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MikeFessel
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0 posted 2003-05-05 03:46 AM

When will you feel that I love you enough?
If I spent the day admiring your beauty?
If I spent a week flattering you with charm?

What if I opened my heart and bade you come in,
shared with you my soul and all of my sin.
Would that be then all that's required,
or would there still be so much more left desired?

If I spent long hours just dreaming of you?
Or wrote pleasing sonnets of all that I feel?
If I made myself a fool just to get you to laugh?
Or gave all my support with each and every collapse?

And what of the nights watching carefully over you?
The eternity of the moments when you do what you do?
The tears that I shed as I'm mourning for you?
And all of this pain that you keep putting me through?

I have done this and more without a moments regret.
Given of myself till inside nothing was left.
Showered you with hope when I felt nothing but fear.
Still you threaten to leave me alone without you here.

So I shall spend another day admiring your beauty.
And I will spend another week immersed in your charm.
While my eyes keep on asking that which tears at my soul.
When will you feel that I love you enough?

By Michael J Fessel

[This message has been edited by MikeFessel (05-05-2003 03:49 AM).]

CountryGal
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since 2003-03-09

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Missouri, USA

1 posted 2003-05-05 07:31 AM

This is so sad.

Very well written though. I can relate too.

Patricia
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2 posted 2003-05-05 07:58 AM

There is a line from a song that comes to my mind here. "The more you suffer, the more it shows you really care. Right? Yah." I don't think this should be true. And I don't know that this fits your situation, but that is what came to mind after reading your writing. If you really love her, and you think patience and time will help her to believe in your love, then that is what you give her. However, if it is tearing you apart, then you must make a decision that you can live with...does this make sense? I love the writing and rhyme is beautiful.

Remember Mike, sometimes people have been so hurt by others, they can't believe they can have true love. I am probably one of those people, and she may be as well.

I hope she will see your love is true...

-Patricia

MikeFessel
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since 2003-04-19

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3 posted 2003-05-05 08:15 AM

CountryGal,
Thank you. That means so much to me, especially in this case. This poem is...special to me.

Mike

MikeFessel
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4 posted 2003-05-05 08:23 AM

Patricia,
Yup Offspring- Self Esteem. A great song. One of their best. Doesn't fit my situation though, not like that at all. Thankfully.

"If you really love her, and you think patience and time will help her to believe in your love, then that is what you give her." -Until recent events, I thought that was the way to go too. Now I don't have a clue, but its the only road I know so I will stay on it I guess.

And I made my decesion. I'm not going any where. As long as she needs me, I am there. Sometimes any amount of suffering is worth it. She suffers too, I can't forget that.

Glad you liked the poem. I'm going to show it to her, though I'm so afraid of the result.

Mike

[This message has been edited by MikeFessel (05-05-2003 08:24 AM).]

regards2you
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5 posted 2003-05-05 08:35 AM

Mike,

Interesting write and per your replies a current event. Am sorry for this stressful existence...

The only part of poem not balancing is ...'her charm'....

that line confuses me...

what charm????

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
"Desiderata"

MikeFessel
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since 2003-04-19

Posts 321
Brooklyn, NYC, USA

6 posted 2003-05-05 08:38 AM

regards2you,
She is very charming, and sweet, and kind, and caring, and funny, and bright, and well I could write this list forever. It is very complicated, and I can't and won't go into it on a public message board. Sorry

Mike

[This message has been edited by MikeFessel (05-05-2003 08:38 AM).]

Enchantress
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Canada eh.

7 posted 2003-05-05 09:25 AM

Excellent write...very well written Mike.
~Smiles & Hugs for better days ahead, Nancy~

~Somewhere in my heart I'm always
dancing with you in the summer rain~

MikeFessel
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since 2003-04-19

Posts 321
Brooklyn, NYC, USA

8 posted 2003-05-05 09:32 AM

Nancy,
Wow, thank you very much. I am so pleased you like this. I appreciate the kind words.

Mike

Margherita
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since 2003-02-08

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Eternity

9 posted 2003-05-05 06:12 PM

Maybe she is unsecure about her charms and continuously needs to be reassured.
Your poem is beautiful Mike. An outpour of love and ... a touch of frustration.
Ah if we knew how to define ENOUGH in love!
Maybe true love is not measurable and is always enough.
Your heart knows, listen.
Love, Margherita

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

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Between the Lines

10 posted 2003-05-05 06:30 PM

I could tell that this poem means much to you...
I understand it, and that is unusual for me

M

Corinne
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since 1999-10-28

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state of confusion

11 posted 2003-05-05 11:53 PM

Hi Mike,

I see you post here too (recognize your name from TCP as well).

Sigh. Who knows when she'll think it is enough?

Core

MikeFessel
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12 posted 2003-05-06 01:01 AM

Margherita,
Always you sweet words console me! Yes she is very insecure, that is true, so very true...In this latest instance my love wasn't enough. But perhaps if I try even harder in the future it will be.

Thank you for replying to me yet again! I always look forward to a post from you

Mike

MikeFessel
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Posts 321
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13 posted 2003-05-06 01:03 AM

Oh stop it nakdthoughts! Thanks for the kind words. Hope your doing well.

Mike

MikeFessel
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since 2003-04-19

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Brooklyn, NYC, USA

14 posted 2003-05-06 01:12 AM

Yup Corinne its me tis true! Oh don't be hard on my Angel, please. She is so wonderful she even loved this poem and all that it said. The story behind this is not a simple one. Everyone should think only the world of her! She has held me up when I was falling numerous times.

Mike

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