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Earth Angel
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Realms of Light

0 posted 2004-10-28 02:07 PM

I reach into the nothingness,
Searching to find him there.
But the night holds no promises,
Beyond the bleak and bare.

I call his name in to the void,
And pray that he’ll reply.
But all I hear is the silence,
With no answers to my, “Why?”

A handsome couple we once made,
~ Heads would turn in envy.
But one woman was not enough,
So he opted for a bevy.

I gave to him the all of me,
And became his loving wife.
His any wish was my command,
As I gave to him my life.

He claimed that I was “perfect”
In every single way,
That he knew that he was fortunate,
But the field he liked to play.

Recklessly he wagered all,
For the kicks of someone new.
Risk had been his drug of choice,
But it turned our life askew.

The first time I forgave him,
The second time I cried.
The third caused devastation,
And the fourth I nearly died.

I had felt so vulnerable,
For I’d lost all sense of worth.
I closed my eyes so I wouldn’t see
~ Yet my pain still grew in girth.

In ways I’m glad it’s over
For now I clearly see,
That living life for someone else,
Had led to the loss of me.

No longer do I call his name,
In the middle of the night.
For I have grown and found myself
And live my inner Light.

[This message has been edited by Earth Angel (10-28-2004 06:27 PM).]

skyshine

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since 2002-02-07

Posts 3058
Beneath the northern stars

1 posted 2004-10-28 02:08 PM

It takes a lot of strength to find that inner light at times. Great work Linda. Keep your head up!

~sky

So you go and make it happen
Do your best, just keep on laughing
It's all on you, there's always a brand new day. -Avril Lavigne

Earth Angel
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Realms of Light

2 posted 2004-10-28 02:14 PM

Hi, sky!

I am soooo happy to have this well-behind me. Sometimes life dishes out some pretty unpalatable medicine! ~ but they truly are opportunities to grow.

Instead of rolling over and dying (like I felt at the time), I pulled myself up by the bootstraps and found out what I was really made of! ~ and what I found, was more than I could have imagined! I am happier than I have ever been in my entire life!

passing shadows
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displaced

3 posted 2004-10-28 02:43 PM

*understanding this*

Susan
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walking the surreal

4 posted 2004-10-28 02:47 PM

Ah Linda - we are all so imperfect and longing for that something that sometimes seems just out of reach - I am so happy for you, to have found yourself -

Hugs - Susan

Happiness isn't something that happens to you, it's created from within you. Joy is a state of mind.

Decaflame
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since 2001-05-11

Posts 1635

5 posted 2004-10-28 02:51 PM

Wave lengths...
between angels and flames...
well done, Linda

SmartChick
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since 2001-09-23

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On A Journey To The Unknown

6 posted 2004-10-28 04:32 PM

Linda, I know how it is to lose ones self. I had been searching for the real me, since I grew up and left home. Then, I met my husband, and lost what I had found. It seems to be an easy thing to do, when you are so in love.

hoot_owl_rn
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since 1999-07-05

Posts 10750
Glen Hope, PA USA

7 posted 2004-10-28 04:57 PM

EA...you truly have found yourself and Lord how you shine

Seymour Tabin
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Tamarac Fla

8 posted 2004-10-28 05:53 PM

Earth Angel
Excellent, couldn't say it better myself.
If you weren't preoccupied and I was a morman I'd welcome you for sure. LOL

miscellanea
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since 2004-06-24

Posts 4060
OH

9 posted 2005-02-10 04:26 PM

Earth Angel,
This will stay in my heart. I'm glad that after all the challenges, you were able to have something positive come from the difficult times. I'd like to keep this.

misc'e

Earth Angel
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Realms of Light

10 posted 2005-02-10 04:38 PM

p s ~

Yes, I am sure you do understand this, Dear Dixie. ~ and I am pleased for you that your shadows are passing as have mine.

Linda

Earth Angel
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11 posted 2005-02-10 04:39 PM

Susan ~

Thank you, Sparkles! Yes, I did eventually find myself ~ and I am now a very good friend to me!

Linda

Earth Angel
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Realms of Light

12 posted 2005-02-10 04:42 PM

Decaflame ~

"Wavelengths between angel and flame" ~ How very poetic. ~ but I am sorry to learn of your depth of understanding...

EA

Earth Angel
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13 posted 2005-02-10 04:44 PM

Sweet Sue ~

Yes, it hurts beyond measure when that love is taken away. I have learned that if you love yourself, you have no fear of losing it!

Love & Light,
Linda

Earth Angel
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14 posted 2005-02-10 04:44 PM

Hoot ~

That was a very nice thing for you to say! Thank you!

Linda

Earth Angel
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15 posted 2005-02-10 04:45 PM

Mr. T. ~

Flattery will get you everywhere! ~ Well, almost!

Loves 'n hugs,
EA

Earth Angel
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16 posted 2005-02-10 04:49 PM

Misc'e ~

Well this certainly was a surprise! When I saw the title, I had thought I had opened up the wrong page!

Your wanting to save it, adds to my joy of expressing myself through poetry!

Thank you, Missy!

Hugs with love,
Linda

iliana
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since 2003-12-05

Posts 13434
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17 posted 2005-02-10 05:45 PM

"In ways I’m glad it’s over
For now I clearly see,
That living life for someone else,
Had led to the loss of me."

Earth Angel, I am so glad the real you came out to blossom! Your words here are so true...and so many of us do this (lose ourselves) only to wake up later and reclaim us, older and wiser, of course!

and LOVE ........jo

Susan
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since 2004-03-27

Posts 5104
walking the surreal

18 posted 2005-02-10 08:58 PM

I read this now again now that it's come back around -

what a good example you set - to become whole within yourself - a worthy goal for us all - for if we love and are settled within ourselves - think of all the energy we then have to spend on loving others -

Hugs lady of light -

Susan

If I wander far enough, long enough, will I finally know . . .

miscellanea
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since 2004-06-24

Posts 4060
OH

19 posted 2005-02-10 09:51 PM

Earth Angel,
Glad to surprise you! I admit that I wanted to bring forth an older one because it always seems like my old ones go to dust before my much worse newer ones! I just had to check out your closet on 34! It is heartfelt.

misc'e

Earth Angel
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Realms of Light

20 posted 2005-02-11 07:36 AM

iliana ~

Thank you, jo! I suppose that is exactly what I did ~ "blossom"! In the latter days of my old life, I felt like a dandelion. ~ Now I feel like a beauteous rose!

Love ya!
Linda

Earth Angel
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21 posted 2005-02-11 07:38 AM

Susan ~

Ahh! You came back for a second visit ~ and I appreciate that! ~ as well as your very thoughtful reply! I always welcome your feedback!

Warm hug ~ warm smile!

Linda

Earth Angel
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22 posted 2005-02-11 07:41 AM

misc'e ~

Good morning! I like surprises ~ especially pleasant ones! Thanks again!

Have a day full of wonder and joy!

Linda

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