Open Poetry #24 |
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Dr. Ward |
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Jaime Fradera Senior Member
since 2000-11-25
Posts 843Where no tyranny is tolerable |
Doctor Ward 1: It is evening, And we are having dinner at the Ark. Then my ride picks me up, Takes me to a church function; But after he drives off, I realize That I don't know where I am. It is now fully night And I am lost and disoriented. Everything is strange and unfamiliar. I hear a jet fly low above And muse That we must be near the airport. I walk into a building, Looking for info or directions. A girl asks If I am coming To the "clothes" program on girdles. I mechanically say yes, And she leads me to a room Where a ceremony seems to be in progress. The room is filled with people Sitting on bleachers in a circle, And in the center Candles are burning in a chalice. I am suddenly very tired, Sink into the benches or a couch And then pass out. 2: I wake up in a hospital room. Through a hazy stupor, I hear someone asking where I am, And can I hear her can I hear her ... And can I say my name, And recite the alphabet, And do I know How many toes I have, And can I count backwards to zero? ... When she is satisfied I am awake, She tells me she is Dr. Ward. When I ask: how did I get here? She says I had had a seizure at the meeting And that they brought me to Emergency. She says her name is Dr. Ward, But when I so address her, She is annoyed and says to me just call her Doctor. 3: I am at a very loud, Cacophonous, Teenage drugs and drinking party But have no idea how I got there. Amid the raucous blare Of heavy-metal rock The kids are standing around, Being crazy, Smoking dope. Then a roomer, A whispered something starts to circulate: Police ... the police! ... The police are coming! They're gonna make a bust! ... This sets everybody Running round and round To frantically Get rid of all the stuff Before the cops arrive. I follow the crowd and the excitement Outside to the front lawn, And just then A patrol car pulls up, Radio crackling. An officer gets out And says we're in violation Of City Ordinance 46, Excessive noise, And will have to pay a fine. The officer isn't looking for drugs Until my sister, Who has been smoking dope, Gaily offers him a reefer. She is promptly arrested And told to "get behind the wheel!" And it is she Who drives them both Down to the "station-house." As they roar off into the night, Tires screeching, I call out to her Be sure she has her notebook So she can keep a diary Of her jail experience. My travel cane is gone, So very carefully, I slowly feel my way Into the now deserted house. 4: I am talking With my father on a payphone , Or maybe it is more than one. It seems that we've been talking For some time by telephone. In fact, It seems we have been years like this, Relationship via telephone; And indeed We saw each other seldom After the divorce. And through all the years, All the first times of my life, He was there, Giving me his scoops, His articles, his commentaries, ... My being Too far away to hear the broadcasts, Sprinkled with bits Of father-son advice; Broadcasting to me by telephone. Now, this was his last broadcast. And like Walter saying: that's the way it is; It was time to say: so long, It was time to say: goodbye. As I hang up the phone, I feel a wave of sickening loss And paralyzing sadness. I sink heavily into a chair, My mind reeling. It is almost as if my dad were dead ... Wasn't he? ... ... ... 5: And then it comes to me That, as I remember it, Father had died in 1983. And I remembered the emergency, The plane trip, How we had to leave the country; The gather of his children In the face of the onrushing inevitable. And I remembered the cancer ward; The antiseptic gowns They said we had to wear, Sense his immune system was gone; And the open toilet down the hall. And I remembered Asking the doctors how he was, Being careful Not to do it too insistently, Hoping they would sense I didn’t really want to know. And I remembered how cold his hands were When I held them: The IV’s in both his arms, Sustaining him, Confining him; And how his eyes, his skin were turning yellow. And I remembered How he told me he was sorry For the peaceful home That he had never given me, For the father he had never been, For the beatings and the spankings, For all those things that happened So very long ago; Because both he and Mother Were themselves still children When they had me. And I told him not to worry, That I was at peace, That he had only done The best he knew. And I remembered When, at last, it came, The end. 6: Then Mother comes to me And she is crying. She says that she is joining A Zen-budhist-hippie commune Out in California, That she has come to say goodbye. I ask her: How could Father be dead, When I just finished talking to him? But she just turns And walks away. 7: And now, the rest I can not write; Except that I emerge Into the topside world, A place Where there is Life, and Hope, and Light. There’s got to be a morning after. We’re moving closer to the shore. I know we’ll be there by tomorrow. And we’ll escape the darkness. We won’t be searching anymore. Maureen Mg-Govern Used without permission!! Jaime |
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since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
The impact of this was greater than I had expected. Knowing you as I do, I thought I could read it without a tear, knowing some of the story already. I was wrong. You always leave me amazed at the abundance of your inner strength. |
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Balladeer
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since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Jaime, it is always a pleasure to enjoy your work and this is exceptional writing. The scenarios you portray and then the realization of what they stand for and the way you tie them together is first-rate. I don't think Maureen would mind at all ![]() |
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Sunshine
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since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
quote: This is what brought it home to me. Thank you Jaime. Don't be a stranger... |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Jaime, I don't think I know you, but I did enjoy reading this, though it was sad to me. I don't know if it's from your own personal experience or not, so I won't comment any further. Making the reader not know whether it's real or fiction is what makes a good writer, isn't it? ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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