Spiritual Journeys #2 |
Ashen inquiry |
jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
The cremated ruins of my world lie now in an urn no use for me remains. Scattered bits of love and reminisce are retrieved from the tick-tocking that threatens to steal them and added daily but the bottomless urn overfills with nothing but despair. Lord take my words, no longer do they have meaning; take my ears, without his voice in it this earth is but a void; take my heart, it is ripped beyond repair; take my eyes for all the colors have melded; take the warmth of the sun for this coldness is impenetrable. Take everything I am or might ever be just please please give my baby back to me... Even now my irrational pleadings tell me that it is not possible, this prayer that I pray - absence is unto death as breath is unto life. But in this dark hour, dwelling in illogicality, comfort seems entirely plausible and so one last thing of You my Lord I will inquire if I cannot once again hold his beating heart next to mine, then please take the air that I breathe... |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
take my ears, without his voice in it this earth is but a void; take my heart, it is ripped beyond repair; take my eyes for all the colors have melded; take the warmth of the sun for this coldness is impenetrable. There isn't a thing I could say that wouldn't be banal or inadequate... the pain your pen conveys is beyond touching... I weep for you, dear lady. |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
OhSweetie~ 'absence is unto death as breath is unto life' knowing the painful realize of this~ May He continue to hold you as you pen the tears~ *Huglets* ~*Marge*~ ~*When the heart grieves over what it has lost, |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
jellybeans You bring me so sharply back to this: Rock the cradle hums the silence, swaddle the aching story in soft memories lullaby. Push again the breath of morning into the arms of waiting listen before the wail and stench of dying digest the offering of my needful retrospect. Become the giggles and glee of summer’s lasting when again you are my whimsy and I your wisdom. -------- |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
suthern, your weeping heals my soul, thank you my friend marge...you know, I can feel your knowing, grief is such a hard thing, but sharing it, helps one get through...don't know how it works but it does.......thank you martie, beautiful poem, and I am sorry, if my loss brings yours to light, would not ever want to hurt another with my loss, that is why I debated so the posting of these...sigh |
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Trillium
since 2001-03-09
Posts 12098Idaho, USA |
jellybeans: If it helps in any small way to post your feelings here, by allmeans do! We all understand what a traumatic time this is for you and all we can do is pray for your healing. Love Betty Lou Betty Lou Hebert |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Just know I am holding you in thoughts and prayers~ |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
jellybeans This is the month of remember for me...it is good, the life, not the death...I want to remember. Don't fret, okay...I thank you! Hug! |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Even now my irrational pleadings tell me that it is not possible, this prayer that I pray - absence is unto death as breath is unto life. ~*~ sometimes mothers and irrationality seem to be a part of life. Even when it's not fair. *hugs*... K |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
(big angel hugs) Oh, dearest friend, I wish there was something I could say to make everything anew again, dearest friend, though it may not be enough know that we are all here for you and we'll be blessed to always lend you a shoulder if you need one, as we are your friends and He is embracing you with His dearest hug! (wipes tears) God Bless You, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet friend, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "You'll find something that's enough to keep you |
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beaniebaby Member
since 2005-11-17
Posts 55 |
sigh [This message has been edited by beaniebaby (06-27-2006 09:52 AM).] |
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jellybeans Member Elite
since 2000-10-13
Posts 2298 |
thank you all again |
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Songbird Member Elite
since 1999-12-15
Posts 2184Missouri |
I know this kind of loss and your poetry is a beautiful description of it. Time does eventually take the edge off it. |
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Lighthousebob Member Elite
since 2000-06-14
Posts 4725California |
jellybeans, As you are probably aware, I do feel extraordinarily for your loss as the one year anniversary of the loss of my Grandbaby approaches on August 6th. When my Daughter and I get together again, our plan is to spread part of Cole's remains out over the ocean and spend some quality Father/Daughter time together in quiet reflection. God bless and thank you for sharing. -Bob |
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