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Jeffyf
Junior Member

since 2000-05-28

Posts 49
Muncie, IN

0 posted 2000-06-08 04:40 AM

Where did it go?  What happened to my eyes?
They’re empty now, like before the dawn came.
They used to shine so, but no longer do they glimmer.
How blue they were!  Oh, to be that blue again…
They used to be bright and happy.
Forlorn and downtrodden they now are,
empty shells of what once gleamed resiliently.
How did this happen?  Why did I ever do this to myself?
Why, oh why did I ever have to hurt her so?

I came down this path, wandering about, trying to get somewhere.
The path has become darkened by my sorrow.
I’ve become lost, wrapped up in my own world.
My perspective has been destroyed, and my vision clouded.
Where did she go?  How can I find her again?
How can I forgive myself?  Why did I hurt her so?

I weep.  The pain overwhelms me as I suffer in silence.
My eyes aren’t quite as empty as they fill with tears.
I can still hear her soft words telling me that she loves me.
I can remember so vividly how I held her, telling her of my love.
I destroyed a once wonderful trust, and hurt her so.

She doesn’t know which path to follow.
I only hope that she will choose the one that leads to the light.
My eyes are once again empty, surrounded by nothingness.
The tears are gone.  They no longer come to me.
They have all been cried, and I can cry no more.
My path grows darker with every step I take.
Anguish fills my heart, because I know I hurt her so.

If I knew it would have turned out this way,
I never would have hurt her so.

                           Jeffrey Frazier 6-8-2000

[This message has been edited by Jeffyf (edited 06-08-2000).]

Jeffyf
Junior Member

since 2000-05-28

Posts 49
Muncie, IN

1 posted 2000-06-08 04:43 AM

Sorry about the picture, I'm not very good with HTML. Here, this should work.

lotharingia
Senior Member

since 2000-06-04

Posts 897
saarbruecken, Germany

2 posted 2000-06-08 05:32 AM

Interesting pespective. I guess it's the people we love most who are often the ones that also get hurt most. One of the ironies of human psychology.

Uta Lotharingia
"Wir wollen nicht Wert und Sinn ... wir wollen Unwert und Unsinn"
Raoul Hausmann

Jeffyf
Junior Member

since 2000-05-28

Posts 49
Muncie, IN

3 posted 2000-06-08 05:39 AM

Thank you, lotharingia. It is the human condition to hurt and be hurt. Only time can heal the wounds of our hearts. Only time can tell what the future holds. I try, though it may be hard, to look forward to tomorrow and what joy it may bring me.
Jeffrey

Poet deVine

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Member Seraphic

since 1999-05-26

Posts 22612
Hurricane Alley

4 posted 2000-06-08 07:03 PM

Excellent! Sometimes we don't know just how much pain we inflict...and feel ourselves...

What graphic were you trying to use? Is it on your hard drive?

bluebrdy65
Member

since 2000-05-16

Posts 276
Gladys,

5 posted 2000-06-09 07:33 AM

Very good poem
I know how you feel.
I've been there before.
I hope your future holds happiness and love
Blue

Irish Rose
Member Patricius

since 2000-04-06

Posts 10263

6 posted 2000-06-09 08:32 AM

this was very, very insightful.
very much so

Kathleen

"How do I love thee? Let
me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace." Elizabeth Barrett Browning

amazon_lover
Member

since 2000-04-09

Posts 491
Dublin,Ireland

7 posted 2000-06-09 10:39 AM

Its very touching and I've felt it. Its a sinful feeling when we hurt the one we love..
Sincerely
A_L

Jeffyf
Junior Member

since 2000-05-28

Posts 49
Muncie, IN

8 posted 2000-06-10 02:59 PM

Thank you all for your comments and insights. It's great to have people read my poems and actually appreciate them.
Jeffy

kynder
Senior Member

since 2000-04-11

Posts 537
Tallahassee, Florida

9 posted 2000-06-12 06:52 PM

i can really feel the pain you are expressing here. to have lost that twinkle in your eye is truly a loss felt inside as well. i also really like the feeling of acceptance this place brings!! hang in there!!

kynder

The years teach much which the days never know. Ralph Waldo Emerson

monet9
New Member

since 2000-06-09

Posts 5

10 posted 2000-06-12 06:58 PM

sad but true. sometimes happiness is before our very eyes and we don't see it. the ice in your heart will eventually melt and be fodder for another

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