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A Romantic Heart
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Forever In Your Heart

0 posted 2004-05-27 05:07 AM


You tore me to pieces,
Over and over again,
What I thought was the end,

Was only the begining,
The begining of my sorrow,
You stole my tomorrow,

You made me hate you,
I had anger, pain,
All emotions,emotions I often refrain,

You used me,
Took my love for granted,
Uprooted every seed of love planted,

Your words abused me,
Cut me like a knife,
Cut deep into my life,

You made me feel like dirt,
Not loved or wanted,
By your words I am haunted,

You lied and cheated,
My heart was depleated,
My purpose in life defeated,

You hated my hair,
Comments said about me not gaining weight,
your apology came too late,

I forgave and gave plenty of chances,
Why is my heart searching for romances?
You have caused this madness,

This sorrow,This saddness,

You want me to be perfect,
You want things to be the same,
I am sick and tired of your mind games,

You want to control me,
Not give me liberty,
Love is liberty, love is free,

Your self-esteem is low,
You don't want me to grow,
Youwon't let me go,

To college or work,
Sometimes your such a jerk,
So selfishwith YOUR wants and desires,

Love is not jealous,
Love is not selfish,
Love encourages,and inspires,

Why do I hold on?
Why?
Why do I not let go?

Is it fear?
That keeps me here?
Year after year?

Is this love?
Perfect love knows no fear,
Though my body is with you, My heart is not here,

So here I am,
Searching,trying to figure this all out,
Wanting answers without a doubt,

Why is it I feel nothing when I buy you a card?
Have you completly made my heart hard?
But I am afraid to let go,

I don't even know,
If I want to let go,
Or maybe love has already let go of me,

So This is the words my heart speaks,
Feelings of my heart,
Should I stay or should I depart?

Be true to myself?
Or forever pretend?
Confusing situation I am in...


Open your eyes, open your mind, open your heart, let me come in and show you love.....~ARH

© Copyright 2004 Millette A. (Lester) Addison - All Rights Reserved
rosepetals25
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1 posted 2004-05-27 05:58 AM


"Was only the begining,
The begining of my sorrow,
You stole my tomorrow,"

I like those lines the best I think.  
I wish you all the courage you will need when you fianlly find the answers to all those questions.

Tara

Goldenrose
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2 posted 2004-05-27 05:59 AM


This is so powerfull and brilliantly written....i would love you forever..and will...thank you....send email ...

Goldenrose.

''There is no need for temples, no need for complicated Philosophies.
My brain and my heart are my temples; my philosophy is kindness''-  Dalai Lama

Earth Angel
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Realms of Light
3 posted 2004-05-27 09:42 AM


So often we can be addicted to relationships that are unhealthy for us. Your angst and frustration literally leap out at the reader! This rant pours right out of the core of you. Reading your own words may add  light to the predicament that you find yourself in.

Comforting hugs,
EA


LeeJ
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since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296

4 posted 2004-05-27 11:41 AM


came back to see if others were leaving you comforting words of suggestions.

I thought I left you a comment before?  Suppose it didn't register properly.

This is a gripping write, and can be a very confusing/hurtful situation.  I've been here as most of us probably have....if it were me...and I desired to continue to try, I'd seek counsiling but insist he go with me...we'd have to go together.  Sometimes it's easier for someone who is not connected emotionally to help us collect our thoughts????  I don't know, but am sending you warm hugs and thoughts.  God bless you and your decission.    

passing shadows
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5 posted 2004-05-27 12:56 PM


all I can do is hug you
JL
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6 posted 2004-05-27 01:24 PM


I agree with all the above.  This is quite a story indeed.  Very sad.

JL

She said: ”You look cute in the dark.”


JamesMichael
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7 posted 2004-05-27 08:37 PM


If there is a hell on earth,,,this sounds like it...this is not Gods intention for us...relationships are meant to nurture and grow...James
MGROVES
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8 posted 2004-05-29 04:43 AM


a hug for you, i can relate, i feel this, ive been there, still am, great write, thanks for sharing


GlisteningRain
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The clouds
9 posted 2004-05-29 04:47 AM


Very sad...many hugs for you. I often feel some of the same things you do. Then again..I wouldn't be human If I didn't. I sometimes wish....I was the only one that could feel sadness. Then it'd mean more than just a human emotion.
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