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For A Moment |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC 
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I called you up that fateful day Prepared the words I would say When you answered though, and I heard the voice same as mine It was as though someone for a moment had stopped the hands of time A lump formed in my throat, the tears welled up in my eyes I felt as though my heart would burst, and I just wanted to say good-bye Somehow I found the courage, as did you too We talked about the past, and all we'd been through I know it will never happen again, and I know the reasons why Still though I couldn't help but think I'm glad I didn't let the chance pass by You're no longer my mother, as you said you gave up that right long ago So I suppose there's nothing left to say, and I should probably just go But for a moment, it was though nothing bad had ever happened really to either you or me Suppose I wanted to somehow break the chains to let my heart be free I know it wasn't fair to put that burden on you Just somehow for a second I was the child, and you were the "Mom" I once knew I'll tuck your memory away, with all the other ones deep inside Though this in a way breaks my heart, I don't think anymore tears I can cry What is done, is just that, and we all must move on I'm glad though that I took the moment to make a right out of a wrong If ever you should change your mind, and want to know your daughter of 26 years Or ever want to be free of as you say of your endless pain or fear Just call on me, be it day or night Maybe together we can cross through to the other side For a moment, it was as though time had stood still Then the next moment came too suddenly, making it all too real Maybe this is how it was suppose to be, yes maybe afterall If though you can't get me out of your head and for me your heart does call You know where to look, you know I won't be very far I'd like to somehow relieve us both of our pains, and our deep bruises and scars I said both hello and goodbye, to my mother of birth Never did I realise the joy I'd feel or the amount of tremendous hurt For a moment I held fate in the palm of my very hands It's helped me to be a better woman, and to somehow understand I'm not angry or bitter, maybe a little sad but that was expected to be I realise standing looking in the mirror, some of the best parts of you may in fact be in me "love is like a butterfly-- if you chase it, it will surely fly away,instead hold it close and watch it grow into something beautiful" ~me~ [This message has been edited by Aimster (09-16-2003 08:00 PM).] |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggssssssss) God Bless You, dearest friend, I can feel your heart aching here and I'm sorry to hear that you and your mom have had difficult times, but know deep down, she'll always love you even if she never wishes to speak with you in earnest, and you will always be her child and I hope she realizes that she matters to you! (wipes tears) I send comfort angel hugs your way, sweet friend, this is a most honest and compassionate write, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Amy, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
noah, thank you for your beautiful heartfelt reply. this poem was to my biological mother who gave me and my sisters up for adoption when I was 6 years. After lots of struggle, much debate, and 20 years I finally contacted her about a month ago. Our reuninion was as good as it could be I suppose. And though she told me she loves me and has always thought of me especially Christmas and on my birthday continous contact would be too painful for her. So while I feel I gained something very precious I also feel like I lost something in the process too. Again thanks for reading. Take care. Amy  "love is like a butterfly-- |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
(big hugggsssssss) You are very special, dearest Amy, and I am blessed that you told me this as knowing you is only loving and appreciating you as a friend even more! (wipes tears) It is indeed so hard for one to be put into adoption, I know, no one should ever have to go through this and I wish no mother had to make these sacrifices, and I am sure your sisters share the same sympathy you do as we need our mothers and fathers support! (sigh) Whatever may happen from here, know you are special and loved by all of us here, and deep in her heart, your mother will always love you even if it is hard for her to remind you that! (big angel friendship hugs)  Love, Noah Eaton I don't need no proof when it comes to God and truth I can see the sun set and I perceive ***Live*** [This message has been edited by Mistletoe Angel (09-16-2003 08:09 PM).] |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Amy~ It is with great tenderness that I read this penning~ Bless you for the kindness shown to your mother-of-birth ...~ I would think that perhaps she will also be reflecting on things of the past and knowing that you are there for her should she feel the need to contact you. I would pray that she would ... in time~ *Huglets*  ~*Marge*~ ~*When the heart grieves over what it has lost, |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
some of the best parts of you may in fact be in me I think that says much for you and equally that your heart remembers something of your mother or you wouldn't have wanted to see her again. Give it time and never close that door. You probably gave her a shock and guilt may have risen for not being able to care for you and you sister back then. Go on from here...and maybe it will all work out. hugs M |
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