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JP
Senior Member

since 1999-05-25

Posts 1343
Loomis, CA

0 posted 2000-06-08 02:34 PM

Approaching the door
hesitantly, warily.
I reach for the bell
and push.
My arrival announced,
serves to feed my fear,
of denial and rejection.
I left here silently,
when you were not looking.
Slipping away,
ghostly.
It was not until I err'd
that you knew I had left.
and that error was enough
for most to close the door
forever.
At the door now,
waiting for your reply.
The threshold of your heart
has never looked so frightening.
Am I more afraid
of being turned away,
or of being accepted
and living with my guilt?
Do I fear your love
and your forgiveness?
Or my own inability to
let bygones be bygones?
Regardless of my fear,
here I am,
at the door to your heart,
at the door to my home.

Yesterday is ash, tomorrow is smoke; only today does the fire burn.
JP

amazon_lover
Member

since 2000-04-09

Posts 491
Dublin,Ireland

1 posted 2000-06-08 04:22 PM

Hi JP
Thats a nice portrayal anxiety over love's rejection or denial. I've been in that position and I know somethins are destined to happen how much ever we may try
Sincerely
A_L

bluebrdy65
Member

since 2000-05-16

Posts 276
Gladys,

2 posted 2000-06-08 06:38 PM

I too have been here.
Not a fun place.
great poem
best wishes
Blue

kynder
Senior Member

since 2000-04-11

Posts 537
Tallahassee, Florida

3 posted 2000-06-08 06:53 PM

regardless of my fear, here i am. man can i relate to that. regardless of many things i have stood at doors i shouldn't have. are they just like me for letting me in???? this is very profound to me. thank you!!

kynder

The years teach much which the days never know. Ralph Waldo Emerson

lotharingia
Senior Member

since 2000-06-04

Posts 897
saarbruecken, Germany

4 posted 2000-06-09 06:50 AM

Great poem about anxiety and overcoming it, and of admitting to mistakes in the name of something definitely better. So many people don't have that courage as they cannot bear the thought of being rejected!

Uta Lotharingia
"Wir wollen nicht Wert und Sinn ... wir wollen Unwert und Unsinn"
Raoul Hausmann

Portia
Member

since 2000-05-18

Posts 157

5 posted 2000-06-09 01:58 PM

"Am I more afraid
of being turned away,
or of being accepted
and living with my guilt?"

A valid question... and one that I don't think many people can put into words. Well said.

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