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And I'm the One That's Weak?
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And I'm the One That's Weak? |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
And I'm the One That's Weak? You sing on notes that make no sense, How could you not have any responsibility? You were there, you knew I cared, You knew how much you meant to me. And all you have in your defense is if I don't already know why If I don't already see, then why should you speak? And I'm the one that's weak? =-= I always came to you, said what I had to. I didn't go behind your back and all you can do is say I lack? Your heart is so stark, so very black. All you give to me is so dark. On my life You’ve made your cold cold mark. [This message has been edited by SharaRose (09-19-2003 10:59 AM).] |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
sorry to say, but seems like we all know this guy.... Hang on, if you can...just until you can see things clearly...or clearer, love does not blame, use, hurt, or run away....and blame, or make promises that he cannot keep..deciept though, will say anything you wanna hear...just to win you...be wise, not so hungrey that you would accept anything less then you deserve...God bless and love to you, and yours... I knew a Mark...one of whom I would have rather never met....and I don't love him anymore...thank God...he was very cruel and heartless. Ruthless, a real good saleman..when he wanted something. How dumb I was, how very needy...but you learn and you become better for the knowledge. Sorry for rambling |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Hopefully all the pain and frustration is behind you now, and you can make a fresh start in life. Dust yourself off and greet the new day as a new page on which you can write beautiful new experiences. Let the healing begin, Dear Sharer of Roses! EA |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
Thank you so much Lee J. You are so right. I was so empty and hungry for love that I fell and I fell hard. I learned my lesson. Believe me I have learned. I am MUCH more aware of what the self part of me was doing, and have been faithful since, and this person knows it. My husband and I have long since healed, and HE has forgiven and I have turned from that action in my life since, so where and how does this person have a right to condemn me? Lot's more I could say, but I would be the one rambling, but I do appreciate your words, and God Bless for the kindness to see, and I think you know what I mean by *see.*  and more SharaRose @-->-- |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
Thank you Earth Angel... I appreciate what you've just admonished. Trust me, I know what you are saying, and I WILL do that. I just needed to get that out. That's all. Love to you for the understanding and the admononishment. THAT took a lot of  Same for you, too Lee J. I appreciate you doing that as well. Sorry for not mentioning that in my comment to you!!!  ladies.Now I can feel the freedom to give my Roses again dear Earth Angel lady! SharaRose @-->-- Of sound, and speech let all lift the hearer! |
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eor Senior Member
since 2002-09-26
Posts 959blues & greys |
everything you wrote is so sad, it makes me hurt for you...im sorry this person has been so mean to you...but if there is a good side it is all the poetry this situation had created...beautiful poetry "For those who understand you, no explanation is necessary. For those who don't, none is possible." |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
It is? But? Well I would never have thought it was beautiful, but that brought me to tears. I never expected to hear that.  I thought this would make me one that would have to leave the site, but I still feel I had to say what I had to say. Needy was me then,,now thick-skinned is what I am, and in that I feel I lost part of myself. Seems there's something wrong with having emotions in this cyber world unless it is those that agree with the ones that dictate them to the other. I'm not a dictator, I just became thick-skinned because I had to. That, or lose my mind. Merely because I felt something the other didn't want me to. Throwing a temper tantrum, and taking his toys and he's going home to tell. Juvenile actions rather than just being adult, and agreeing to disagree, and move on. That in, and of itself...the action of not resolving, but yet the attitude of 'make her pay' is what has been dealt to me. Like it or not it's crammed down my throat, and then people wonder why I strike out and lash out. Thank you for the comment eor. I hope you are well.Shara-  |
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garysgirl  
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
SharaRose, I really don't know what to respond to this. I do hope that if it's written from personal experience that things are better now. I could feel lots of emotion in this one. Take care, lady. Hugs Ethel |
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KristieSue
since 2003-01-31
Posts 1460PA, US |
Shara...LOL You and I need to talk. Sounds like a lot of men are of the same breed. YOu do or say something they don't like, and they pout or rant and lock themselves in their room and don't come out. BUT that does NOT mean that YOU are the one who is/was wrong or that you are weak. Take this and learn from it. Realize that someone is out there that is going to love you with all of their heart, so in the meantime, you don't have to put up with sh*t just because that person isn't here yet. You'd better not leave this site, woman. And, in the meantime (while you're healing) rant, rave, vent, cry, and talk all you want...it helps. And, we ALL do it :-) You have a beautiful heart and it is his loss to not see it. "Vision without action is a daydream. Action without vision is a nightmare." -Japanese Proverb |
