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desperado
Member

since 1999-05-24

Posts 312
FT Hood,Tx

0 posted 2001-10-10 01:38 AM

I'm tired of reality
tired of feeling exhausted
of being used
being more than I really am
and I'm breaking inside my head
I'm trapped in a place I made
trapped with the memories of us
with the way things used to be
I'm drowsy from the pills I take
drowsy from the truth I've swallowed
from the hopes I once had
the dreams that once were
and if you had the time
if you could build the puzzle of me
you would see the picture whole
would you understand me once more?
so as the bed calls my name
as I slowly fade in shame
I admit you'll haunt my dreams
admit to myself that things are breaking apart

from reality

maybe then my dreams will come true

SmittenKitten
Senior Member

since 2001-06-20

Posts 1131
where the sky and horizon meet

1 posted 2001-10-10 02:47 AM

A vivid portrayal....I especially like the lines:

"if you could build the puzzle of me
you would see the picture whole"

I hope your dreams come true too.

Hugs,
~Krista

Your beautiful words & creativity allow me to connect with the same in myself.
Thank you for having the courage to share yourself so that I can too

Larry C

Member Patricius

since 2001-09-10

Posts 10286
United States

2 posted 2001-10-10 02:47 AM

Desparado,
Intensity is certainly not your weakness. Life does get better though. Good write.

Midnitesun

Member Empyrean

since 2001-05-18

Posts 28647
Gaia

3 posted 2001-10-10 03:22 AM

When I read your poem, two songs came to mind. 'Desperado', of course. But another one I had to sing a few days ago, 'Up on the Roof':
"When I come home feeling tired and blue,
I go up where the air is fresh and clean.....up on the roof"
Is it time to sit a spell, up on the roof?

Your pain shows in your emotional imagery.
"I'm tired of reality
tired of feeling exhausted
of being used
being more than I really am"

Maybe time will soften the pain.
And this is a very good place to rant.

[This message has been edited by Midnitesun (edited 10-10-2001).]

Nan

Administrator

Member Seraphic

since 1999-05-20

Posts 21191
Cape Cod Massachusetts USA

4 posted 2001-10-10 08:21 AM

REST, dear des - It all becomes more clear when you do...

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