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Daniel Storm
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since 2004-09-08

Posts 91
New York

0 posted 2004-09-19 08:51 AM

Air here is foggy, kind of tricks
your mind into thinking you can breathe,
smell of last night’s catfish comes
from the kitchen, makes me sick today

but there’s work to do. My lady left
me. The flowers didn’t work,
the candy didn’t satisfy,
folks, it was lame! I was an ass!
I wanted her to go back twenty years
so we could both live a lie. While, she
didn’t mind my looking at other women,
I know it hurt.

She had this look
on her face like she’d been slapped,
Once the words were out, it was too late.

I have an idea and my
poetry’s on hold, some.
My work begins at dawn
before the heat
I’m building us a front porch,
she wanted one for flowers
and other things,
to watch the evening pass
and the sun move down;
it sounds corny but I won’t apologize.

my hair is on my shoulders
joints ache when it rains,
her place at the table
stares at me, I’m not
twenty one anymore
and winter’s coming.

It took me more than a dozen years to find
this woman.
My eyes and arms are empty, she was
really the only centerfold I ever wanted
and I want her back, and know
that her month will go on into my years
and that I’m sorry, that I love her,
she doesn’t have to be anyone else,

just be here when the porch is done,
maybe we could read poetry together,
talk about the groceries,
hold hands, cry a little after dark,
I could rub the inside of her arm again,
do all that before we go to bed,

Where’s the board, the nails,
where’s the son I never had to help?
I should have built this twenty years ago.

ThisDiamond
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-02-22

Posts 9353
Michigan, USA

1 posted 2004-09-19 09:50 AM

I like the entrance of this pathway...
Welcome to Passions.

You know what?
You couldn't build a porch twenty years ago...but the one that you will build now...was worthy all along.

ThisDiamond

Seymour Tabin
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since 1999-07-07

Posts 31720
Tamarac Fla

2 posted 2004-09-19 10:04 AM

Daniel,
A common lament but I enjoyed yours very much.

Honeybunch
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-12-29

Posts 7115
South Africa

3 posted 2004-09-19 10:05 AM

A very sad read but one so familiar to a lot of people. "I should have built this twenty years ago" - and the realisation of that is building more than you can know - for your "soul", that is.

Midnitesun

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since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

4 posted 2004-09-19 10:27 AM

That porch will hold much more than flowers. It shall hold memories, hopes and dreams.
Perhaps she will sit on it yet.
Very tender heartfelt write, Daniel.
Welcome to Passions.

Sunshine

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since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

5 posted 2004-09-19 10:34 AM

It took me more than a dozen years to find
this woman.

~*~

Good things take time. Good read, Daniel.

Daniel Storm
Member

since 2004-09-08

Posts 91
New York

6 posted 2004-09-19 10:54 AM

Thanks, its a wrap around porch.

Susan
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since 2004-03-27

Posts 5104
walking the surreal

7 posted 2004-09-19 11:59 AM

Oh my, this makes me feel so sad and I hope she has a chance to understand how you truly feel, for I am certain it would move her heart to compassion -

Susan

Happiness isn't something that happens to you, it's created from within you. Joy is a state of mind.

Daniel Storm
Member

since 2004-09-08

Posts 91
New York

8 posted 2004-09-19 02:04 PM

Susan, thanks, things are going pretty swell right now (back sore) but other thant, great

Martie

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since 1999-09-21

Posts 28049
California

9 posted 2004-09-19 02:12 PM

Daniel

I have a feeling that your are building more then a porch.

kayjay
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since 2002-06-24

Posts 2015
Oregon

10 posted 2004-09-19 02:20 PM

Sounds like you have indeed been around the block of life. This is a telling write. Well done. Ken

Through rubble and trouble and dark of night
The yawn of a dawn will hasten the light

BluesSerenade
Member Patricius

since 2001-10-23

Posts 10549
By the Seaside

11 posted 2004-09-19 02:34 PM

My eyes and arms are empty, she was
really the only centerfold I ever wanted
and I want her back, and know
that her month will go on into my years
and that I’m sorry, that I love her,
she doesn’t have to be anyone else,

This hurts so bad!  Of course we can't ever go back,
or take back and right our wrongs.  But your poem makes me wish
it were possible,  if only to spend a little more time.

How my heart aches for you,  and me too.

Sadly beautiful this is, Daniel~

Daniel Storm
Member

since 2004-09-08

Posts 91
New York

12 posted 2004-09-19 04:23 PM

ah hah! You're all perceptive little critters huh? heh Heh, thanks so much. I'm glad you liked this.

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