies'. How true. Wishing I could find the right words..  Sing in me muse... |
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Sunshine
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since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Perhaps she will have a chance in some way to make amends. Her boy did his best, always has, always will. Some will just never see the miracles before them. I'm very sorry for your loss. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
*touching the screen* My condolences sweet friend.  |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Mine too, Michael~ The tears flood each time I read this ... the remembers come racing back ...~ I am sooooo very sorry~  Love you~ *Huglets* ~*Marge*~ ~*The sound of a kiss is not as strong as that of a cannon, but it's echo endures much longer*~ |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
geez, I don't know what to say here...I'm so sorry Mike. |
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Denise
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since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
I'm so sorry for your loss Michael. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. (((HUGS))) |
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Balladeer
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since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Thank you all, my friends, for your kindness and support. |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
 Just because it's a beautiful Monday for a heartfelt *HUG* ~*Me*~ ~*The sound of a kiss is not as strong as that of a cannon, but it's echo endures much longer*~ |
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twinkyfl1 Member
since 2006-12-15
Posts 133florida |
The loving memories you have for your mother, and hers for you, will help you get through this and keep her alive in your heart forever. You're in my thoughts and prayers. |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
Dear Mike there is difficulty in responding to this all I can say is keeping her memory alive through this, is reason to keep the candles burning... Hugs and God bless |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown |
My dearest friend, Mr. Balladeer, I heard about your loss. My heart aches knowing you are feeling such pain. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain. All I know to do is send you a great big comforting hug.  . I hope it helps. |
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trutodaraiders Senior Member
since 2006-12-02
Posts 820CA |
If I would of known about this poem this morning I would have made my coffee stronger; because my tears diluted it. Such a nice poem, and sorry to hear about your loss. Very touching my friend |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
oh, Michael, I am sorry.May her spirit be happy. |
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Kit McCallum
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since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Michael, your words emote the deepest of feelings always. Please know that you have my heartfelt and sincere condolences. Take care sweet poet. Best wishes and hugs to you, /Kit |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
May God take you and your Mom in his arms and love you...hugs...James |
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JLHunter Senior Member
since 2006-10-08
Posts 557CA United States |
Hi, Balladeer. Words cannot express what I would truly like to say and how I feel, but here is a humble attempt: Angel of Death Her beauty was on wings of light --Gossamer spun to aid her flight-- That traveled o’er the nameless night To land, but soft, upon the dew. She stayed not long, as flights of song, That arcing o’er the sky belong To Heaven’s grace; through frenzied throng She gains the sky, and off she flew. The Angel’s wings caress the few Whose time is short but never knew That stirring light was shining through To pierce the dark and aid their flight Raised aloft to far off places, Bright with sound and long lost faces, A Heaven full of Earthly graces Waits for those now lost from sight. --John L. Hunter With my sincerest condolences, John I prefer to be a dreamer among the humblest, with visions to be realized, than lord among those without dreams and desires. -Khalil Gibran |
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Larry C
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
Michael, I am so sorry for you loss. It's strange how we put expecations on our grief and discover it's not exactly what we expeceted it would be. Yet it is teaching, anyway. May God grant you peace, strength and courage. If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, |
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sewasham Senior Member
since 2006-09-11
Posts 714Oklahoma, USA |
Very sorry to hear of your loss, I have been there. God bless. Take care. Steve |
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Interloper
since 2000-11-06
Posts 8369Deep in the heart |
Michael, as usual I'm late. My sincerest heartfelt condolences to you and your family. God bless you all... Poet, said my Muse to me, look in thy heart and write. |
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Titia Geertman Member Ascendant
since 2001-05-07
Posts 5182Netherlands |
Dear pal, It's true that moms, are not always the moms they should have been. But could it be that, she herself, has never learned how to love her child. I wonder if she realized that in the end. You speak of only feeling sad about her passing away, but your words above speak of another sadness, the one of never have known what it's like to have a loving mom. Hugs and knuffels to you Deer, because a mom still is a mom, part of your life and a loss is still a loss, a chapter closed. DutchieLike scattered leaves...my words will flow |
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rwood Member Elite
