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hunnie_girl

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since 2006-06-18

Posts 2567
Canada

0 posted 2007-10-20 08:05 PM

I look straight down
as i'm standing on a bridge
I wonder if I could fly
right over the edge
I take one last look
and I land with a dive
How could this happen
why am I still alive

maybe it's a sign
that I must get over you
I look down
and the water is blue
I can't count the times I've tried
to keep from going insane
this was my last chance
and I still have this pain

I look back down
the water is red
five more minutes
and I could've been dead
but somebody took away
my gift of death
as they tried to help
so I held my breath

I thought just maybe
it would slow my heart down
it wouldn't be suicide
it they all thought I drowned
but he kept trying
and got some life back to me
I opened my eyes
to where I didn't want to be

now I sit in an asylum
staring at the white walls
it scares me so much
hearing the ghosts in the halls
I don't know what happened
it seems I lost my brain
but somewhere along
I also lost all my pain

They poke and prod
and I take test after test
then I get tired
and they allow me to rest
they even feed me
'cos I can't eat on my own
what made me jump
was I that much alone

years go by
'til they think i'm alright
it's really scary
sleeping by myself at night
they used to be there
when I'd wake covered in sweat
now i'm alone
with no protective net

it took a little while
but I'm back on my feet
out there in the world
with some many people to meet
I'm glad I got the help
and thats all I have to say
if it weren't for them
I wouldn't be here today

Seeker72
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since 2007-02-24

Posts 387
Oregon USA

1 posted 2007-10-20 11:13 PM

Loved it.

A quality write.

Twilight Warrior
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since 2007-02-22

Posts 106
The World That Never Was

2 posted 2007-10-21 11:54 PM

Sounds like this was personal, but I hope not. No one should have to go through that. Good write.

"One last drink and the bottle breaks, returning us to the dust from whence we came"

Kitherion
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since 2006-08-01

Posts 181
Johannesburg

3 posted 2007-10-23 04:22 AM

This was absolutely amazing, my heart was renched out by it. Wow, i'm still in awe of it's absolute beauty.

"Our Father who art in Heaven... Hallowed be thy name..."

Abbeon
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since 2006-11-30

Posts 228
Curiousity, and wonder

4 posted 2007-10-23 11:24 AM

I know that if they were there to read this that they would say what I say... Glad to help.

Hey Hunnine great writing as for always.

Hugs from Abbeon

The world behind these thoughtful eyes, caution may seem crazy.

Mystress May
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since 2007-10-25

Posts 296
Taunton, MA

5 posted 2007-10-25 08:58 PM

I'm new to this site and this is one of the first poems I've read on it. After reading it I'm so glad I came here. Your style and form are terrific and you write from the heart.

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