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White Wolf
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Somewhere in the vast wasteland

0 posted 2003-05-26 07:33 AM


How about a true story
Many will cringe
Others will sympathize
And a few have lived

There is this child
Filled with life
He fed on love and hope
Slept with a blanket of protection

His life shattered
At three he was abandoned
His parents divorced
Niether was there for him

Eventually his mother came back
Trust started to come back
Saftey almost a reality
As close as he ever got

At six he was sexually abused
"Boys will be boys" says grandma
The worst still to come
Mom said nothing

Just a little boy
Forced into self-dependence
Survival, the only thing he knew
Protected his emotions, himself

Dad finally found out
Court orders issued
At eight custody changed
Mother willingly abandoned him

Dad had remarried
Step-mom treated him as his due
As only a step-son
His, Mine, Our's

Dad worked all the time
Step-Mom's heart problems
Blamed on him
He was not perfect

A problem child
Perpetual liar
Disrespect
This was his life

He lived the rest of his childhood
He was an idea child
Ideas were shot down
Dreams burned

Impossible
Can't be done
You are not good enough
Eventually his spirit is broken

Ideas fade
Dreams put away
Unwanted
Unloved

Adulthood screwed
Everyone at arms length
Head facing the ground
Not trusting anyone

Then a girls came along
Deciding to risk it
He trusted a few
His heart trashed and broken

I was only a matter of time
His soul finally went out
Death has finally come
Nothing left but ashes


To be concluded....
Not much of a piece of poetry.  Free verse in its truest, unflowing form.  The "he" or forms of the word refer to the person this story is about.  More information to be included in the conclusion.  Some of you know me but most of you don't so hello to you all.

The White Wolf

If life is just a game, when does it end cause I want to get to what is real.

© Copyright 2003 Justin D. Schroeder - All Rights Reserved
Sunshine
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1 posted 2003-05-26 07:49 AM



White Wolf, where have you been?  Gone too long!  Thanks for coming home, and yes...a striking piece of free verse...hard hitting and sadly, much, much too common....

Earth Angel
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2 posted 2003-05-26 08:35 AM


Painful to read because of the all too common horror of child abuse, not because of your poetry--that was well-done and hard-hitting, but very effective at showing how devastingly harmful emotional abuse can be to a child and how that affects them for the rest of their life.

Peace, Light, & Love of Children,
Earth Angel

icebox
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3 posted 2003-05-26 11:48 AM


"Just a little boy
Forced into self-dependence
Survival, the only thing he knew
Protected his emotions, himself"

The bullet hit the bone on those lines.

Thank you for posting this.

Magnus
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4 posted 2003-05-26 11:58 AM


Though the ashes swirl in the wind,  there
is hope...if only that first courageous
step to independence is taken.  A step to
understanding that person has value...and
can make a difference...

White Wolf
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5 posted 2003-05-27 02:52 AM


Sunshine - I am glad that someone remembers.  Glad to be back.  I am not sure if I will be back in full swing but maybe I am discovering a new muse.  Thank you.

Earth Angel - devastating is really a kind word compared to the horror that people who have and are living this feel.  I understand your point.  Thank you for your kind comments.

icebox - Oftentimes survival is the only thing left.  The last surviving line of defense.  I see too many people like this.  You are welcome but I can't say it was a pleasure to write or post this.  Thank you.

Mangus - One of the problems with people that have gone through emotional abuse is that they are forced into independence.  They cannot depend on anyone.  At this point those people don't lack the courage.  They are already using it to stand on their own to survive.  This world is scary enough let alone survive in it when everything has been ripped from them.  Thank you for your reply.  It has helped me to see somethings sightly differently.

If life is just a game, when does it end cause I want to get to what is real.

Justbleu
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6 posted 2003-05-27 03:59 AM


Hello White Wolf....Nice to see you writing with us again!!!  After a childhood of abandonment and pain it's difficult to let down the wall of self protection and trust again.....
A sad and honest piece!!!!
It's good to let this kind of stuff out and you expressed your thoughts and feelings well.  
Bridgette

"Somewhere, somehow, it should be possible to touch someone and never let go again.  To hold someone, not for a moment but forever." Unknown


passing shadows
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7 posted 2003-05-27 04:00 AM


very sad write, I can understand
White Wolf
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Somewhere in the vast wasteland
8 posted 2003-05-27 04:09 PM


Understanding is the key.  Once you understand the problem you can then begin to work on it.  Thank you.

If life is just a game, when does it end cause I want to get to what is real.

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