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"Jazzman"
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"Jazzman" |
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playing.with.crayons Member
since 2006-01-02
Posts 362Neverland 
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There was a routine we had. I loved He trusted In return for his love I trusted. Once met in the grassy field, With purple flowers mounted high as his shoulder, we would travel down that Red dirt path worn from our daily tracks. He gave me a feeling that filled my heart More than any other boy had No leakages and no holes Just watertight conviction Of our loyalty. He gave me everything he had Oh I remember how me wanted to please me More than he wanted air to breathe We soared together Even if we didn’t win every time. He gave me hope That I could feel like this All the time. Well it’s more than anyone ever gave me before. He said it in every motion of his head Flicker of his eyes And lips pulled back so I could see him grinning. "I love you" Oh remember when we used To lie together on the grass And watch the stars After hours spent playing chasey? Didn’t matter if he always won. I said sorry God, I screamed it. I didn’t want to do it But someone else would have anyway I was too selfish for that. I remember those last moments More clearly that I remember yesterday It was just me and you darling, Like always I wanted you to know that. Even when he screamed Have you ever heard a horse scream in pain? Ever hear the utter human voice That comes from his mouth When he knows he’s going to die? Even as it all went black I wanted to tell him I still had my hands around his neck I still whispered the same sweet-nothings in his ears I still loved him. The worst thing was I knew he still loved me. |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Wow, this is a strong poem so full of love and then so full of hate. When I read your poem I thought of the saying 'you always hurt the one you love' and you have made the saying true even unto death. Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown |
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playing.with.crayons Member
since 2006-01-02
Posts 362Neverland |
thank you. Goodness I still haven't gotten over it then. I thought I had and then BAM, off goes the tears again. He was very special. I thought I needed to write to him and say sorry. He was a special horse. farewell the ash-tray girl |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
I'm sure he was and I'm sure you also loved him after all why wouldn't you, he was faithful to the end. Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown |
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CMGrimm Senior Member
since 2000-02-14
Posts 685USA |
that is just amazing.... Never be a carbon copy of anybody...make your own impressions. - ANON. |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
This is so completely heart wrenching. It reminded me of one of my favorite books-- "Of Mice and Men" and I know the analogy isn't exact, but the pain is the same... can't say that I "enjoyed" the journey with you, but oh how I felt it.  And might I add, if this is a true story, what a very strong person you must be... |
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Suetang Member Ascendant
since 2001-03-07
Posts 5187Melbourne, Australia |
A fabulous write. Welcome to Passions. Take care.........Sue I am in motion |
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Balladeer
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
"I loved - he trusted"...nothing describes an animal better - and there is no stronger love. This is a beautiful piece of writing..I will read it more than once. Thank you.... |
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EvocativeVerse2 Senior Member
since 2003-09-10
Posts 1279 |
I can't put to words the depth of emotion this poem evokes from within. AMAZING! |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Any animal that can evoke such emotion... will never be forgotten.  |
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playing.with.crayons Member
since 2006-01-02
Posts 362Neverland |
Thank you everyone, your comments mean so much and I am so grateful you took the time to read and respond to my writing. I feel the need to explain a little what that poem was about. My uncle owned this horse, Jazzman, as a kind of investmetnt I suppose. He was kept at our farm and I was responsible for training him. This was during a difficult time and I often found myself thanking Jazzie repeatedly for giving me so much and asking for so little. Anyway he was only young, just past three, and my uncle wanted him to start on cross country jumping, even though I hadn't introduced him to jumping at all yet. I pleaded long and hard but the general gist of the answers he gave were "If you don't do it I'll only find someone else who can". I couldn't bear the thought of someone else manhandling him....Anyway it ended up with him instructing me to do a three foot 6" Corner jump, which is an awful idea with an green horse. We didn't make it and Jazzie was put down while I was in hospital. He shattered his cannon bone on the jump and more when he landed. My leg was crushed underneath him when he fell. Apparently the paramedics had a hard time pulling my arms from his neck. Anyway. Sorry this is so long, and thank you again for reading. xxxx farewell the ash-tray girl |
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froggy Senior Member
since 2003-06-23
Posts 1893Michigan |
A feeling I know all to well as I just had to put my cat down a week ago. |
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dgvarner Member Elite
since 2000-05-13
Posts 3552High Springs, Florida |
What a story..The love of an animal is so unselfish, unconditional..It's true, they ask for so little and give so much! Thank you for sharing the story with us. hugs, g "We of the craft are all crazy...all are more or less touched." Lord Byron |
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The Lady Member Rara Avis
since 2005-12-26
Posts 7634The Southwest |
Your poem brought tears to my eyes and your story made me cry. A beautiful job about a well loved, sorely missed friend. |
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playing.with.crayons Member
since 2006-01-02
Posts 362Neverland |
Thank you, you are all very lovely people I wish I could send a hug to each and every one of you!! always, xxx farewell the ash-tray girl |
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