Teen Poetry #7 |
What happened to my Superman? |
jenyeaz New Member
since 2006-06-06
Posts 1 |
Laughing, Smiling, Innocent, CareFree. After all it was just my daddy and me. Nothing but a hero in my little eyes. A "superman" minus the disguise. But all the yelling, arguing, leaving at night. It wasn't pleasant for a five year olds sight. Finally it happened, one day he really left was gone. Not the usual return back home at early dawn. Just mommy and us five kids. Was it something that I had did? Confusion set in, I didn't understand. Where did he go? What happened to my superman? Every other weekend a routine visit. But that was all it was, a two day limit. We couldn't go with him, he lived too far away. I sat there continuing to miss him; day after day. I of course got older, a couple years had gone by. Soon I was noticing something different and not seeing him, though my five year old eyes. For the past few years he'd been living a life behind closed doors. Soon he was stuck, his lies being revealed more and more. I was still young, but I knew that it was Bad. My Mom, "Jenna I need to talk to you it's about your dad." "Jenna it's hard for you to understand, you're only eight" "But you see, you won't be seeing Daddy for a while, their is a drug he likes to take..." I remember that day, it's still so alive, so vivid. My heart becomes calloused, hard How could he do it, what about his kids? Sixteen now and the years have passed. Sitting in his apartment, I think to myself... ...he's such an ass. My eyes are filling with tears as I look down to What I'm holding in my hands. Tools and devices used for cocaine. This was who I thought of as my Superman? Where are you going dad, and when did you let go? After all these years I still have so many questions Yet still don't know. Is it really what you want? A life of this. Really sit back and think of all that you could miss... Are you going to be there when I'm Walking down the isle dressed in white? Will I be able to call you for support, When my husband and I have our first fight? What about after nine months of pregnancy, and I have my first child? Will you be there, or be out... getting high, running wild? And are you going to be there... watching your grandchildren grow? Please answer my questions dad, I need to know. Stop hiding behind a mask, and using this drug as a crutch. You still have five children, and now four grandkids, you still can live for so much. You say that we gave up on you dad. That we turned our backs. But you ran from us dad, your care... ...was at it's lack... My biggest fear is to one day get that call... "He's Dead" All because you couldn't think straight and use your head? I love you dad, but you can only take so much. Incident after incident can really create a broken trust. But I'm willing to open up, and Forgive you one last time. You need to really be careful, you're walking a thin line. A line between choosing your family or this substance crank. I'm asking you one last time for you to really think. Although we rarely see eachother Think of me not being there at all. Not even a "hello" or a simple phone call. I want you to change dad. Quit messing around and Kickin up the dirt. You have caused too much pain in my life A lot of hurt. I do need you dad, as much as you may not believe Please don't always act upon what your heart may perceive. Because I'm still here dad, still Jenna, still your daughter. When are you going to step up and be MY FATHER?!? |
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poise_and_rationality Junior Member
since 2006-05-06
Posts 46my mind |
omg i nearly cried... im sorry for the pain and loss u have recieved but the poem was really good... Give me attention |
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bekahlekah45 Senior Member
since 2006-03-14
Posts 533 |
AMAZING first post. a little long but it held my attention so that doesnt matter. welcome to pip this was an amazing poem...sad..very sad. and if its true then i'm so so so so sorry. That must be so hard! hang in there ; ) |
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stargal Senior Member
since 2006-03-06
Posts 1352OR USA |
Hey jenyeaz, Like everyone else said this was an amazing post, amazing First post! I didn’t really think it was too long, it was a little bit, but I was held captive when I first started reading it. I didn’t want to stop reading! Anyway, if this is a true story, I am also sorry you have to deal with this in your life. Trust me when I say I know what your going through, and I feel for you… m’kay, well, I hope you enjoy the site and welcome to pip! I look forward to seeing more great writes from you @-->--- |
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Ringo
since 2003-02-20
Posts 3684Saluting with misty eyes |
Welcome to Passions !!!!!! This is an incredible debut. I look forward to reading more. Please check your e-mail for a special greeting. "... the rest is silence" |
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forever*wishing Member
since 2006-05-29
Posts 178where my heart is |
this is amazing...but very sad...sry, i dont have anything useful...i dont really know what to tell you to improve on that i can see...ur awsome. ~L |
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cherrys_rule Member
since 2006-03-18
Posts 442 |
OMgosh that was really sad=(! Good write, but sad. |
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rhia_5779 Senior Member
since 2006-06-09
Posts 1334California |
That was really good. I liked how it really sounded to me like it was a real life situation. You made it seem real, you made it really real to me. |
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