Open Poetry #17 |
The voice that said Goodbye |
timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
What he was to me... Full of broken promises, angry words, strong heavy hands. He weakened my every strengh, draining me of self respect. Battered my soul, and fed my fears, broke my heart and caused my tears. Horrified me in my wake and followed me into my dreams. Branded me with his name, and then locked me away from the world. Keeping me hidden, to terrorize, and manipulate at his convenience. Silencing my voice to cry out for help, feeding his ego and loving my pain. But wait ! He's leaving for work. There are so many things to do. Pack my bags and call my friend, and take the kids to school. My heart is fluttering to the beat of a thousand drums...is this fear or the feel of freedom? Whatever it is, this time I ain't goin' back. The kid's are confused and trying to understand...got one on my hip, and the other is holding my hand. Bags are packed, car is running...nothing left to do. Except to leave him a note that says... "You never loved me, so now I'm gone. don't come lookin' I ain't comin' home. I don't have any plans...but I am free as a bird, no more heavy hands from you and no more angry words. I hate what you have done to me...but today I start my life... As a woman, and a mother...not your pitiful wife." *Whatever souls are made of...his and mine are of the same* ~Emily Bronte' |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Loved the strength in this one, good to "see" you up there! Kathleen (Kay) |
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SEA
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
I didn't give my ex a poem....but I left too! I am so glad you didn't stay... I know exactly what this feels like. Powerful write (((hugs))) |
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Startime Member Ascendant
since 2000-10-03
Posts 5918Canada |
BRAVO!!!!STANDING OVATION!!! It takes great courage to walk away from that kind of abuse and I am talking from experience. Way to go girl.......give yourself a big pat on the back. **Hugs** Good luck in your new found freedom. Love I leave with you whether it is in your life now or yet the essense of your dreams. |
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Temptress
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-06-15
Posts 7136Mobile, AL |
YES! I don't know if this is your reality, but it is attitude packed and hope filled! A very good way to tell a story. Your storm of assumption feeds anger I am calm enough to hold inside. Don't pretend to know me if you've never put stretched out your heart with since |
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Balladeer
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Well, I certainly hope this is only a poem. No one should have to go through that. You are either a strong woman or a strong writer....or both |
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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
Irish Rose...Finally made 50...haha...so that I could be seen instead of just heard ! Sea...for me the poem was MY PUNCH ! Startime...thank you soooo much Temptress...not my reality anymore...got strong and smart *SMILE* Balladeer...*BOTH* and a "warrior at heart" Timothys Angel *Whatever souls are made of...his and mine are of the same* ~Emily Bronte' [This message has been edited by timothysangel1973 (edited 12-10-2001).] |
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icequeen Senior Member
since 2001-12-09
Posts 633FL USA |
I commend you for your strength, and for your dignity. Make sure that the next man who raises a hand to you is only waving goodbye, for you always deserve the best, and never less. May you and your children never suffer, but live happily together ...and her crown was formed by the ice in her eyes |
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JoMason Member
since 2001-12-07
Posts 57 |
Timothysangel1973, To any woman who has been there I'd like to say I'm so proud of you. Courage to do, courage to tell. Courage to help others get well. God bless you, Stay strong and keep up the good work. Jo Mason 12/10/01 |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Girl if you were here in my livingroom I would give you fron one sister to another, a huge high five! Been there, done that, and you keep writing about it, so others will get the courage to get the hell out! I do every chance I get, and if there are enough of us, perhaps a handful will run for the hills to find their freedom and self esteem. Well done, I am smiling ear to ear all the way up in Vancouver, Canada. ~*~ May the spirit of this season live in your heart all year through ~*~ |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
enjoy |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Timothyangle, I agree with Balladeer and think you are both A strong write and well done. |
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Madame Chipmunk Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-05
Posts 8296Michigan |
A strong poet written by a strong woman, Timothy's Angel... I've never been in that situation, but I know many who have and who haven't had your courage... I admire you for that and for the beautifully written piece. It sounds like you've turned lemons into lemonades. copyright2001 Lyra Nesius "poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks [This message has been edited by Madame Chipmunk (edited 12-10-2001).] |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
BRAVO!!! STANDING OVATION!!! Oh Tima, I'm so happy you had the courage to get up and leave him before he could abuse you again! (wipes tears) This made me cry, and my heart goes out to all the tears you had to go through, but now I'm happy to feel the freedom and hope in your words for a new true love in a brand new day! (sigh) God Bles You, sweet Tima, we all love you so very much! (kiss on cheek) You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Tima, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton |
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N orth Carolina Girl Senior Member
since 2001-12-04
Posts 962NC,USA |
Timothys Angel,if you went through this I`m so very sorry.If you have broken away then "you go girl" Juanita |
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Auguste
since 2000-02-16
Posts 3953By the sea |
BRAVO!! I know so many in situations such as you describe. Only when the woman realizes her own self worth will she ultimately leave in search of a new life. I'm late here, but a hearty welcome to Passions. Michael Michael Auguste~ |
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timothysangel1973
since 2001-12-03
Posts 1725Never close enough |
This little thank you post goes out to everyone of you that read this poem. I think that the way that I have found my peace with this "dark, rugged square" in my life is by writing about it. I can put my feelings into the strength of my pen and let it out. ~~My biggest challenge next to raising my children (remaining sane) is to remember that it takes an even stronger person to stay in something like this without losing vision and courage of somethiing better. Thank you all so much for your words! Till we meet again..... ~TimothysAngel [This message has been edited by timothysangel1973 (edited 12-12-2001).] |
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