since 2000-02-29
Posts 3793Tennessee |
(((hugs))) silent ones with tenderness, deep respect and compassion. Love, Reg |
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Toerag Member Ascendant
since 1999-07-29
Posts 5622Ala bam a |
and nobody can pen it better than you...May you be blessed this holiday season pal....and I wish for you peace of mind and spirit. |
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Balladeer
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Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Dutchie, it could not have been said better. Thank you all, friends, for rallying together for a fellow poet. Passions does that for people. I appreciate all of the feelings shown in your replies and wish you all the very best.. |
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themute Member
since 2006-05-08
Posts 469Maryland |
This is poetry, "There were many happy snapshots of my youth, many bad ones, too, and to kill them the good ones went, too. I read in the paper this morning a soldier died in Iraq. Last night my mother died. My detached sadness for both are the same." And this is poetry, "There should be an album but the pages were erased too long ago I can't bring them back with the feeling they deserve." Especially this, "Pain of losing one's mother is surpassed only by it's absence." Self Expression! |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
I had the feelings but couldn't find the words... Titia did, and did so brilliantly. I'm so sorry, my friend... both for the loss now... and all the lacks and losses that went before. You have my sincerest sympathy. |
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Pilgrimage Member Elite
since 2001-12-04
Posts 3945Texas, USA |
I'm sorry that you lost her. And I'm more than sorry that you lost the feel of her. That is at least a sadness I haven't had. Mom has been gone since 12-16-03, and I still dream about her. Sigh. Nan (Pilgrim variety) |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
Dear Deer, I am so sorry for your loss...sending many soft hugs and thoughts your way.....May peace be yours Michael... hugs, ~D |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Michael I am so very sorry for your loss. |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
I'm so sorry to hear that even the death of old ones carries pain and grief. But there will be happy memories in time. *Hugs a good commitee can decimate communication. |
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1slick_lady Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088standing on a shadow's lace |
so sorry for your loss |
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Martie
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since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Mike...I'm late to read this but not to send you heart felt condolences for the loss of your mother...so bitter sweet your poem, the time...I understand. |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Michael, when you first posted this, I read it and I wanted to say something, but couldn't voice my feelings. I can't understand the "why" of some things, and at those times don't know how to reply. You are such a good friend, though, I wanted to tell you that you are in my thoughts and prayers, Sweetie. And, I can tell you are hurting, so your friends hurt with you. I'm so sorry for your loss of your Mother, dear friend. Hugs and love to you, Michael(for the man you are now, and also for ache of the little boy you were then) Ethel |
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latearrival Member Ascendant
since 2003-03-21
Posts 5499Florida |
Mike, Please check your e-mail.My best to you. Your feelings are understood fully and, you are loved. martyjo |
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Gunslinger Senior Member
since 1999-10-09
Posts 901TX, USA |
Poignant, Michael. ad I completely empathize, only with me it was my Dad. Merry Christmas, friend. |
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icebox Member Elite
since 2003-05-03
Posts 4383in the shadows |
This is stunning work. When my mother died, I grieved for the mother I never had. Not sure which is harder, but your memories seem better. I wish you peace. |
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OwlSA Member Rara Avis
since 2005-11-07
Posts 9347Durban, South Africa |
Please accept my sorrow and envy for your pain. My ex-husband died yesterday afternoon. - Owl |
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Balladeer
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since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Your responses are very heartwarming in their sincerity. I thank you all again and hope your Christmas has been a joyous one. Owl, I'm sorry for your loss, also. Ex or not, he was a person you shared your life with and committed yourself to and the loss must be deeply felt. I wish you the best. |
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LngJhnAg Member Elite
since 1999-07-23
Posts 3508Boot+Kitty=Poetry in motion |
Man, Miguel - powerful. I have my own stories, and now they seem to be yours, too. Merry Christmas, 'Deer. |
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Balladeer
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since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
WOW! The sailor returns...it must be Christmas!!!  Great to see you again, my friend  |
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spiked Senior Member
since 2000-01-13
Posts 873Hammond, La USA |
Pains often can be covered by a scar. it's healing is left up to us Nice write Rich |
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Deb Lynne Member
since 1999-08-19
Posts 180Where blue skies meet blue ocean |
Thoughts, love and prayers from your friends in NC. Always with you! Deb |
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