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nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

0 posted 2001-10-19 06:46 AM

All I Have

I held a love once,
it's warmth filled me to overflow.
Young, the both of us full of heart.
I recall each memory made,
as he pushed me on the hillside swing,
swam with me holding on, guarding me,
dancing so close, we blanketed one another
in comfort.

Years passed, and we grew as one,
same likes, same friends, always together
building a life of happiness. We got through Viet Nam,
deaths of loved ones, moved only three times in 31 years.
One time, only a mile from the last, because we wanted to
bring back to life, something crumbling, an old house
deserving of another chance to show off it's beauty.

And so we painted it with rainbow thoughts,
filled the gardens with everlasting love,
raised a pond to grace the corner ...
and then we enclosed ourselves within the walls,
expecting happiness to last. Somehow we failed.
Somewhere the strength of our togetherness
began to fade.

No one's fault, somewhere the pulls and needs
and wants and desires became twisted,
strangling each other until they frayed enough
to disintegrate one of the finest loves
ever imagined. It is lost now.
Nothing can ever bring back those glorious,
flowering days, when a single blossom
inspired a smile from my lips,
a kiss from my heart, a gentle touch
of fingers enclosing upon one another,
two, walking hand in hand, making it
in a world where most don't.

Each day that brings me heartache,
brings me a memory after, to sustain my life.
My home still stands, the crumbling repaired,
while the opposite has happened to my world...
and there are no second chances here.
But I am grateful I have had those years,
years that most others will never reach
or have a chance to feel
and although his words often try
to dissolve these memories,
I will not let them be torn from me,
as they are all I have...

"The worst prison would be a closed heart".
...Pope John Paul II

[This message has been edited by nakdthoughts (edited 10-19-2001).]

Tracey
Member Elite

since 2001-08-29

Posts 2808
where insanity meets breeding

1 posted 2001-10-19 07:29 AM

You write your thoughts so eloquently Wynter. Wonderful memories, and I hope that on the new path your life takes, that it will bring you new memories and experiences to cherish

If she who dies with the most toys wins, then can I have some toy boys please?

Startime
Member Ascendant

since 2000-10-03

Posts 5918
Canada

2 posted 2001-10-19 09:08 AM

The deep love you hold still lives in the memories you charish. I hope that the future holds such beauty of love for you again. My heart wept for you, dear one.

Love I leave with you whether it is in your life now or yet the essense of your dreams.

BrightStar
Member

since 2001-04-08

Posts 219

3 posted 2001-10-23 07:04 PM

Big bump!

Admiring you at Passions.

Mistletoe Angel

Member Empyrean

since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

4 posted 2001-10-23 07:34 PM

(sigh) Oh Wynter, your golden heart is always filled with such sweet love and beautiful memories! (sigh) Your poem is filled with such sweet sorrow and I pray that soon you will again be embraced by such beautiful love like this. (big hugggssssss) My heart is with you, sweet friend! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Wynter, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

The Lady of Shallot
Senior Member

since 2001-10-03

Posts 818
USA

5 posted 2001-10-24 09:28 AM

Nothing can take away memories and knowing that you were always true to yourself...((((hugs)))))

-befriend yourself and you will never be alone-

SmartChick
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-09-23

Posts 7081
On A Journey To The Unknown

6 posted 2001-10-24 10:14 AM

Sometimes memories are all we have to hang on to. I know this feeling very well. Thank you for sharing this.

vandana

Member Patricius

since 1999-10-22

Posts 10463
USA

7 posted 2001-10-24 10:43 AM

enjoyed

Abigaile
Member

since 2001-10-21

Posts 112
San Mateo, CA

8 posted 2001-10-24 10:44 AM

Very truly it feels good to hold on to those memories. And it does hurt when another tries to take those feeligns away, but HOLD ON to them, they are what keep us going.
*BIG HUG* I really enjoyed this.

"I am nae poet, in a sense;
But just a rhymer like by chance..."
-Robert Burns

nakdthoughts
Member Laureate

since 2000-10-29

Posts 19200
Between the Lines

9 posted 2001-10-24 06:31 PM

I thank you all for reading words of mine when I least expect them to be...sometimes I think I may be holding onto the wrong things in life.

~Wynter

"The worst prison would be a closed heart".
...Pope John Paul II

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