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Struggling
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines 
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Struggling I feel this pressure building, in my chest, a feeling of unknowing. Each sleepless night, I wonder, will this be my last? Will I never have the comfort of arms to surround me in warmth of loving again? I am becoming passive, the struggling to answer, taking its toll. I dream you there, almost smiling, taking the place of what once was, now devil-like to me. So many times you were correct, while I was blinded by wishful thinking. I am nothing at times to someone who once was my everything. I give everything to someone who is now my nothing. And why? What possesses me to do this? In some of my darkest hours, I am invisible to him, yet I am sustaining his life, while mine is draining. I am not a ventful person, but in these early morning hours my mind sees clearest, while it waits for the door to open and the personality change. [This message has been edited by nakdthoughts (03-30-2002 05:41 AM).] |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
nakdthoughts, isn't it amazing what midnight revelations bring. Amazing insight. Kethry Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown |
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-02
Posts 8296Purgatorial Incarceration |
some heavy thoughts for this beautiful day. well placed and a stream of consciousness i can relate to on a very personal level. peace Chris |
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Madame Chipmunk Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-05
Posts 8296Michigan |
Such sad thoughts, Maureen... Please cheer up and love yourself.... as all of your friends here at the blue pages love you.  ~hearty hugs for cheer~copyright2002 Lyra Nesius |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggsssssss) Oh Maureen, this sounds so very dad, my heart goes out to you for all our thoughts are with you always and you will pull through! (kiss on cheek) We all love you so much, sweet friend, you are never alone! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Maureen, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton |
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ThisDiamond Member Rara Avis
since 2002-02-22
Posts 9353Michigan, USA |
The life that exudes in your work is extraordinary. I have pulsed through these wee hours myself, and they are sometimes all too clear...and then the ankle chain breaks and we fly free. All happiness to you. ThisDiamond |
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RSEvans Senior Member
since 1999-10-23
Posts 1147Tulsa, OK, USA |
How close to how many hearts has this one passed? Beautifully expressed in its dire sadness. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Yes sometimes life does require a certain amound of reflection to gather priorities and to clearly understand the correct choices that need to be made to place us on a good path...James |
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Dulcinea Senior Member
since 2001-07-22
Posts 774IN |
Your words and images captured the essence of that struggle very well! |
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Interloper
since 2000-11-06
Posts 8369Deep in the heart |
After all those positive words you now give us these sad words  The bright part is you are a wonderful poet  Fool, said my Muse to me, look in thy heart and write. |
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brianbeaudry Member
since 2001-07-20
Posts 410Northern Ontario Canada |
You can find answer to your worth in the responces of your friends Maureen. They can see the beauty and compassion of this poetess and feel the love she gives so freely. Embrace tight those that love you dear friend, and show love to those that don't. Sending a compassionate arm around your shoulder and a gentle hug your way. [This message has been edited by brianbeaudry (04-02-2002 08:52 PM).] |
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Larry C
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
M, Hey...plug that drain!!! You do in fact have a future and are well worthy of all the love you seek. Courage friend. Courage. |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Wow M. this says an awful lot....have faith girl...you will see the light... |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
thank you, each..I am having problems with a stubborn cough..my struggle is really with that..but when I begin writing I am never too sure where I will go with my thoughts..here I was thinking how much I still do for my husband who no longer wishes to be..and how little I get in return for it..and from one day to the next when he confronts me, his personality changes..that's all..it wasn't mean to be sad "I"..and was probably written before the happier ones... hugs M |
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