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Broken
Member

since 2000-03-12

Posts 271
The woods

0 posted 2000-03-16 02:34 PM

This poem I wrote two years ago, it was a part of my suicide note. It might not be the best poem I`ve written, but as you probably can understand it`s the one that means the most to me. It reminds me of the worst time of my life. That`s why I chose the nickname "Broken"
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BROKEN

I`m lower than ever
It`s slower than ever
I can`t remember the sound of my laughter
I can`t imagine me ever smiling again

These last few days
I`ve been a living dead
And the screams ring on in my head
"You`re nothing!"
"You mean nothing!"

It`s breaking me down
And tearing me apart
I`m just a shadow of my former self
This is my last cry for help

And all the reasons I once had
The reasons to live
Have turned against me
Now they`re reasons to die

I dedicate my suicide to those
Whose pain were to big a burden to bear
Whose lifes were to cruel to live
To those who were destine to die

And in dispair I cry for you
I light a candle and beg
Please let me in, please treat me well
Greet me warm as I join in to

I`ve had enough, let me go
You cut me to hard
The wounds are to deep
No I don`t need a doctor
A doctor can`t heal my soul

I hate myself, more than ever
So take my life
As you took everything
And tonight...
Tonight gods will make love in my empty bed
Cause the words you said
Rings on and on and on in my breaking head
You broke me down
I`m broken...

Dark Enchantress
Senior Member

since 1999-07-27

Posts 1258
meet Morgana

1 posted 2000-03-16 04:44 PM

A sound so familiar to me...and I understand how this poem means so much to you even though it speaks of your most painful moments. I have many like this...I just recently wrote one that would be my goodbye...whatever I have...is slowly coming to an end. But that's beside the point...this was wonderful and beautiful to me no matter what it speaks of. But I hope thoughts of your death have left your mind...atleast somewhat.

                 Yours truly,
                    Angel

"The dark weight of the hour
humming madly
filling my head
with blood
and sorrow
and dread
the executioner's song."
-Jewel
"The Dark Bells"

~*Angel of Darkness*~

SEA

Moderator

Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

2 posted 2000-03-16 06:11 PM

Broken~ I felt the pain pouring out. I'm so glad you are here. -SEA

Broken
Member

since 2000-03-12

Posts 271
The woods

3 posted 2000-03-17 06:02 PM

Thanks. It helps knowing others feel the same way I do. I glad you`re here supporting me.

Janet Marie
Member Laureate

since 2000-01-22

Posts 18554

4 posted 2000-03-18 10:30 AM

Tonight gods will make love in my empty bed
Cause the words you said
Rings on and on and on in my breaking head
You broke me down
I`m broken...
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this poem sent a chill thru me...its emotions move me...your pain reads so poetically perfect in this...
I'm most of all grateful your still here to share this...others can also find healing and strength in your words.
take care, please.
jm

Now for me some words come easy
But I know that they don't mean that much
Compared with the things that are said when lovers touch
You never knew what I loved in you
I don't know what you loved in me
Maybe the picture of somebody you were hoping I might be
jackson browne

Aiden Kelly
Member

since 2000-02-14

Posts 148
Ft. Wayne, IN USA

5 posted 2000-03-19 12:17 PM

ok, i cried and my heart is heavy b/c i felt the same way just 2 years ago. i think this poem may be your best for the simple reason that it lays your soul bare and touches everyone who reads it to the core. i'm glad you made it through, hon. it's hard but death isn't worth it. there really is sooo much to live for. i wish that when i was sooo very depressed i could have seen that. but i've learned so much as i'm sure you did too. you're a wonderful poet, hon. keep it up! love you, my friend.

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