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angelblueyes Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2148Oklahoma |
Hey there sweet lady.I feel deep hurt and loss in these words, but I know it's a cleansing of your heart here.For with the release of these words comes the release of your hurt and anger.This person obviously doesn't know the beautiful person that you are and it's their loss.I know it doesn't make the hurt go away, but you are strong, free spirited, and beautiful in everything that you do.Take your wings and fly above this persons pettiness and soar like the angelic bird that you are.My friend you know I'm always here if you need me.  Crystal |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
you and I are much the same, yes? |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
Thanks to all of you... garysgirl--Thank you Ethel. Yes it's a personal exp. Lots of emotions from lots of time enduring them. Bless you girlie. Kristie Sue-- You are a sweetie to understand, and be so forgiving for posting these and getting these words out there. Not all men are this way, so please don't take it as that's what I mean, because it's not like that. I think you are right there are good men out there. Thank you for encouraging me not to leave. I didn't think I would be welcome to after this. And thank you for allowing me the rant, rave, and vent, because it hasn't always been welcomed. I want to start learning more about poetry and do it justice now. I want to look to better things. Angelblueyes--Thank you I appreciate your words to encourage. There was loss in that it didn't have to be that way. Half-truths are *not* the *truth* and not talking them out and this person is the one that was inventing things and being the dramatic one. If a person isn't willing to talk things out and wants to carry things on then that's petty I suppose you are right. passing shadow-- I don't know. I'm not sure?? I hope not because I wouldn't want (anyone) to feel these things, and go through them at all. I hope not at all in that sense. God bless, SharaRose @-->-- Of sound, and speech let all lift the hearer! |
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KristieSue
since 2003-01-31
Posts 1460PA, US |
Shara, I understand because I've been there, in ways. No I don't think that all men are like this, but a lot are. There are still many good men out there who wouldn't even dream of hurting someone like this. You sound like me, a magnet for the ones that hurt us... and you and Dixie are a lot alike, cause she and I are too LOL We should start a stinkin' club! huggles... "Vision without action is a daydream. Action without vision is a nightmare." -Japanese Proverb |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
(big hugggsssssss) Oh Shara, my heart goes out to you, dearest friend, I understand the frustration, but believe me, if anyone lost here, it is that man and I think his scar will be much more permanent as the blackness of his misunderstanding will always infect it! (sad sigh) I too had a long distance relationship with someone named Joanna and she truly loved me once (her poetry and comments prove it) and then on New Years Day she chose to wait till then to give me the whole truth about never loving me and she said she already loved someone more 8 months before! (sad sigh) I send angel healing hugs, sweet friend, God Bless You, we're all here for you, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Shara, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
Kristie Sue-- I'm glad you understand, and If I were to ever be single again someday I am MUCH wiser, and not so trusting anymore. Belive me that has all changed. I think there is a fine line between cautious, and jaded. There is a difference. I will weigh the two, and keep a check on myself about that because it's easy to cross the line. I still want to be loving, and tender, and gentle, and open with a love (if it ever came to that someday) in my life, but still watch very close for this kind of person again. It's hard to make sense when thinking about this man in this situation, because he has 2 sides. One part is the most amazing human being the other side is not something I want to ever encounter again so I will be very watchful, and yet open to tenderness, and loving thoughts for the new person. [God] will have LOTS to do with that if it was to ever happen. Noah--I am so sorry to hear about your exp. It's never easy to go through the hurt, but I hope also you don't have to be subjected to bitter harrassment of any kind to go along with the hurt. I hope better for you. both, and SharaRose @-->-- Of sound, and speech let all lift the hearer! |
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shara Member
since 2002-05-21
Posts 69florida/USA |
and you say that you are not good at this thing called poetry... terri, girl you totally rock! this was a lovely way to express urself, i am definitly looking forward to reading more be blessed ~sha-sha  |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
God! I could have written this... |
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