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Thats Why I Cry
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Thats Why I Cry |
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just_another_fe Member
since 2000-02-05
Posts 483MICHIGAN 
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This morning I layed in bed with my eyes closed holding my pillow tight and for a minute I thought it was you. But when I opened my eyes it was just a pillow and then I cried. I cried knowing that I'll never be able to hold you like that. When you call me "momma" or "baby" and you say "i love you" I get the biggest smile on my face A feeling of happiness fills my body and then I cry. I cry knowing that I will never hear you say them words to me with all the meaning that I give them. When I talk to you on the phone I'm so happy. I let your beautiful voice flow through my ears. I study the way your words sound and then I cry. I cry knowing that I'll never sit on the couch next to you to talk. Because I'll never see the way your lips move when you say the words I study through the phone lines I pretend I'm there example *sits on your lap* I imagine how it really feels to touch you and then I cry. I cry knowing that I'll never be there! I'll never sit on your lap! You will never hold me! When you talk about your family I hope they are all doing well. I smile at the accomplishments your brothers have had. I'm happy that your dad better now and then I cry. I cry knowing that I will never meet them. Because your family will never be mine. When you talk about your boyz at school or the guyz at Johns house I laugh. You guyz are so funny and then I cry. I cry knowing that I'll never meet them. I'll never hear them tell me stories about you. When you get mad at me and yell at me I cry. I'm not crying at the words your saying to me even if they hurt. I cry knowing that I'll never be able to look you in the eyes when you yell at me and I'll never be able to give you a hug and a kiss when we make up. When you tell me stories I listen to them and I love them. They make me so proud of you and then I cry. I cry knowing that I'll never be that girl in the stands waiting for the game to end. I'll never be that girl thats suppose to meet you by the gym doors. I'll never be the girl that you see in your smoke filled car. I'll never be the girl that lays next to you in your bed and I'll never be able to hear you tell our kids these same stories that make you the man that you are. The man that I am so proud of and the man that I have grown to love more then life. THAT'S WHY I CRY! |
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Dark_kisses_Within Senior Member
since 2000-03-21
Posts 680Kansas |
Excellent Poem!! So much feeling flowing through your words. I could actually feel the heartache from this poem! Great Job!! Peace |
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Broken Wings Member
since 2000-03-18
Posts 157Miami, FL. |
WONDERFUL POEM! what i wonder is why you think you'll never be that girl? maybe one day you'll will be....life has a funny way of making things happen.  take care, Broken Wings "As you learn and grow, you will realize the greater the pain, the greater the growth." -IYANLA VANZANT |
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SEA 
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
J-A-F~ sorry you are hurting. It seems there is a MUCH bigger story here........ I hope you find a man you can be with instead of just wishing for it. -SEA |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
I felt your pain and sorrow, it sux, but sometimes things aren't meant to be, no matter how we want them. It's a cruel part of life.  *HUGS*There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self... ~Isis~ (Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit) |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Angie I know how hard it can be when someone you care so much for seems to be so far away. There will always come a day when we need to decide how long we will wait for this desire in our heart to be fulfilled. And a day when we must let go if the truth is it never will. I've done the same thing with my pillow. Take care, James |
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Angel Usagi Junior Member
since 2000-03-29
Posts 11 |
Don't ever give up. I have the same problem...with the guy I love...but that's another story. Spread your wings and fly. Never ever give up hope. And remember...smile!  ~*Angel Usagi*~ |
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JOY 14 Senior Member
since 1999-09-22
Posts 1419Wisconsin USA |
I can certainly see why you cry. Love hurts but it makes you happy too, as you describe here so well. Joy |
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Zunera Junior Member
since 2000-03-29
Posts 30Pakistan |
I have no words to express the truth of agony in love that flew throughout ur remarkable piece of work. keep up ur soul. |
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just_another_fe Member
since 2000-02-05
Posts 483MICHIGAN |
Thank you all for replying Broken Wings: why? he lives in california i live in michigan. I'm not sure that he feels the same way about me. I don't think he wants me to be that girl.This is about a month old and things are actually starting to look brighter for us. so hey who knows it could work i guess. i hope. i pray. Sea: much bigger thanx James: I'm glad to see im not the only one huggin my pillow wishing it was someone Angel: lol i dont believe in the words "give up" *big smile* lol if i was gonna do that i would have did it a year ago when i met him lol Again thanx everyone you guyz are the best *hugz to all of you: beaming the flashlight around* ~Angie |
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