Open Poetry #23 |
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Does He Approve, Or Not, Of This Precious Love I've Found? |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA ![]() |
Does he approve, or not, of this precious love I've found Just what would he say if he was around So jealous was he saying it was "love" Sometimes I was afraid that he would even shove But even through all this his love he wanted to show The feelings he had for me he wanted me to know After he passed away and left me alone here At times, really weird how he seems so near I wonder if he knows about the strong love I've found or if he would approve if he was around I think maybe he would if he could see in my heart Our memories, some good, some bad, are of me a part And the love that we shared for all those many years 'Until death we did part' and there have been many tears |
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Cpat Hair![]()
since 2001-06-05
Posts 11793 |
Ethel... very heartfelt questions... peace. |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Yes, Capt. Ron, those questions really are in my heart. I just don't know why.... Unless it is because I tried so many years to please him in everything I did...... "Love makes the world go around" ~~with love and hugs from Ethel~~ [This message has been edited by garysgirl (12-12-2002 08:24 AM).] |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
I believe that I do understand where you are coming from with this write. Even though my former husband is still alive and kicking, I find that there are times when I still play this scenario in my mind. ~ morning hugs Linda |
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NewEnglandlazurlu Member Rara Avis
since 2002-01-04
Posts 7470A Mountain Paradise |
Ethel, seems you have asked a lot of hard questions here. It must be difficult to move on especially from someone you loved and worked so hard to make a relationship with. I hope you can find peace in your heart and you and Gary will ride off into the sunset (now how corney is that?) free in spirit. Hugs sweetie, Marti |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
garysgirl A beautiful write and read. |
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regards2you Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940California |
Ethel, I can see you, and I understand completely. That first wedding band encircled our complete, at a time we were most vulnerable and naive about life. It is hard to slip out of what we accepted as our whole existence, without question, never dreaming it would end and never thinking at first it would be anything but, LOVE! Too, often making him our God. And I think you are right in hoping his love for you, will cause him to be glad for you now....but don't hope, KNOW, by using the clear meaning of love. ...may you be able to release ~him~ in love, so that he may find ~Him~, in love. For Love is God. I think the very thing we need and want from others is sometimes the very thing we should do for others. (I know it's not easy, always just goals) Hugs and love to you, Pat ![]() ..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.. |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Linda, thank you for understanding. I appreciate it. ![]() |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Thank you, Marti, for understanding and for your well wishes for me and Gary. I really do appreciate it. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Thank you Mr. Seymour. I appreciate your reading and replying. "Love makes the world go around" |
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Midnitesun![]()
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
Time and space will tell. But does it really matter? Enjoyed this reflective moment. |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Pat, thank you, friend, for your understanding heart and for your very wise comments. Sometimes it is hard to move on from what we "thought" was a near perfect life. I do believe, though, that God has put me and Gary together, and that our future life together holds more happiness than I ever realized. The last five years have helped me to grow up a lot, so that has helped (and will continue to help) the relationship between me and Gary. I'm very thankful that he is so loving and patient with me. I hope that I don't lag around until I lose him, though. Thank you, Pat, for your love and concern. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Ethel Just writing these words in poetry, you free yourself and him. There is space in hearts for much love...it is good to keep them both. |
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Mistletoe Angel![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
![]() (big hugggssssssss) Oh Ethel, I just read your heartfelt post in PipTalk Lounge, and I can understand how you feel! ![]() (sigh) I may be young and not very wise, but I have been to many weddings and have heard the words said and believe there is nothing more important than for each partner to feel happy forever! (big hugggsssss) And those words "to death do us part" are so very important to love, yet you are not breaking that creed. Of course if a love that is still living cheats on another, that is a whole different story, but when a loved one is lost, the true love will last forever, and there is nothing a loved one wants more than for his or her partner to feel happy and comfortable forever! I believe with all my heart he is looking down on you right now, smiling and blessed that someone else has found you to offer you comfort and love the rest of your life, and he is not upset, he is proud of you, and loves you with all his heart, and when the right time comes, you will re-unite with him again! (big hugggsssss) God Bless You, sweet friend, you touch on such a deep point, I am admired by the courage you have in writing out your feelings here! I send many angel hugs your way! ![]() Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." Shakira [This message has been edited by Mistletoe Angel (12-12-2002 11:20 AM).] |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Martie, thank you so much for your kind words. I appreciate them. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Noah, you are wise way beyond your years. I really do appreciate your loving comments. Now, I really am crying. Sometimes, especially around the holidays, is very hard. I don't really understand my feelings, because I know that I now love Gary with all my heart. But (and Gary knows this), I would never have gotten so involved with him if my husband was still alive. Gary says that makes him love me even more, though, because he knows I will be true to him. He is a very understanding man. All I know to say is, thank you, dear friend. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" ~~with love and hugs from Ethel~~ [This message has been edited by garysgirl (12-12-2002 11:41 AM).] |
