Teen Poetry #7 |
how much i regret |
rhia_5779 Senior Member
since 2006-06-09
Posts 1334California |
Where were you when I needed you? Gone, you went missing, when I needed you the most Not forgotten, what was shared, love of friends Without you I never thought I could live I was forced to get up again By someone who cared We were different so not the same I was cruel, you were true. It was me that hurt, yet you would never boast To you everyone went, since your death, I have barely made amends You were openly generous; I would fight just to give Comfort, or love, or anything, stuck in side me I couldn’t explain Why I was so mean, I mean I smiled, but friendship, too scared Even then, I was too afraid to trust, before I knew it could end in pain 7 years ago, I was innocent, and then I never knew, What I was doing, who I had hurt You taught me too much, I learned more about Hurt, grief misery, depression, shame, then before When you lived, you left me, deserted I was all alone without a sign. I thought I’d never find, what I had lost The friend I had loved, as close as my sister No longer there, as always she had been A dumbwaiter took your life, after that our memories were a blur Couldn’t come to terms, even as we honored you in class, a lingering doubt When I fully understood, it hit me hard, broke me deep within my core My friends never spoke of it, which you were when I blurted Asking why, if any of them remembered or if they had meant to forget I learned my lesson and was hit hard, this time pain I felt, was all mine Brought me to my knees I saw at eye level That I was wrong How terribly amiss I was To haven been like that I let my life go on in a daze Years went by, I never forgot I first saw you; you made me smile, moments like these Precious, priceless, all I have left, in that I revel I went on, always remembering, never knew how I kept up for so long After 5 years, I lost another sister-friend, who I also miss She changed, someone I didn’t know, and all we had to share between us were flaws Finally I just had to tell her, let her know flat As you would have done, I can’t do this, all we do is fight, and a word of fuel makes a blaze We always go at it, hurting along the way, down a dangerous path, this friendship to raw Broken down, both of us to tired, we couldn’t renew what we had It had changed too much; we hadn’t let our friendship grow along with us Leaving it back from when we were growing up, not giving it its place Where we should have, we tried to anchor it in our past Just made it worse, till political views, our friends each other This topic one of many, that safely we couldn’t discuss Before it got to breaking point, we made it a race Of who could keep it most hidden, what was growing, leave that for last Got to where we had to break it off, throw it out, in the trash in the gutter. When I hurt so bad, couldn’t think cause of the pain, my friends told me All they could, making it worthwhile not to give up, let it go One Different yet so much the same, the other waiting to be forgiven, full of regret She I began to understand, her I forgave willing, to give a second chance Both reawoke a love, something between friends, people you’d do anything for. In me, when I thought never again Could I trust, never again be someone’s friend. Previous friendships, leftover debris In the past, weeks ago Thank you, now our friendship lives on without threat New beginning, starting again, a new chapter began I can thank so many for this, close friends once more |
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cherrys_rule Member
since 2006-03-18
Posts 442 |
I liked this one, it wasn't really a poem,but I liked the subject. Good write. |
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girlskater117 Junior Member
since 2006-06-06
Posts 32 |
I liked it and same thang. It maked me think about my frind that i lost by a drunk driver and i told her that night i would see her and monday at school but she died that satday night And are school had a mermo for her and u could put stuff in her loker but im sorry that i dident see her that night and i schould of said somthing eles like ur always going to be my bestfiend or somthing like that. Amber |
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