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1slick_lady
Member Ascendant

since 2000-12-22

Posts 6088
standing on a shadow's lace

0 posted 2004-06-26 06:05 PM

I Am Not Past It

I quietly cry at night
and I don’t know why
no one is here but me
no sheeted sounds stirring
but pillows recognize tears
dreary restless dreamless nights
so I rise from a bed that is
too cold and can not hold me
pulled like a magnet to pages
as empty and blank as me
where my heart bleeds ink
word
after
word
will slowly drip by until I
can write away this ache
a thousand words go flying
and I am still not past it
just how long will it take
to be back to who I was once
now every night slips too slowly
and is exactly a repeat of the last
I sit here watching the moon
and I have learned to hate it
as it sits next to the northern star
and I am just so lost and
I can not find home

"be prepared to bleed" Joni Mitchell

[This message has been edited by 1slick_lady (06-26-2004 06:47 PM).]

Professor Gloom
Member Elite

since 2000-07-23

Posts 3082
of Depression

1 posted 2004-06-26 07:10 PM

What tear may cross your cheek
What wandering place will it seek
The corner of you lips drooping?

Will some lucky pillow
Catch it before dream’s shadow,
Will the morrow find you hoping?

Gloom

ctowen
Member Elite

since 2001-10-18

Posts 2286
Green Mountains of VT

2 posted 2004-06-26 09:01 PM

It is not to be Past ...
but held "dammed" in each Tomorrow's wake ...

     ... a reminder to help each new step we take.

   Not to foreverlast ...
   for such emotions shall one day flood ...

           ... cleansing us, just like any stick in the mud!

                        ride the waves!

                             *S

"In life's giving ... love is a gift, such worth living."

Sunshine

Administrator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-06-25

Posts 63354
Listening to every heart

3 posted 2004-06-26 09:23 PM

But something tells me the new path
will have a different moon under a
new northern star...I'm so proud of
your recent accomplishments!

Kethry
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

4 posted 2004-06-26 11:05 PM

Maybe you never will be past it, but you sure have 'got it' in the meantime. Thanks for writing this gem.

Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown

Ericc
Member Elite

since 2003-01-31

Posts 4178

5 posted 2004-06-27 12:40 PM

So moving...so touching.

Eric

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

6 posted 2004-06-27 12:43 PM

one day, when it's meant to be

Martie

Moderator

Member Empyrean

since 1999-09-21

Posts 28049
California

7 posted 2004-06-27 01:10 PM

Helen

"and I am just so lost and
I can not find home"

I am just a traveler looking for a home, finding I carry it around with me, and sometimes it's just too damn heavy.

iliana
Member Patricius

since 2003-12-05

Posts 13434
USA

8 posted 2004-06-27 05:08 PM

Oh, Helen, I feel the ache. I felt like I was there you wrote this so well.

...jo

vandana

Member Patricius

since 1999-10-22

Posts 10463
USA

9 posted 2004-06-27 05:37 PM

enjoy your read

suthern

Member Seraphic

since 1999-07-29

Posts 20723
Louisiana

10 posted 2004-07-02 11:08 AM

a thousand words go flying
and I am still not past it
just how long will it take
to be back to who I was once

Oh, lady... this aches so much... and is written so well!!!

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