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Kaoru

Member Elite

since 2003-06-07

Posts 3892
where the wild flowers grow

0 posted 2005-12-28 04:19 AM

Tonight, when you turned your head away,
and professed your shame in me,
I recalled such inadequate conversations
between us,
the memories swept away by cool,
bitter winds.. I wish I could
love you again...

..the way things were before
crush me like distant weights,
miserable tears that won't go away..and I try
to not be
weak, just for you..

just
for
you.

I have put
a black shroud
around me, to
protect me from
your audacity..
I
try
to understand..to no avail..

why

why

do you not love me?
Why

do you feel I am so
insignificant
when I love you?

I wish
that my memories would form together
into a solution..something
that could make you feel
happiness,
warmth,

compassionate...I
cannot change you now..cannot
help you if
you don't want me to..
I watch you look in apathy
at the snow flakes formed across the backyard
where
we smoke together
fight together
         so that
  I
     don't embarass you
I touch your shoulder, my hand
cries in distress..
it is wrong
    wrong
that you haven't earned my comfort
but my shriveled words of love
my wrinkled mind
closed off forever..

my silence

my death.

serenity blaze
Member Empyrean

since 2000-02-02

Posts 27738

1 posted 2005-12-28 04:27 AM

" watch you look in apathy
at the snow flakes formed across the backyard
where
we smoke together
fight together
         so that
  I
     don't embarass you"

Yanno? It actually hurt me to read this. Would that I could, reverse this to bliss.

Dammit, megs. I'm wincing, remembering, 'cause I have been there, and I hope you get outta there soon.

touch here-->X

iliana
Member Patricius

since 2003-12-05

Posts 13434
USA

2 posted 2005-12-28 04:38 AM

You are such an expressive writer, Kaoru.

ethome
Member Patricius

since 2000-05-14

Posts 11858
New Brunswick Canada

3 posted 2005-12-28 05:41 AM

Isn't it phenominal how sadness inspires poetic beauty?
You have captured the hurt here so well and are a far stronger person through the recognition. Comes in time!

Eric

Susan Caldwell
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-12-27

Posts 8348
Florida

4 posted 2005-12-28 10:09 AM

I know the coldness of this kind of rejection and confusion.

I promise you, when you get out from under this, you will become a you that you only dreamed of.

"too bad ignorance isn't painful"
~Unknown~

Dark Stranger
Member Patricius

since 2001-03-19

Posts 13631
West Coast

5 posted 2005-12-28 10:15 AM

damn I miss whatshername now

this was an excellent portrait

very much enjoyed your fluid windows here

Ericc
Member Elite

since 2003-01-31

Posts 4178

6 posted 2005-12-28 03:34 PM

Great write...full of depth and emotion.

Eric

lucky
Senior Member

since 2000-01-17

Posts 1601
Idaho

7 posted 2005-12-31 09:32 PM

I couldn't turn my head away on new years eve. Yes, very good write too.

Best Wishes, Dale

Speaking of ghosts, wouldn't you know here comes mine again...
~Rosemary J. Gwaltney~

littlewing
Member Rara Avis

since 2003-03-02

Posts 9655
New York

8 posted 2005-12-31 09:49 PM

and here, you encompass my thoughts exactly as I wrote of pain in another time and place, another write.

In my head with this one, Meg

Ceinwyn
Member Elite

since 2000-07-09

Posts 2175
VA

9 posted 2005-12-31 10:17 PM

gawd....I'm with Sue I'm with this....on both sides...were u reading my poetry my ex wrote me??

If at first you don't succeed destroy all the evidence that you tried.

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