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SmartChick
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-09-23

Posts 7081
On A Journey To The Unknown

0 posted 2002-03-08 09:34 PM

When a child grows up with negativism
How is he/she suppose to develop positivism
It is so hard to think positive thoughts
When negativism he/she has always fought

So confused as to what I should do
When I think about leaving you
My heart inside just hurts me so
I just don't know if I should go

Our lives together is not so good
You hardly ever do what you should
I wait for you to come home each day
But instead you just go another way

Then you walk in as if nothings wrong
Maybe it is true, here, I just don't belong
Trying to be a good wife just isn't so easy
My stomach, it always feels so queasy

Eight years of my life I have given you
Thinking we would have a life brand new
I have drifted so far away from you, now
To start all over, I just do not see how

I am filled with so much guilt inside
So many times inside I have cried
Cause my love for you just isn't the same
I never did like playing your little games

I have tried to talk to you so many times
From you I always get the same old lines
To you, it is useless to even say anything
It never does seem to change not one thing

I see no reason to even continue to try
To you this shouldn't be no surprise
So many things I have suppressed
Now I feel so deeply depressed
© By Sue 3-8-02

Mistletoe Angel

Member Empyrean

since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

1 posted 2002-03-08 09:40 PM

(tears fall down my cheeks) Oh Sue, this is so very sad, my heart goes out to you and your sorrow and I know just how you feel! (sad sigh) After I was abused I thought negative thoughts for a long time, but I guess after I learned to love muself, I have been a very optimistic person ever since! (kiss on cheek) My heart goes out to you, sweet friend, I hope soon you find a love who thinks positively for you and will listen and be faithful to you, you deserve all the greatest happiness always, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Sue, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

ThisDiamond
Member Rara Avis

since 2002-02-22

Posts 9353
Michigan, USA

2 posted 2002-03-08 09:47 PM

Sweet Sue my friend,
Sometimes the heart will wrestle with the mind, an inspiration to remind us of our own precious existence. No doubt you are aware, smart chick! Always here for you. ThisDiamond

Midnitesun

Member Empyrean

since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

3 posted 2002-03-08 10:15 PM

If you let the thoughts that flow freely from your heart carry you forward, you will move in the right direction. You are so right about the effects of negative and positive environments on children, as well as adults. I wish you peaceful thoughts, and the strength to move forward toward the positive.

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