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JLR
Senior Member

since 2001-02-04

Posts 1785

0 posted 2001-07-29 02:05 AM

All I Am

I wish I were a person of character
with a noble, selfless cause set before me
but all I am
is in love with a woman
who’s decided not to be in love with me.
So I chose now not to call her
on all the inconsistencies
in her defense, her protest of innocence.
  She is young, much younger than I realized…
but then, all I’d seen before
was love.
She loved me well.
She loved me passionately.
She loved me like she’d never let me go.
She loved me like a child
in love with a dream
that could never live up
to reality.
And for that, maybe I’m to blame.
I was the adult there
I was the one…who should’ve been
prepared when she showed me who she was…
ready when she backed away
but I believed her dream
as surely as she did
and I will never be the same

Logan
Senior Member

since 2001-05-28

Posts 1641
Arkansas

1 posted 2001-07-29 02:10 AM

JLR, nice write of a feeling that goes very deep, and hurts...good luck with it, I know the feeling..gentle smile

azblond
Senior Member

since 1999-07-01

Posts 637
The Steamy Desert

2 posted 2001-07-29 02:10 AM

"She loved me well.
She loved me passionately.
She loved me like she’d never let me go"

A sad piece, but at least with this phrase...you know you were loved.

Let my words fall first upon deaf ears before a closed mind...

JLR
Senior Member

since 2001-02-04

Posts 1785

3 posted 2001-07-29 02:19 PM

Logan, azblond---Thanks for your responses. This was written several months ago, so time has dulled the pain...and yes, I was loved.

Interloper

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-11-06

Posts 8369
Deep in the heart

4 posted 2001-07-30 07:09 PM

Well done. Your pain shows yet you now understand what happened and that is the key.

cpalmer
Senior Member

since 2001-06-26

Posts 977
Phoenix, Az

5 posted 2001-07-30 07:50 PM

Very much from the heart I gather...Although painful, beautifully written...hope all goes well
Cindi

God is our inspiration; Words of the heart can be music to our ears
Cpalmer

Cpat Hair

Member Patricius

since 2001-06-05

Posts 11793

6 posted 2001-07-31 08:17 AM

ah lessons such as this..are meant to be written about... nicely done

ParisGrl
Senior Member

since 2000-06-01

Posts 610

7 posted 2001-07-31 02:26 PM

R.J.

I am so sorry......you convey your feelings very well. It gets easier a little. just believe in yourself.

Take Care,
Laura

walker
Member Elite

since 2001-02-11

Posts 2240
Florida

8 posted 2001-08-02 06:53 PM

JLR- opposites attract, in my case I'm the adult dealing witha teenager

,that's worse than a child

shadow974
Senior Member

since 2001-06-21

Posts 636
Michigan

9 posted 2001-08-02 07:10 PM

Beautifully expressed, Love is joy and pain sometimes at the same time.

Throw your heart out in front of you
And run out to catch it.

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