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I Hate My ISP
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I Hate My ISP |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana 
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I Hate My ISP For private pain, I'm in a public place In spite of all efforts, I can't erase The tears that erupt to slide down my face As I read these words on the screen If only I'd been home, safely alone As my skin's peeled back to reveal bleached bone I wish acting skills were something I'd honed But I'm lacking that sphinx-faced gene I feel invisible, but that can't be Too many people are looking at me They're wondering what it is that I see That has me here falling apart I endeavor to stop this flood of eye But must have uttered some whimper or cry To "Ma'am, are you all right?" I smile my lie "Why yes, of course... who needs a heart?" [This message has been edited by suthern (10-12-2003 07:43 PM).] |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Oh, this write has the feel of real pain. Indeed, who needs a heart? Let's go shopping again soon. My cupboard is empty. |
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Saunni Senior Member
since 2000-07-11
Posts 1777West Virginia |
Wow, this blew me away! Though, I am sorry you hurt! You don't have to hide it here. Feel free to email me if you need anything  Sauni:)The Only Time I See The Sun Is When I'm Within That Vanilla Breeze.The Only Time I'm One With The Sun Is When He Shelters Me From The Rain. |
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allamericanjoe Member
since 2003-10-02
Posts 116Iredell county, NC |
We all have to fall apart sometimes. It's what makes us realize how it is that we go back together, it keeps us human. I hope your pain is not long suffered. You have friends here at least! We suffer with you through your beautifully written words. Burdens are so much lighter when you have someone to help you carry them. Thank you for sharing your emotions with us. "The secret of life is enjoying the passage of time" ~James taylor~ |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Oh my gosh gal....this just aches. I do hope you'll be okay. ~Smiles & Hugs, Nancy~ ~Autumn, the year's last, loveliest smile~ |
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PsychoticBunni Member
since 2003-10-03
Posts 162Mythical Atlantis |
my deepest condolences. you express perfectly what it is to feel pain. If you express it this well then you must not have lost your mind from whatever loss you've suffered. A bright side to look at in your turmoil Meg Meg- And the Texan pushed the Mexican out of the plane and screamed, "Long live the ALAMO!!!!!!!!!" |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
suthern, Good write, one of your best.  |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Ok Suthern, there are obvious greener pastures on the other side of your computer screen. I hope you are well. You very nicely expressed suffering and I can only hope you are feelin' ok... |
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Marsha
since 2000-07-10
Posts 7423Maidstone Kent England |
Suthern beloved one, do you realise you made me cry too beloved? The wonder of your writing is that which moves the soul, and you do, always. Feel my hand reaching across to touch you, as you have touched me, warm gentle and loving as are you beloved heart. There are times, and this is one of them when I wonder where I would be if I hadn’t walked through the blue door all that time ago. I do know I would be poorer in spirit and certainly I wouldn’t know the glory of your soul, which always blesses me. Thank you for the joy you bring into my life. Love you lady always and forever Mushy   Tomorrow is another day I don't know what it holds |
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Nan
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-20
Posts 21191Cape Cod Massachusetts USA |
The lion needed a heart - but not you - Yours is fully intact and very real... Just keep on caring, m'friend - It's all you know how to do... |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Suthern...It's far better to be able to feel and express emotion then hold it inside. I sure do understand this.  |
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Pilgrimage Member Elite
since 2001-12-04
Posts 3945Texas, USA |
Beautifully done. Nan (Pilgrim variety) |
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Edder Senior Member
since 2003-04-02
Posts 671 |
Sweet Suthern, if I could I'd surely give you a hug! You obviously read as you write...with your heart! |
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Ratleader
since 2003-01-23
Posts 7026Visiting Earth on a Guest Pass |
I'm wondering too -- makes me hurt for you Laura-girl.... This poem so good that if it were any less sad I'd say that I wish I wrote it. Hope you get both a better situation and a new ISP! ~~(¸¸¸¸ºº> ~~(¸¸¸¸ºº> ~~(¸¸ ¸¸ºº> ~~~(¸¸ER¸¸ºº> |
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Bonnie j Senior Member
since 2003-06-27
Posts 1588Ohio |
Talk about falling apart. One time on the bus something was said and it touched my heart and I cried all the way into town. We cry when in pain, we cry in sorrow, we cry in happiness, we cry when something so beautiful touches our heart with profound beauty. If you are filled with sadness I will share my tissue box with you and we'll cry together. Sending a great big hug from Ohio. Love Bon-Bon  |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