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Salty Senior Member
since 2002-11-23
Posts 669Texas |
Ethel I saw your post in the lounge and came to find this poem. I think your last line answers your question for you * Until Death do we part*. That part was out of your hands, and you did keep your commitment. You have ever right in the world to be happy and to share it with someone you love. He would probably want it that way also if he really loved you. ~Salty In the Midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you. |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
Ethel...you kept the promise....and for some reason I think alot of times we do wonder if they would understand.........and I think they would. Well done. Hugs. |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Kacy, I missed you up there. Sorry.... ![]() No, I guess it doesn't really matter, come to think of it, because I still love Gary, no matter what. But, sometimes I still feel a little bit of guilt for some reason... "Love makes the world go around" |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Salty, yeah, I was faithful to him. I really do thank all of you for your sweet comments. It makes me feel lots better. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Donna, I've often said to my friends that he probably would have been married years ago, if I had been the one who died. Do you know what? They agreed!!!!!!! Thank you for your concern, friend. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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Christopher
Moderator
Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-02
Posts 8296Purgatorial Incarceration |
This brought a small smile to my face. I like to think that we never truly lose the people we care for. They live on in our memories and our hearts - for what else is love, but that which is inside us, caring for those outside. I can hardly think that someone who loves another wouldn't want them to find what happiness they could - even after their passing. You can love your lost ones and still love others; the 'heart' is big, and has room for many. Peace C ![]() |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Hey, Chris... You are right. If a person really loves someone, they want them to be happy, no matter what. And our hearts are big enough, aren't they? Thank you for your care and concern. I really do appreciate it. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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Aenimal Member Rara Avis
since 2002-11-18
Posts 7350the ass-end of space |
All that matters now is that you are happy regardless of what anybody thinks. I know it's easier said than done considering how thoughts and emotions will always linger. But life is too precious and too short and any oppurtunity for love should be taken. If you believe in an afterlife then I'm sure at this point he understands the meaning of life and that is love. I don't know what I'm saying here, I'm better at poetry than in speaking my mind or giving advice. I guess I just hope you enjoy your love because you seem really sweet and we all deserve happiness.. raph |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
garysgirl - I'm sure he would approve. Nice write with your thoughts... BC |
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A Tone of Voice Member
since 2001-07-18
Posts 287 |
a friend of mine once said he'd want his wife to re-marry, he'd think of it as a tribute to their marriage. If he loved you, I'm sure he'd want you to love again.....very nicely done~! |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Raph, I really appreciate your heartfelt comments to me. All of you are so kind and understanding. Thank you so much. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Bill, thank you very much. For some reason, it makes me feel better to think he would approve. I appreciate your reply. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
A Tone Of Voice, thank you so much for your kind words. I appreciate them very much..... ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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Larry C![]()
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
Ethel, Interesting how things beyond our control can be the springboard for guilt. This seems to be one of those times your head must over rule your heart. If he always wanted your happiness I can't imagine he wouldn't want it now. I'm so sorry for your challenge during a time when you have found such happiness. Bless you dear girl, always. ![]() If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. |
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garysgirl![]() ![]() ![]()
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Larry, thank you so much for responding to my question. Yes, I had no control over my husband dying. In fact, I had a lot of moments of anger at him for "leaving me". He had a heart condition all his life and as he started growing older, it caused complications with his lungs.He fought this condition for as long as he could, though. Again, thank you, friend, for your compassionate comments. ![]() "Love makes the world go around" |
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Paul Wilson![]() ![]()
since 2002-07-07
Posts 4711United States |
Ethel~ A very touching write about a very private part of your life. I feel that long before any of this happenned it was already planned out for you and we cannot change what was meant to be or tempt fate.Just hold onto your memories & enjoy the present..Paul " To share my poems with you is to share my heart with you " |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Of course...someone that loves you is concerned for your happiness...James |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Of course...someone that loves you is concerned for your happiness...James |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
good meditative write. |
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