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timothysangel1973
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0 posted 2005-08-14 02:11 AM


She was deep inside
funny...
how no one could see
see that part of me

the part that lived...
lived for bent destruction
and the certain sting
of pain

bad things weren't bad
until...
she could FEEL the pain
or see
the ashes
left after the burn

I had to kill her dont you see?
she was a psrt
yet the worst
part of me

she had to die,
just so I could live
there wasn't room
for both of us
and she was unwilling
to give

I cried the day I done it
just for a minute
because I knew

no one would ever
understand-
what she and I
had gone through

she gave the ultimate
the biggest sacrifice
she had to go-
living wasn't an option
she simply had to die

I hold her memory dear
as close to my heart
as one person can hold
a memory

she was a part of me
for so long-
even though she's dead
sometimes
I still sing her song

She had to go
just so that today
I could go on living
just so that I could say

Letting go was never easy
yet something I had to do
killing the bad part of me-
so that I could,
be good -
and have a future
with you

© Copyright 2005 Tima Chavis Cooke - All Rights Reserved
Sunnyone
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1 posted 2005-08-14 02:17 AM


Now, this is a really serious write, and it focuses on something that we all have to decide to do at some point, and that is 'change'.  Yeah, I understand this one perfectly, and appreciate the efforts and probably some of the pain that went into it's writing!  Very well done...~S~

Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life

Startime55
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2 posted 2005-08-14 11:18 AM


This poem can't help but touch each reader for at some time in our lives we have all had to change for some reason or other...Is not life itself an experience of growth through mistakes and learning from the lessons of those mistake...often we let go of the part of us who would make those kind of mistakes and come out the stronger for it...Magnificent writing from deep within...filled with a truth all can understand...Very well done...*big hugs*

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3 posted 2005-08-14 07:38 PM


smile...

personal demons, are pretty much like the impersonal.

You can send them away, but still they live.

(psssssst...I happen to know though, while you can't kill a demon, you can transform one, with love.)

But I'll bet you knew that.

stevebrklynnyc
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4 posted 2005-08-15 01:54 AM


I really enjoyed this and god knows I have made some really bad choices in my life, this write hits home.  But the good news is that we are all mortal and are forgiven regardless of the deeds once performed at ones one hand, Steve.
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5 posted 2005-08-27 07:31 AM


Tima girl

you rock!

Margherita
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6 posted 2005-08-29 08:44 AM


Dear Tima, you went through this “surgery” consciously and refer so intensely about it. I fear it’s a lifelong “battle”, but it is important to fight it. Serenity’s answer says it well. In the moment we embrace ourselves and love us, we can bloom again and co-exist with the shadows of the past without being influenced by them anymore.

Important write!

Love,
Margherita

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7 posted 2005-11-21 09:23 AM


I know....too very well....the pain of killing a part of oneself so that another part can live. There'll be times you mourn that part of you as you'd mourn a sister....but you'll live -- I did.

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