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jellybeans
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since 2000-10-13

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0 posted 2003-02-11 02:41 PM

Sketches of me

Inside me lives a need to explain myself, so
pencil in hand I set off across the page
endeavoring to sketch the lines that are me…

but, how do I draw one tear drop and not
have it followed by another until I leave
a soggy suggestion of who I might be?

The anger that possesses me shall
surely scribble black the pages to hide my
smoldering soul.

In this world is there lead sufficient to capture
the moments of my endure?

The love for my little one, I cannot portray, it
refuses to fit within reasonable margins.

I could bring one back from the throwing,
do my best to unwrinkled it and submit
to you my getting older as merely fine creasing.

The nervous wiggle that lives in my ankle
comes across inadequately, it hides all clues to
the energy that drives it.

Waste basket full, frustration peaking I give up
and say, Nay tis impossible, I cannot put into pencil
the grace with which one walks nor the crinkle in
ones eyes when the heart is overfull.

My faith comes forward and tries to put itself down,
but in essence refuses. Towards heaven I throw
my hands-acceptance I find in my Father’s arms.

From this quest I now find rest.

[This message has been edited by jellybeans (02-12-2003 10:55 AM).]

passing shadows
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since 1999-08-26

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1 posted 2003-02-11 02:44 PM

beautiful ending JB, and I know the journey well

jellybeans
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since 2000-10-13

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2 posted 2003-02-11 02:45 PM

thank you ps, I thought I sensed a 'peace' in your writing...now I understand

Cpat Hair

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since 2001-06-05

Posts 11793

3 posted 2003-02-11 02:55 PM

you sketch well the outlines... charcoals and greys blended on white..till the image is there...but not quite and the reader takes their own experience..their own fine lines of age and completes it for themselves.

the_loner_23
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since 2002-06-08

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Jacksonville, Florida, USA

4 posted 2003-02-11 02:57 PM

Beautiful words of poetry

Cold hands means a warm heart

jellybeans
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since 2000-10-13

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5 posted 2003-02-11 02:59 PM

cpat....thank you, you read it just as I intended it...a picture of me as seen over a reflection of you....thank you

loner....thank you

[This message has been edited by jellybeans (02-11-2003 03:01 PM).]

Robert Frazier
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since 2003-02-06

Posts 1014

6 posted 2003-02-11 03:09 PM

This is a wonderful observation on the futility of self-definition - at least within the bounds of parchment! Excellent use of this device! I enjoyed on several levels; not least of which is the spiritual. You have a beautiful voice.

Rf

Earth Angel
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since 2002-08-27

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7 posted 2003-02-11 03:54 PM

"Self-portraits" are very difficult to sketch.
We tend to pick ourselves apart in the most unjust manner.
If a true likeness of you, dear jellybeans, was to be painted it would be a portrait divine radiating a kind and beautiful soul.

Warm hugs,
EA

jellybeans
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since 2000-10-13

Posts 2298

8 posted 2003-02-12 10:56 AM

Robert and EA, thank you so much, your comments make me smile

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