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nakdthoughts
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Between the Lines

0 posted 2003-05-04 08:28 PM

Thoughts On A Spring Day

I watched you, your eyes closed,
your breath soft and warm,
wondering why our time
had come to an end,
as I peeked in to make sure
you had made it home last night.

Music runs through my head,
those oldies stations reminding me
song after song of moments shared.

I wonder if you think of me
when listening to those same songs.

Do you remember
where we were, when we first met?

Do you remember that first kiss
and the surprise on my face when
you reached over to give me one?

You were older, more experienced,
and very hard to resist.
We were more than friends,
more than lovers.
I don't believe in soulmates but if I did,
you were mine.

Some days I wonder about all those "what if's"
and have to back off of feelings,
knowing that they can never be again.

Some days you look so good to me
that I almost wish I could tell you that,
but I am so afraid of your rejection a second time.

I am prepared for the next step,
that final one, but
I know we will never sever our ties.
Because despite everything, we have a bond.
One that no one else can understand,
not our friends, nor our relatives.

I am often surprised at myself.
I have no hate in me, and as time goes on
respect has returned.
You are still near enough to let me know
I am not abandoned.
And I am still here to make sure
that you don't drown.

Funny thing for me to say about a lifeguard,
for it was you that saved me once...long ago.
And it is I, that will keep you afloat
until one or the other of us
is no longer here on earth.

I have come to terms with my life...
for now.

M

"Love is not blind - It sees more and not less, but because it sees more, it is willing to see less."
(Will Moss)

Edder
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since 2003-04-02

Posts 671

1 posted 2003-05-04 09:55 PM

as i follow your writings i am coming to realize what a remarkable woman you are. well done.

Suetang
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since 2001-03-07

Posts 5187
Melbourne, Australia

2 posted 2003-05-04 09:59 PM

Hello Maureen

Your words were filled with so much love and compassion and such a love will never die no matter how many obstacles get in the way. Such beautiful words from the kindest of hearts. I hope you are well.

Take care......Sue

I am in motion
I am blue
Love is an ocean
I'm anchored in you
- Shawn Mullins

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

3 posted 2003-05-05 09:46 AM

Edder, you flatter me, but thank you. It is always nice to have something positive said by someone.
*s
M

Good morning, Sue. I am fine thank you.
I always am delighted to see you.
hugs
M

Munda
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since 1999-10-08

Posts 3544
The Hague, The Netherlands

4 posted 2003-05-05 04:21 PM

I really enjoyed your poem and love your final two lines, 'cause one never knows what tomorrow may bring.

QjQ
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since 2003-04-18

Posts 3756
U.S.A.

5 posted 2003-05-05 04:48 PM

a great write, kept my attention,

It matters not how you answer, It matters only that i hear you.

Earth Angel
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since 2002-08-27

Posts 40215
Realms of Light

6 posted 2003-05-05 04:57 PM

Your Spring Day thoughts were beautifully expressed--and very moving. Your poetry affects me deeply, for I have experienced so much of what you write about. It is wonderful that you are able to express these emotions and share them with others like myself.

Luvin' hugs,
LL

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

7 posted 2003-05-05 05:16 PM

"I am afraid of your rejection a second time." Reminded me of those feelings when trust is lost...James

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

8 posted 2003-05-05 06:46 PM

Munda, I know, sometimes I wish I was a palm reader or fortune teller, then I can prepare myself for the outcome.

QjQ, I am glad you lasted through it. Sometimes I just ramble on about my yesterdays...

EA, I wish I could write  of  a different theme, but I can only write about that which I know and experience. I was never good at surmising.

hugs to you
M

JamesM, that's what it was and is...I have a hard time believing and trusting now, and doubt whether I will ever be able to again.

Thank you for being a constant reader of my words.
hugs
M

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

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displaced

9 posted 2003-05-06 03:54 AM

always inspiring!

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

10 posted 2005-08-31 12:59 PM

Revisiting...James

nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

11 posted 2005-08-31 06:24 PM

thank you James...I have been so busy I barely have time to come onto the computer and when I am not busy I am too tired...5 year olds can wear you down...

I have been going to bed around 6-7 every night just because I can...yawning right now
(I almost don't recognize myself writing these words)
Thanks again,

M

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