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Maya the Brokenhearted
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since 2000-02-13
Posts 66


0 posted 2000-02-27 09:32 PM


This is the first in a series of a 12 step program I just developed to cure myself of an unhealthy addiction I have been struggling with for years...
Please forgive the swear words...they are "poem appropriate" but if not "forum appropriate" I will edit   (Just lemme know!)

I didn't want to think of you today
and dammit I did
I wrote a beautiful poem
and wondered if you knew

the sun smiled down at me
briefly today
through the clouds and rain
and it took but a moment
for my mind to zoom
6000 miles and wonder
what your day looked like

damn you for everything
for being in the air I breathe
damn you for the trees
the stupid green trees
damn you for loving nature
like I do
damn you for the birds
damn you for the wind
damn you for EVERYTHING
damn you for telling me
how the crescent moon reminds
you of us
so now it reminds me of us too
even the waves speak your name to my heart
BUT I JUST WANT TO FORGET
but dammit I can't
and I need someone to tell me why

I knew you were out there today
and I knew you knew I was there too
the silence between us
as strong as a spoken word
damn you for that
for knowing I knew
for being there
for the connection

DAMN YOU!



[This message has been edited by Maya the Brokenhearted (edited 02-27-2000).]

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Poet deVine
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612
Hurricane Alley
1 posted 2000-02-27 09:36 PM


I could almost see you standing there, saying 'damn you'...with tears in your eyes... so sad..and I understand...
Maya the Brokenhearted
Member
since 2000-02-13
Posts 66

2 posted 2000-02-27 09:39 PM


I could just scream right now! LOL
Maybe I should......

AARGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!
nope didn't help
*sigh*
ahh well
on to poem #2

Isis
Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296
Sunny Queensland
3 posted 2000-02-28 12:09 PM


Damn him!!  I hate that, you never look at the things you both loved the same for a quite a while.  It is almost LIKE he did this to taunt you.. I know I too understand.
Well written hon  

 May the world hug you today,
With it's warmth and love.
I pray it whispers a joyful tune in your heart,
That tell you there is a friend sitting in another corner of the world,
Wishing you well and
wishing you love......
~Isis~
(Goddess - Sovereign of the Spirit)



Jannel
Member
since 2000-01-18
Posts 492
Muncie, IN, USA
4 posted 2000-02-28 12:30 PM


"damn you for telling me
how the crescent moon reminds
you of us"
i can't tell you how many beautiful things have been ruined for me by making them "ours" what a wonderful, heartfelt poem.
jannel


 "I'm just saying
that we've mistaken one
for thousands of words,
and for that mistake
I've caused you such pain
that I damn that word."
-10000 Maniacs "Jezebel"



JamesMichael
Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA
5 posted 2000-02-28 05:47 AM


It appears that you are determined to make some progress to overcome this.   Both the pain and your anger will help you get thru this.  Keep going.      James
Michael
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-13
Posts 7666
California
6 posted 2000-02-28 07:46 AM


Damn, Damn, Damn...
What can I say, you know I understand this one all too well.  Emotions laces this one, Maya.  You have my empathy.


Michael

Lil OnE
Member
since 1999-12-14
Posts 234
Pasco County. Fl.
7 posted 2000-02-29 02:18 PM


Damn him and damn him for making you damn everything else. I completely relate to this one. I loved this so much and I had to read it twice cause it was so powerful and spoke so powerfully to me. I actually sat with tears in my eyes. Very well expressed!

 You don't know me, but you don't like me.
You say you could care less how I feel.
But how many of you who sit and judge me
have ever walked the streets in my shoes?-Korn
~Lil OnE~



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