Everything That Ever Meant Anything To Me Still Means The World To Me

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Open Poetry #38

Everything That Ever Meant Anything To Me Still Means The World To Me

soul drifter
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since 2004-09-08

Posts 711
Colorado

0 posted 2006-06-15 05:19 PM

(wrote this epic mess several weeks ago, after having a bad dream involving the first girl I ever fell in love drowned [in the dream, not in real life, I hope]. Weird dream...)

Everything That Ever Meant Anything To Me Still Means The World To Me

Last night I dreamt that you were drowing
and everyone went into the water to save you
my heart was shaking for now I can see
dreams like these are trying to tell me to prove
that years gone by I still hold on to you

They pulled you out of the darkness
and you were barely responsive to anything
it reminded me of the time you wore that dress
and I wanted to break down and tell you everything
everything I was feeling

Then I went to see you with your mother
I couldn't believe you were there
but suddenly you morphed into your brother
and you were gone again, without a care
for all the things I went through to get to you
please tell me this doesn't mean I'm to forever lose
the battles to hold on to girls like you

It's amazing I've carried this love for you
for all these years, away from you
I just can't let anything go
'cause everything that ever meant anything to me
still means the world to me
and I'll always love you so
I know

Today I met another girl who amazes me
and the nights are so pretty that it kills me
my heart is waking from your dreamy gazes at me
dreams like these are trying to tell me to try
and move on, away from the ghosts of their eyes

The smell of leaves in the rain
my life is like a graceful arc of the train
as it curls its way, away from you
but I know everything that ever meant anything to me
still means the world to me
and I'll always love you too
but she's here with me, so...

So I've got to devote myself to this
a new world in every warm kiss
and dreams to clear up and are made up of
the love she sends to me, I find it's enough
to soothe away doubts in me
lost poems about feelings in me
that I admit won't leave me anytime soon
like footprints preserved on the moon
'cause everything I ever loved
I still love
but she's healing me
and she's feeling me
move into her
and the night becomes a blur
and then she's off

So sometime, somewhere down the road
two girls down and I have to wait till the next dramatic episode
of my life to unfurl at the foot of another girl I adore
she seems to be the right key to open me up, so more and more,
I create daydreams out of the simple words she says to me
who knows where this will lead me, but I'm feeling closer to complete already
maybe I'll burn to the ground
maybe I'm destined to always fall
but I know everything that ever meant anything to me
still means the world to me
so these girls will still be everything to me after all
after all is said and done
love is a predator and it's got me on the run
for now it's the only way to live
but one day, I hope I'm blessed by all that you give

And everything that ever effected me so powerfully
will probably continue to do so
long after the spring has melted the snow
inside of me

It's amazing I've carried this love inside
for all these years, laying with my pride
'cause I just can't let anything go
I admit that everything that ever meant anything to me
still means the world to me
I still scheme for the love I need
and I'll always love you girls so
I know it's forever
and you know
I know
I can't help it, I can't let anything go
ever

"Is any song worth singing if it doesn't help?" -- Wilco, 'Wishful Thinking'

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