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Broken Wings Member
since 2000-03-18
Posts 157Miami, FL. |
Betrayal Throughout my life I have known happiness and despair. I’ve learned how to love and hate. I’ve often walked that familiar road to hell. Yes, once or twice I have thrown my life off a ledge, but this world would not let it come to an end. I have lived through days, weeks, and months of storms, surviving by holding on to the hope that there was something more. My childhood was destroyed by your usage of drugs. My innocence stolen, by someone I thought I could trust. For years I lived alone in silence with that deep dark secret Until I told you. The years past but the day for you to defend me from the thief did arrive. With only a few words, you could erase my shame and restore my pride. We met him face to face and even though my whole body shook, I felt strong with you by my side. Then… Hugs and kisses you exchanged As I felt my strength start to slip away. Embraced by fear Frozen by shock Once again I saw myself in that room of shame, lying in a bed of tears. Unable to move Unable to breathe My soul screamed that the nightmare would end. Brought back by the sounds of your laughter and footsteps My heart bled My life shattered As you and the thief walked away. Now… I can’t live in tomorrow I don’t live in today I only live trapped in yesterday, Where a mother’s betrayal was too much to take. "As you learn and grow, you will realize the greater the pain, the greater the growth." -IYANLA VANZANT |
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just_another_fe Member
since 2000-02-05
Posts 483MICHIGAN |
Broken Wings~ WOW...I really don't know what to say. This is well written. Very powerful words. I could picture this in my head as i was reading it. Good Job. ~Angie |
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Hope, tears, and renewal Member
since 2000-03-27
Posts 74 |
That made me cry... I wish you the best of luck in moving on... or dwelling... whichever you choose, good luck. |
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Broken Wings~ this made me cry. I can't even imagine going through that. I'm so sorry for your heart. No mother should be that way.-SEA |
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Virgo Junior Member
since 2000-03-27
Posts 46tx |
I know what it feels like to have a deep dark secret...knowing and feeling that betrayal. At least you can write about it which is one step closer to healing...my heart goes out to you. It was a great poem but it brought back too many memories...stay strong. |
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StarrGazer Senior Member
since 2000-03-05
Posts 679Texas |
Broken Wings this brought me to tears too wonderfully written ((((((Hugggzzzz))))) here for you should you ever need anyone to talk to Shan "A poet is one who spends a lifetime standing out in thunderstorms, waiting to be hit by lightning" ~Randal Jarrell~ |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Broken you did a nice job of writing down your feelings here...I'm sorry...it's so sad that your mom could not sense your need for her to be there for you and to stand with you at that moment..it is my hope that she will someday understand and share your pain. Healing will come with or with out her understanding..it will come from within your heart. Take care. James |
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Broken Wings Member
since 2000-03-18
Posts 157Miami, FL. |
Angie~ Thank You For Reading, i'm glad you liked it.  Hope~ sorry for making you cry..my wish is that one day i will be able to move on before it destroys me. Thank You Sea~ sorry for making you cry too.. she has done many things to me, i really thought that she would stand by me that time.Thank you for reading. Virgo~ i'm sorry that it brought you back painful memories...and i hope that by writting about it is a step forward and not backward. **HUG** Starr~ Thank you for the offer...i'm sorry i made you cry also...it wasnt my intention to make anyone sad...i felt the need to write and share this poem with you all...my 2nd home.thanks for the hug and heres one for you **HUG** James~ so far it seems that my healing will have to come without her understanding and that hurts even more.I hope the healing comes soon, i fear this pain is destroying my husband and kids lives. Thank You for your wishes. < !signature-->"As you learn and grow, you will realize the greater the pain, the greater the growth." -IYANLA VANZANT [This message has been edited by Broken Wings (edited 03-29-2000).] |
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dhuron Member
since 2000-03-19
Posts 476 |
This is so PIERCING Broken, so very Piercing The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, not the kindly smile, not the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone believes in him and is willing to trust him with his friendship." --Ralph Waldo Emerson |
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Angel Usagi Junior Member
since 2000-03-29
Posts 11 |
Very well written poem. It made me cry. ~*Angel Usagi*~ |
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AVANTI Senior Member
since 2000-02-02
Posts 664INDIA/MAHARASHTRA/PUNE |
such a powerful verse... deep feelings...and so much pain in it... it beautuiful you don't have to understand completely..to love completely... remember even the darkest night has a morning to meet...you'll understand someday..Avanti Rao |
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Sandra Cox Junior Member
since 2000-03-24
Posts 48Essex, London,UK |
What very powerful words and how sad. I guess its not the first time someone will say this but she may have destroyed your life so far, don't let her destroy your soul or what's left of your life. You have many people who care about you, take strength from that and beat this evil that has led you here so far! Best wishes for the future. Sandra x |
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Broken Wings Member
since 2000-03-18
Posts 157Miami, FL. |
dhuron~ thats exactly what it feels like. Thanks for reading. Angel~ Thank you and sorry for the tears.Avanti~ Thanky you for taking the time to read it. Sandra~ Thank you for your words of strength. |
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Broken Member
since 2000-03-12
Posts 271The woods |
Exellent poem Broken Wings! There is so much in it that I relate to and have lived through myself. Loved the ending ******* I can’t live in tomorrow I don’t live in today I only live trapped in yesterday, Where a mother’s betrayal was too much to take. ***** Don't let go of your hope, it will get you through anything. Hugs to you my friend ~Broken I bleed my feelings on a white sheet I color the blank page red It leaves me blodless Pallid and stale While the crimson pain thunder in my head ~Broken~ |
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Broken Wings Member
since 2000-03-18
Posts 157Miami, FL. |
Broken~ Thank you, and i'm sorry that you can relate to this. i hope that your rite about HOPE getting me thru this. a **HUG** to you too. "As you learn and grow, you will realize the greater the pain, the greater the growth." -IYANLA VANZANT |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
Broken This left me feeling all jumbled up...i sorta can relate to this in a way, describes my bio mom to an extent. This made me cry, it was so powerful. I could literally feel your words. You are a very strong person. Let nothing knock you down. If you need someone to talk to email me and i'll get back to ya. AMY ~Live today as though it were your last but prepare for tomorrow as though it were here~ |
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thebeautybrat Member
since 2000-03-30
Posts 114Florida |
Wow!!! it must be really tough having to live with that!! I'm so very sorry for the pain that you have experienced and i think it's great that even with a past like that you still had the strength to have kids yourdelf. You are a great poet and you should write many more in the future!! |
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ShadowHeart Junior Member
since 2000-03-25
Posts 49 |
Great poem! I sometimes feel this way too. Just hang on!! I found that talking to my friends helps... Love is our greatest weakness but when it's found, it's our greatest strength. |
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Broken Wings Member
since 2000-03-18
Posts 157Miami, FL. |
Amy~ Thank you for the offer sorry that i made you cry tho. I wish i could be stronger when it comes to her...Oh well....maybe someday.Brat~ I had kids cuz i wanted to be to them what my mother wasn't to me..WOW! thanks for calling me a poet, i don't really see myself as one...but it feels good being thought as one. Thanks ShadowHeart~ I'm sorry that you know how it is to feel this way...it can be torture on the soul. I don't have many friends and saying things like this don't come easy to me, but writing helps me lots! |
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