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Janet Marie
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since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554


0 posted 2000-03-21 02:14 AM


~Desire of Desperation~

No longer seeking reasons,
conclusions now well defined.
Consumed by my confessions...
leaving all lucidity behind.

Entranced by your expectations,
habitual is my need.
Rituals of this obsession,
rapacious, your inscripted creed.

Addiction or affliction,
Illusions blind reality.
Denial assisted downfall ...
this descent into shame and iniquity.

Unable to make distinctions,
desire born of desperation.
Fascination holds me hostage,
granting consent to this imprecation.

Explanations wont excuse...
genius diagnose... offering identification of this humiliation.
Medications cant cure, only ease...
desiring desperately ... to be free of this debasing incantation.

janet marie

**I wanted to note, this is not about me personally, I wrote this after watching a TV program where this beautiful young woman, damaged by her painful past confessed to being addicted to men...NOT sex...but men, or her need of love and affection, but of course to hold them, the sex became issue...I was most taken with how she just sat there in her quiet humilation, while 3 doctors discussed her, as if she wasn't even in the room, all having a different opinion on how to "cure" her...at the very end of the show, when asked, she said..."All I ever wanted, was unconditional love"...
I wrote this as if I was her confessing the pain...
while I have shared much of my own "dysfunction" (smile) this is not about me.
thanks for reading
jm
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 and you can say baby...
baby can I hold you tonight
maybe if told you the right words...
at the right time,
you'd be mine...
baby can I hold you tonight...
tracy chapman






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StarrGazer
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since 2000-03-05
Posts 679
Texas
1 posted 2000-03-21 08:45 AM


Janet Marie- This was great full of emotion !!

 "A poet is one who spends a lifetime standing out in thunderstorms, waiting to be hit by lightning"
~Randal Jarrell~



PoeticKnight
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since 2000-01-20
Posts 1144
New Orleans, LA
2 posted 2000-03-21 09:21 AM


JM...what can i say? Emotional, powerful.....the words and flow of this...you keep getting better and better.
Dark Enchantress
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since 1999-07-27
Posts 1258
meet Morgana
3 posted 2000-03-21 04:08 PM


I can always expect the best from you JM.   So full of emotion and deep meaning...very well done.

                 Yours truly,
                    Angel


 "The dark weight of the hour
humming madly
filling my head
with blood
and sorrow
and dread
the executioner's song."
-Jewel
"The Dark Bells"

~*Angel of Darkness*~


Isis
Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland
4 posted 2000-03-21 08:16 PM


Dear Janet Marie, your sensitivity showed through in this poem, long before my eyes read your note ** at the end of the piece.  Such a sensitive soul you have and I'm glad to see it.  So sad how they do this humiliation to many people.. Well done hon  

 There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self...
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)



Aiden Kelly
Member
since 2000-02-14
Posts 148
Ft. Wayne, IN USA
5 posted 2000-03-22 05:35 PM


very well done as always, jm!    amazing how the lives and stories of others can impact our own lives and art!  you've potrayed this woman's pain so well...almost as if you could feel what she was feeling...that's a gift, jm!  i can feel her pain through this piece...
******
Addiction or affliction,
Illusions blind reality.
Denial assisted downfall...
this descent into shame and iniquity.
*****
great work, hon!  

StarryEyed
Junior Member
since 2000-03-22
Posts 20
Florida
6 posted 2000-03-22 07:16 PM


Hey that was a great poem JM.  I loved the emotions and feelings in it!

~SE

Tess
Member
since 2000-03-22
Posts 288
Australia
7 posted 2000-03-23 10:50 AM


You put your self inside her skin..inside her soul and that is a rare talent..displyed by your gifted writing.

If you hadn't written that foot note I would have assumed this was a personal poem

very touching

Tess

 "What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two
bodies."
-Aristotle


Broken
Member
since 2000-03-12
Posts 271
The woods
8 posted 2000-03-23 02:39 PM


You have a great way of expressing your feelings, it`s a rare gift. Keep on writing, you are an inspiration to us all.

 I`m running out of time, I`m out of step and closing down, I never sleep for wanting hours the empty hours of greed. And uselessly always the need to feel again the real belief, of something more than mockery. If only I could fill my heart with love. -Robert Smith

Jannel
Member
since 2000-01-18
Posts 492
Muncie, IN, USA
9 posted 2000-03-23 11:04 PM


wonderful use of this story into beautiful words.
jannel

 Dont wake the dead,
Wake the dying,
Don't change what you've said,
Change what you're saying.

Sven
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since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA
10 posted 2000-03-23 11:57 PM


I can see that the story had a powerful effect on you JM. . . it shows in this piece. . . you always have a way of making it real to all of us. . .

Wonderful words. . .

-----------------------------------------------------

 That which gives light must endure burning
--Victor Frankl


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