Midnitesun: To know you’d be brave enough to risk writing with me AGAIN puts a smile into my cupboard… I do thank you! *S* Saunni: That is so kind of you… I thank you very much! *S* Allamericanjoe: Yes… I do have friends here… and they are dear. *S* Thank you very much! Enchantress: Me, too. *S* Thank you very much! *S* PsychoticBunni: I love your name! *S* And LOL @ lost mind… those hurt less than lost hearts. *S* Thank you! Seymour: Thank you, my friend. *S* Magnus: Not yet… I just moved my crying spree to the office… another public place where tears are inappropriate. *S* Thank you very much! *S* Marsha: There are times I forget the blue door is on a hinge… and get slapped in the face. *S* But it brought me you… just as it brought others I love into my life… so I am ever grateful. *S* Thank you! Nan: Yes’m… that’s the truth. *S* Thank you so very much! *S* Martie: At the moment, I’d beg to differ… but thank you! *S* Pilgrimage: Thank you very much! *S* Edder: I’d gladly take it. *S* Thank you very much! *S* Ratleader: Or at least learn to deal better with both? *S* Thank you so much, my friend… I didn’t mean to make others hurt along with me. *S* Bonnie: Better bring an extra box… I should have run dry by now, but the drips keep coming! *S* Thank you very much! *S* |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Hey suthern. When are you going to give me a chance? Hugs... |
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Corinne Member Ascendant
since 1999-10-28
Posts 5167state of confusion |
Awww, this is so sad! Hoping for a brighter day today for you! Corinne |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
hmmmmmmm.... me thinks you need a hug more than a reply.... will a mothy heart-hug do? |
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QjQ Member Elite
since 2003-04-18
Posts 3756U.S.A. |
hugs,,,,, |
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James_A_Fraser Senior Member
since 2003-09-03
Posts 972Out Making Anticlines |
I know this feeling, though not in this way. Some of the most emotion-packed events that happen for me -- up and down both -- are right out in public with no place to hide. There are times I would pay a hundred dollars to be able to close a door and be private. You're one of the strongest poets in this group, and it really shows here. |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Suthern, you ache so beautifully! Your soul is guiless and wide open. No one could read this and not feel compassion and love for you. Sending a rainbow of healing lights and a warm, loving embrace, EA |
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Sudhir Iyer Member Ascendant
since 2000-04-26
Posts 6943Mumbai, India : now in Belgium |
ahhhhhh... the ache... you wrote it well... hugs and regards sudhir |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Oh my! I almost don't want to say how well you wrote this, but I have to. Take care. |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
*long deep breath* this is too incredible to be anything but real, and so painfilled that it makes me cry......wow lady...hugs and love from your friend |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big angel hugs) Oh Suthern, I hope everything is alright as you sound so troubled and hurt, sweet friend! (sad sigh) It hurts me too to know of those who speak such harmful words to another and fail to forgive or appreciate otherwise, I send angel healing hugs your way, God Bless You, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Suthern, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
Sunshine: If it’s mine to give, it’s yours. *S* Thank you! *S* Corinne: Hopes are always good… thank you! *S* JM: I don’t ever turn down an offer like that… thank you! *S* QjQ: Thank you! *S* Jamie: I would have sold my soul… though I might have had more luck paying the hundred dollars… no takers for a shattered soul. *S* On another emotional note… Your kind opinion isn’t one I agree with… but that won’t keep me from treasuring the comment. *S* Thank you so much! *S* EA: Then I need to make sure it’s addressed properly… right? *S* Thank you so much, kind lady… just reading your words makes me smile. *S* Sudhir: I thank you very much. *S* Mysteria: You said it well… thank you! *S* jellybeans: Yes… imagination’s on vacation. *S* Thank you, my friend… I love you! M’toe: Some words don’t mean to harm… the hurt is in their truth… and my fears. *S* Thank you so much! *S* |
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BluesSerenade Member Patricius
since 2001-10-23
Posts 10549By the Seaside |
Love your take and honest reaction to what you were seeing on the screen. Been there so many times and it is hard to conceal the overwelming flood of emotion. But you know without a heart you never would have felt that way in the first place. Hugs suthern one~ Good answer though, who needs it when it only brings you pain. |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
Sometimes those hearts make you wish you'd brought a bag to cover your head. *S* Thank you so much, sweet lady. *S* |
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