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SmartChick
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-09-23

Posts 7081
On A Journey To The Unknown

0 posted 2006-07-25 11:10 AM

Being so young, when we met
I was unaware of the signs
Words were all that were said
Enough to always make me cry

Then, when we tied the knot
It got even worse for me
I didn't dare go anywhere, or
You gave me the third degree

You held a knife on me
Causing me so much fear
The pain you always gave
Brought a lot of tears

While carrying a child inside
You threw me against the wall
Causing me to start bleeding then
Losing my baby and all

When I quit my job that time
You beat me black and blue
Still, you wondered why it was
I was so afraid of you

I didn't dare turn my attention
To anyone or anything else
It had to be given all to you, or
Pay a dear price myself

You did all you could do
To cut me off from society
With not even a telephone
For anyone to call me

You locked me in the house
So I couldn't even leave
Silently, I planned a way
To some day set myself free

Those wedding vows were said
You took them all for granted
The love you claimed to feel
Was hard to comprehend

Even after thirty three years
Those memories never leave
For once in a while they still
Come back again to haunt me

7-10-06

[This message has been edited by SmartChick (07-25-2006 12:21 PM).]

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

1 posted 2006-07-25 11:29 AM

sending you big

I sure can relate...but we get better with time

the quell
Member

since 2006-07-19

Posts 144
Liverpool, UK

2 posted 2006-07-25 11:55 AM

Such a sad story. You clearly have real strength. *hugs*

Marge Tindal

Member Empyrean

since 1999-11-06

Posts 42384
Florida's Foreverly Shores

3 posted 2006-07-25 12:17 PM

SweetSuzieQ~
Such a cleansing emote~
It's easy to see how and why your life is so much better without one who would cause you so much pain~

ONWARD ... FORWARD ... to the light of no fear~

*Huglets*
~*Marge*~

~*The sound of a kiss is not as strong as that of a cannon, but it's echo endures much longer*~
Email - [email protected]

seraphin
Senior Member

since 2000-09-24

Posts 1004
Michigan

4 posted 2006-07-25 01:26 PM

This took an incredible amout of courage to write. A survivor's tale.

Klassy Lassy
Member Elite

since 2005-06-28

Posts 2187
Oregon

5 posted 2006-07-25 02:43 PM

There is no way on God's green earth I will ever come to understand the wretched mentality of an abusive person. I have been talking to a girl(17) on line who just lost her baby because her boyfriend beat her. She's been a victim of all kinds of abuse since she was 9 years old. I guess the closest explanation is illness, but there is no excuse for the hatred that people commit in the name of love--or God, for that matter. Your poem stirs deep feelings. I sincerely hope your life is much better these days and that there is healing.

~ Klassy

Bridget Shenachie
Senior Member

since 2002-01-23

Posts 1056
Kansas USA

6 posted 2006-07-25 08:37 PM

I think that there has been a lot of healing. It takes a lot to say this happened and it was wrong. Wishing you joy,
SmartChick!

Your healing shows in all that you continue to write.

Shenachie

warmhrt
Senior Member

since 1999-12-18

Posts 1563

7 posted 2006-07-25 08:58 PM

SmartChick,

This was a very good expression of your inner emotions...I hope with time, the pain will lesson. You were very smart for getting out of such a traumatic situation.

Bless you,
Kris

"It is wisdom to know others;
It is enlightenment to know one's self" - Lao Tzu

Enchantress
Member Empyrean

since 2001-08-14

Posts 35113
Canada eh.

8 posted 2006-07-25 09:02 PM

Sue...I am so proud of you...
You have come so far!!
Sending heart hugs to you!

For it was not into my ear you whispered
But into my heart..
It was not my lips you kissed
But my soul.

Sunshine

Administrator

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since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

9 posted 2006-07-27 12:55 PM

You most certainly have come a long way, Sue.

Titia Geertman
Member Ascendant

since 2001-05-07

Posts 5182
Netherlands

10 posted 2006-07-27 01:18 PM

So happy for you that these events are set back to memory lane Sue, even though they're popping up once in a while to haunt you.

All the more reason to be grateful for what you have achieved today. It may not be perfect yet, but it's a hell of a lot better than it was before.

You're a strong woman Sue, my respects!!

Hugs, Titia

Like scattered leaves...my words will flow

bnabors
Junior Member

since 2007-10-08

Posts 20

11 posted 2007-10-11 09:02 AM

Uck what a person can do to another person, LOL Sue

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