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WinterWren
Senior Member

since 2002-12-01

Posts 1044
...Coming to

0 posted 2004-03-24 09:51 PM

I can push all these buttons without looking now
I'd scream again
but the sound just echoes back to me.

Im still trying
to find something I can relate to
but no one understands.

I'd go to my secret spot again
but it doesn't help anymore,
Im still only a few feet from where I don't want to be
and it reminds me too much of the past that I miss.

Im trapped within these walls
these walls that I resent
they didn't do anything to me
I just have to live in them.

I realized I lost some of my empathy
it scares me to see
how I've slowly become more numb
I didn't feel this hardening, no one saw
it was so quiet, so imperceptible.

I used to cry when anyone else did
but last time I just sat there
patted your back, I really understood how you felt
I really wished I could feel your pain.

I felt like I was a brick wall
unreachable, uncaring, cold.
Don't let it be that Im going to stay this way!

Let it be just a side effect
of this pain I wake with everyday
let it fade as unnoticed as it came.

Take this anesthesia away
it was supposed to keep me from feeling my pain
but I can still feel it throbbing
I just can't feel anyone else's.

I don't want to be this way
take my anesthesia away!
Let me feel their pain,
let me cry their tears
I just want to be able to bleed for everyone again.

W.W.
We were meant to live for so much more have we lost ourselves?
Maybe redemption has stories to tell maybe forgiveness is right where you fell.

[This message has been edited by WinterWren (03-25-2004 12:34 AM).]

kissa~rachelle
Senior Member

since 2003-11-27

Posts 988
nowhere special

1 posted 2004-03-25 08:26 PM

I know. Feeling numb. Not being able to cry, even though that is the only thing you want to do. Wanting to just feel again, and cry again, and just scream till you cant anymore. yes, i know.

I want a relationship i can finally sink my teeth into.~ Alexander Sterling

peachesNcream
Senior Member

since 2001-08-21

Posts 513
Ocean Of Tears

2 posted 2004-03-25 08:59 PM

This poem was ABSOLUTELY awesome! Good work

Let it be just a side effect
of this pain I wake with everyday
let it fade as unnoticed as it came.

That stanza is def my favorite. It was great! Good work! ~Jess

Kiss, n. A word invented by the poets as a rhyme for bliss.

loner187
Member

since 2004-03-21

Posts 106
Upstate New York

3 posted 2004-03-25 10:52 PM

I truly liked this a lot. I can totally relate, I think anyone around our age can.(the teens) Like the other night I was watching a movie with a part that was so sweet, and sad. And I wanted to cry, but no tears fell. I felt cold and hard as stone. It's like I can no longer cry. It's just really wierd. Huh.

-Amanda

"Love doesn't make the world go 'round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile."
-Franklin P. Jones

*Belabebeautiful*

Senior Member

since 2003-01-03

Posts 696
washington, USA

4 posted 2004-03-31 12:36 PM

I haven't been in here in a while but I'm glad to see that your still here and your work is still as touching as always. Truly breathtaking, the emotion running through this poem, for one who claims not to feel, your feelings come out well on paper. Beautiful Bittersweet write.
~Live and Laugh~

I used to smile when I said you were mine, now I can't even smile and say your name at the same time.
~Bella~

WindSong
Member

since 2002-12-23

Posts 313
Long Island, New York

5 posted 2004-04-13 04:16 PM

Whoa! To me, it felt like a song...I really liked it. I know how you feel!! It's not easy...but things happen you know? Things will be brighter as time goes on.

I really liked your post though...I felt it all and like i said, to me it felt like a song...

"They say that truth will set you free, but then so will a lie. It all depends if you're trying to get to the promised land or just trying to get by."

sweet_cute_palestinian04
Member

since 2004-04-11

Posts 418
Earth

6 posted 2004-04-13 09:33 PM

im inlove with this poem....keep it up and if u ever need anything just aim me ,tell me and i will give u my sn..i been through this just 10 minutes ago...just stay strong and be strong for ever and for life..

::^love^::

Star T
Member

since 2002-07-12

Posts 182
Philadelphia, US

7 posted 2004-04-26 09:34 PM

Hey steph,here's ur biggest fan!Star T.i loved ur poem...especially this stanza:
"I'm trapped within these walls
these walls that I resent
they didn't do anything to me
I just have to live in them."

its amazing how that seems weird but its so true to those who feel it.i totally get ur poem and i love the deepness to it.ur talent indeed is a-m-a-z-i-n-g!

Jesus died that you might live...accept that and u shall be saved.

young_blood
Senior Member

since 2003-09-19

Posts 1115
Indianapolis, IN

8 posted 2004-04-26 09:42 PM

good one

infinite disaster
Member

since 2003-06-01

Posts 69
Illinois

9 posted 2004-04-27 04:09 PM

loved it. good work again!

When I find the courage, I will embrace you. When I find the strength, I will erase you.

WinterWren
Senior Member

since 2002-12-01

Posts 1044
...Coming to

10 posted 2004-04-27 05:17 PM

Hey everyone. Thanks for all the replies. I really appreciate it!

W.W.
We were meant to live for so much more have we lost ourselves?
Maybe redemption has stories to tell maybe forgiveness is right where you fell.

*Alli4000*

Member Elite

since 2004-03-21

Posts 3188
The World of Poetry

11 posted 2004-04-27 06:17 PM

Incredable....

blackandwhitehorizon
Member

since 2003-05-05

Posts 183
an akward state of mind

12 posted 2004-04-29 09:05 PM

this poem is beautiful

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