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Also Your Sin
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Also Your Sin |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
Also Your Sin Yes I was married when I fell for you, but you were married, too. My heart was collecting dust and losing it's hold. Because things at home were so empty, and so cold. No, that's no excuse and presence of mind, doesn't come to mind , when I think of times back then. But why? Could you please tell me why it wasn't also your sin? -I didn't set out to love you, and that is something you knew all this time. You said I would never see you We would never meet, to pretty much see you as dead. Well it wasn't that easy for me See I had a heart that loved that your very spirit fed. How can I look for another? Well I needed to need someone else. See, you told me to move on that you, to me, should be dead, To pretty much put you on a shelf. You gave your reason You needed to give more to your wife and your kids. Well for a man like that one that would want to do whats right just made me respect,and love you more. Still my emotions were on the skids. Emotionally down for the count From the things I knew I just wanted to do the right thing, too. But still I didn't feel what I should feel at home, still, still, still all alone. Then I realized, From you it was lies. You are the one with the excuses. You wanted to get other women Move on, and live really loose. Now you accuse. Say I give excuses. When all the while the friendship, and more you said we had You started in on it's abuses. You lied, spread rumors said all kinds of things And one of them is I have no shame Well what about you? What about the things you do? And you are a man without blame? You say I'm stupid That I'm a fool, because I pursue this dual? Well why don't you tell the truth for once. You are the one that chases me around and won't let things be, Being your most cruel! Jealous you say I am when all along I told you I just wanted you to be happy. And yes I told you I couldn't watch you with someone else, but what about that can't you understand? Just because I want you happy doesn't mean I could stand around and watch. It would hurt. Can't you feel anything? Can't you see the hurt that it would be for me? What about heart can't you see? Jealous you claim I am, is so lame Because you can't deal and cope with the truth of it all That I can love, I can feel, and even though it crushes me, it would crush me more to stand around and watch it all. What about that doesn’t seem real? I wasn't right, and neither were you!! Why isn't this your sin, too? |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
It's hard to make any reply to this, except to say, it is one of the saddest sides of "LOVE" ...and it usually makes everyone involved feel like a loser. It's never good to fall for a married lover. |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
I would like to echo Midnitesun's reply. Peace & Light, EA |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
Goes both ways, thank you!!! It takes two! |
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LeeJ Member Patricius
since 2003-06-19
Posts 13296 |
yes, it most certainly does take two... Someone once told me, anything done out of deceipt will reap deceipt...and this is a very hurtful situation, for a lot of people. God bless |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
I can assure you I did NOT decieve this person. He knew the truth because I told him the truth. My husband did, too. My husband was good enough man to stay and work this out and now he and I are healed. We are healed now, and that ALSO took two. He didn't do it alone. I had to make changes, too. We still have problems, but they have nothing to do with someone else outside the home. Life is real, and reality is it takes 2 to make things go right, or go wrong. The reason I bring this to the public is because someone is an accuser, and I think it's time my side came out. We ALL make mistakes...come on! Thank you! SharaRose @-->-- [This message has been edited by SharaRose (09-19-2003 11:38 AM).] |
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angelblueyes Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2148Oklahoma |
hey lady you know that it takes two and so does everyone else.People tend to blame one side and don't care to open their eyes to the reality that there's someone else involved.It was his also and he deserves the consequneces that come with it.Just as you have faced yours head on.Even if he doesn't face it now, he will one day have nochoice and it will be a worse fate for him.Relax in knowing that you have a greater spirit for facing your actions and standing to take the consequences.I wish more people in this world could step up and take account for the not so good things that they've done.We tend to live in a society where everything that's good is shared but when it's bad we try to hide it.Ok I'm rambling so I'll go.Just remember you are special.  Crystal |
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EvocativeVerse2 Senior Member
since 2003-09-10
Posts 1279 |
Gulp! That was quite the piece SharaRose. I am so glad you were stronger than him. Sorry things were so hard. |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
Hello Crystal...I appreciate these kind words, and in doing this I feel a release that my side is out there, but there is no patting on the back for me. I was wrong. I should have been strong enough to lean to God for my strength through all the pain and hurt in my life rather than looking to man to show me love. I am much more thick-skinned now and SEE the error in looking to man to heal the pain...now I see God is the answer to lean to. The real, true, patting on the back woudl be for this man when he forgives, because it's obvious this has been very hard for him. I never set out to hurt anyone. It just wasn't like that, but I still did. In my search to feel the love I was missing I should have went to GOD for that love. O nly hope he can, someday, forgive the same as my husband has. He is a good man, its just that the things that's happened made him this way. It made me different, too, but that's because I DID NOT DELIBERATELY set out to fall for this person. If it had been for a trifling reason, and just something to do with my time...like some passtime or something like that THEN I could see this treatment, but it was not like that. He chooses to hold on to this to make me pay. Well I already paid by hurting 2 people, and others that I'm sure neither one of us even knows about. How can that be a pat on the back at all? I'm NOT what this person says about me. Thank you for listening, Shara Rose @-->-- Of sound, and speech let all lift the hearer! |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggssssssss) This man is obviously a coward only intending to save his own rear from guilt, dearest friend, I actually respect those people most of all who admit their wrongs, like you, as then the truth is revealed and you are excused of the guilt in the most part, whereas those who are weak and feeble and don't share the blame will wither away with the lies! (wipes tears) When only one of two admits sin, in the end more than 50% of the blame should be put on he who doesn't speak, God Bless You, I send angel hugs your way, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Shara, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
EvocativeVerse..No I wasn't and I am NOT stronger than him. He's accused me of many things but among them is I'm weak ..this is just a rant to show he's wrong about me. I'm not strong either, but I don't like being called a weakling, either. If I were strong I would just let all these things roll off me like water off a ducks back, but it's not that way at all. Thick skin doesn't come from peachy creamy lovely wonderful exp's. Quite the contrary. Thank you for the read and comment. SharaRose @-->-- |
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SharaRose Member Elite
since 2003-07-19
Posts 2501Somewhere out there~ |
Noah...this isn't about blame...this is about me telling my side of the story. Blame goes to both. Neither of us should ever be pat on the back. It ain't so. Just isn't. It's not like that for me. I just want the TRUTH to be heard for once..not (half) truths. Thanks for reading and the comment, but it's not what it seems. He's hurt, too, or why would he be so angry.  lots though,SharaRose @-->-- |
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