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loved_and_redeemed
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0 posted 2006-01-03 05:41 PM


The guilt I feel grows with every breath I take
making my stomach sick
wanting to stop the pain and stop my breath
but knowing cowardice is worse
worse than the sting of my betrayal
fresh and raw like the lick of a whip

The shame of my selfish night
bears down on me
but i am weak
too weak to carry this weight
too weak to put down the glass
and walk away

The tears I cry fill my hollow heart
my soul left empty and alone
searching for relief
from this unbearable pain

Screaming foolish I'm sorrys into the wind
their cold uslessness a harsh reminder
as they are blown back at me

The sound of your haunted weeping
carried on the wind
cuts my soul and shatters my world

As your pain becomes mine
i lose my name
not deserving it's purity
liar and fake above my acts

Alone and lost
I wander this world
nameless and full of shame
hoping to disappear
to change the past
looking for myself
picking up the shattered remnants as i go

The girl I once knew is gone
her lies exposed, never to return
two broken souls left in her place
crushed by her choices

Only after the one I love is whole again
can i forgive myself
maybe then i will heal
and this wound will close
leaving a scar, deep and red
an eternal reminder of my weakness



[This message has been edited by loved_and_redeemed (01-03-2006 08:03 PM).]

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Martie
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1 posted 2006-01-03 06:14 PM


The hardest person to forgive is yourself.  Your pain is apparent in this well written piece.  I wish you peace.  
Susan Caldwell
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2 posted 2006-01-03 07:37 PM


Wonderful depiction.

Welcome to Pip Katie!

"too bad ignorance isn't painful"
~Unknown~

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3 posted 2006-01-03 07:53 PM


It looks to be time to move onward... and with this write i can tell you have gave this subject great thought , and i wish you a bright future ahead of you , happy new year 2006 ~peace too
~J

Eliyah_becomes
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since 2006-01-02
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4 posted 2006-01-04 10:35 AM


this poem is great it makes my heart ache. The person that did this too you must be a complete jerk and must feel horrible for the pain that he has caused.
OwlSA
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5 posted 2006-01-04 12:23 PM


We all do wrong things, but not all of us are truly sorry.  You are, and that is the first step to forgiving yourself which is important, amongst other reasons, so that you don't do the same thing again.  He will eventually forgive you too if he is worth his salt, and your sorrow at what you did, will help him do so.

This terrible sadness will pass, both for you and him.

Hugs
Owl

loved_and_redeemed
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6 posted 2006-01-05 01:18 AM


Thanks everyone, you're support is awesome.
Eliyah, that's the problem, he's not a complete jerk, that would make things so much easier. I hope he doesn't feel horrible, I feel enough guilt for both of us. I only want him to know how much he hurt me, how much I hurt him, how much we hurt eachother.

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