Open Poetry #36 |
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Killing Myself |
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timothysangel1973![]()
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough ![]() |
She was deep inside funny... how no one could see see that part of me the part that lived... lived for bent destruction and the certain sting of pain bad things weren't bad until... she could FEEL the pain or see the ashes left after the burn I had to kill her dont you see? she was a psrt yet the worst part of me she had to die, just so I could live there wasn't room for both of us and she was unwilling to give I cried the day I done it just for a minute because I knew no one would ever understand- what she and I had gone through she gave the ultimate the biggest sacrifice she had to go- living wasn't an option she simply had to die I hold her memory dear as close to my heart as one person can hold a memory she was a part of me for so long- even though she's dead sometimes I still sing her song She had to go just so that today I could go on living just so that I could say Letting go was never easy yet something I had to do killing the bad part of me- so that I could, be good - and have a future with you |
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Sunnyone Member Ascendant
since 2000-07-06
Posts 5334Staffordshire, England |
Now, this is a really serious write, and it focuses on something that we all have to decide to do at some point, and that is 'change'. Yeah, I understand this one perfectly, and appreciate the efforts and probably some of the pain that went into it's writing! Very well done...~S~ Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life |
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Startime55 Member Elite
since 2003-04-05
Posts 2148Alberta, Canada |
This poem can't help but touch each reader for at some time in our lives we have all had to change for some reason or other...Is not life itself an experience of growth through mistakes and learning from the lessons of those mistake...often we let go of the part of us who would make those kind of mistakes and come out the stronger for it...Magnificent writing from deep within...filled with a truth all can understand...Very well done...*big hugs* |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
smile... personal demons, are pretty much like the impersonal. You can send them away, but still they live. (psssssst...I happen to know though, while you can't kill a demon, you can transform one, with love.) But I'll bet you knew that. ![]() |
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stevebrklynnyc Member
since 2004-01-04
Posts 292GA, Camden |
I really enjoyed this and god knows I have made some really bad choices in my life, this write hits home. But the good news is that we are all mortal and are forgiven regardless of the deeds once performed at ones one hand, Steve. |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
Tima girl you rock! |
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Margherita Member Seraphic
since 2003-02-08
Posts 22236Eternity |
Dear Tima, you went through this “surgery” consciously and refer so intensely about it. I fear it’s a lifelong “battle”, but it is important to fight it. Serenity’s answer says it well. In the moment we embrace ourselves and love us, we can bloom again and co-exist with the shadows of the past without being influenced by them anymore. Important write! Love, Margherita ![]() |
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Ratleader![]()
since 2003-01-23
Posts 7026Visiting Earth on a Guest Pass |
I know....too very well....the pain of killing a part of oneself so that another part can live. There'll be times you mourn that part of you as you'd mourn a sister....but you'll live -- I did. ~~(¸¸¸¸ºº> ~~(¸¸¸¸ºº> ~~(¸¸ ¸¸ºº> ~~~(¸¸ER¸¸ºº> |
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