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JamesMichael
Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

0 posted 2000-03-19 12:56 PM


Only my dream

When you leave
I won't say don't go.
I'll only say goodbye.
It won't be a mad one.
Only a sad one.
I don't like the reasons you must go
but all the reasons are listed below.
One is we should have remained only friends
no more or less.
Two is I shouldn't have so desperately grabbed for more knowing you wanted much less.
Three would have to be a love that never grew or progressed
as each new day brought less love and more stress.
The fourth reason why this love must go on the shelf
is only a fool would fall in love all by himself.
Reason five screams out telling me we should have remained only special friends
I was the only one who screwed up and opened up my heart once again.
Six finished us off and sealed our fate.
We should have stopped the race at the starting gate.
I feel sad that my precious love was doomed to die.
And its true the seventh reason will always be
all the blame must be put on me.
It was only I that could not accept
all seven reasons show a failed friendship attempt.
Our fate is now set thru all eternity.
You never ask me to fall in love its true
it was only my dream for me and you.

Jameslee@March18,2000
sorryGina


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Aiden Kelly
Member
since 2000-02-14
Posts 148
Ft. Wayne, IN USA
1 posted 2000-03-19 02:15 AM


i hear you, my friend.  been there too!  i bashed my head against a wall for a long time until i realized that i couldn't go on blaming myself and i should try to pick up the pieces.  try it.   it may work and it may not but at least you tried.  so much emotion.  i feel where you are coming from.  hang in there my friend!   and keep up the wonderful writing!
StarrGazer
Senior Member
since 2000-03-05
Posts 679
Texas
2 posted 2000-03-19 02:34 AM


James,  this poem was beautiful in such a sad  way ... the line that really bugged me  was you taking all the blame ... in takes two to make a relationship work and  if it doesn't work out maybe it was just not meant to be  ... no one's  fault  

 "A poet is one who spends a lifetime standing out in thunderstorms, waiting to be hit by lightning"
~Randal Jarrell~



Janet Marie
Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554

3 posted 2000-03-19 09:36 AM


my sweet jimmylee...your heart speaks to me in this, as always...
if she couldnt see the love inside of you...it is her blindness that is her loss.
beautiful poem james...the listing of reasons was exceptional.
take care, jm

 and you can say baby...
baby can I hold you tonight
maybe if told you the right words...
at the right time,
you'd be mine...
baby can I hold you tonight...
tracy chapman



JamesMichael
Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA
4 posted 2000-03-20 05:05 PM


Thank you Aiden.  I don't know if blame is the right word...but I want to take the responsibility for my mistakes or failures so I can improve myself.  I really can't blame her for not falling in love with me...I have to blame myself for falling in love with someone that didn't care to return my love.
StarrGazer thanks for reading and commenting.  I believe that our relationship was meant to be but only as a special friendship.  If someone wanted to be your friend and you fell in love with them would you demand their love in return..or would you respect their feelings and return to a friendship position?
Thank you lovely Marie...you touch my heart with your wonderful comments.  Yes it was her loss and it is her loss today...but it will always remain our loss and our failure.
I must go on..when I write about my feelings it helps me to understand and let go of my dream.  Thanks everyone,  James

Isis
Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland
5 posted 2000-03-20 07:21 PM


James, Lessons learned, and a new loving and true heart show through in all your poetry.  If she cannot see these things, it's her loss, not yours.  You wouldn't want to be with an unfeeling woman anyways..
Beautiful as always my friend  

 May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)


Isis
Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland
6 posted 2000-03-20 07:24 PM


James, Lessons learned, and a new loving and true heart show through in all your poetry.  If she cannot see these things, it's her loss, not yours.  You wouldn't want to be with an unfeeling woman anyways..
Beautiful as always my friend  

 May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)


JamesMichael
Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA
7 posted 2000-03-21 05:56 AM


Isis your words of encouragement to me are precious.   I can say with all of my heart and all of my soul.....NO..NO..No..I do not want to be with an unfeeling woman.  Thanks hon.   James
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