update to "The Forever Unfolding Untold Story"

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ShortSexyAngelOnEarth
Junior Member

since 2001-12-24

Posts 36
im a louisiana cajun princess! lol

0 posted 2002-06-04 03:19 AM

i dont know how many of y'all read the first poem, as the title implies, this story, never ends, so heres the update, i included the original for anyone who didnt read it when i first posted it.

this is the first poem.

My name is unimportant,
But my story must be told.
It screams from the depths of its inner being,
That it can't be hidden anymore!
With my name unknown,
my story will now unfold.

Today is important,
Mommy told me so.
She says today is my birthday,
today I am five,
a time to celebrate.
Everyone will come she says,
If they love me anyways.
But now the cake is gone,
the ice cream long ago melted.
Its time to open presents,
i look for you again.
Where are you Daddy?
I need you here, right now.
I got a new game today Daddy,
I need you to play with me.
But your not here, you never were.
Don't you love me Daddy?
Where were you on my special day?

A year has now passed,
And I've learned to be silent,
When Mommy and Daddy yell.
Hiding under a blanket helps,
I can pretend I'm in another world.
Did I just hear a door slam?
Where did Daddy go?
Why is Mommy crying,
and going to sleep by a pill?
My young mind does not understand,
I just cant comprehend,
why Daddy would leave,
on such a cold night,
and leave Mommy here all alone.
Dawn returns, and with it Daddy.
So I block out the images,
of Mommy's tears,
and pretend I dont know a thing,
about our little house on a hill.

Time goes on, four years go by,
and lifes continues to stay the same.
Four years with Mommy,
but shes acting funny,
no time for hugs and games.
Daddys rarely home,
I wonder where He goes?
Then one day, he calls for a change.
He says things will be different.
Daddy will more often be home.
We leave the West, and head for the South,
But in this new home,
Frightening things are about.
My overall straps just became handles,
As Daddy throws me on the bed.
I'm sorry I didn't make the Honor Roll Daddy!
I'm sorry I'm not just like you.
You've beat me till I'm black and blue,
I almost wish I were dead.

Five years have passed.
Fifteen years of age,
Living life in the fast-pace,
I have so many dreams and plans.
Putting my past behind me,
I reach out to take fate's hand.
I'm ready to change the world,
I'm going to make the evil of the world run!
But now, Daddy stops me,

"Your much too young,
No major impact will be done.
Stay here and be my little girl,
And to you no harm will come."

No longer a girl, But now a young woman,
I stand before this stranger,
Who calls himself my father.
And my heart lets go,
Of my untold fears.

"Who are you, you stupid coward,
To now dare walk into my life!
You ran from me when I needed you,
You feared my innocent child-like love!
You condemn me on all levels,
Yet have no room to speak.
You try to tell me where to go,
who I may speak with,
even when to go to bed.
You b@st@rd, leave!
You have no Authority here!
you thought you had me,
that I'd always be here!
But now, the joke is on you!
In my child-like state, I was weak,
But now I am strong, be gone!
I've come to far,
to let your lies, pull me back to the grave.
Once you hurt me, now I hope I hurt you.
Once you rejected me, but now I will reject you.
Once You left me, now I will leave you, all alone."

With my name un-known,
My story now told,
But far from over,
no, its just starting to unfold.

this is the next update:

untitled:

Time has passed,
I reflect again,
On everything I said I would do.
It is nothing but a distant memory,
Locked in the innermost part of my heart.
I said I would leave,
I said I would be free,
But no, I am now weak,
And will never be able to let go.
I said I would laugh someday,
I said I would dance,
I said I would leave you one day,
But now with this final blow of pain,
You have took my one fighting chance.
I hope your pleased with what youve done,
Im a mess, a hopeless wreck,
And I will never again know peace.
You have killed my spirit.

Maryn
* I'm A bOoTy ShAkIn * HeArT bReAkn * PrEtTy HoT * NeVa StOp * ShOrT sKiRt * LuV tA fLiRt * AnGeL bAbY * SpOiLeD mAyBe * PeRfEcT PrNcEs JuSt 4

sweetcollege_girl
Senior Member

since 1999-12-03

Posts 872
just about where I want to be

1 posted 2002-06-05 04:01 PM

Wow..powerful story. I'm pretty much speechless as to critiques, but I can say I've been there. Your dad sounds like my mom...especially in the beating part. But I was strong and I overcame all of that. I'm married now, and I have a child and another on the way. Don't let your dad break your spirit. I found that your spirit is all yuo have. Be strong ok?

A great read.

~*~SCG~*~

When life gives you a rainy day...

Play in the puddles!!!

MidnightSon
Member

since 2002-05-15

Posts 312
between the gutter & the stars

2 posted 2002-06-05 10:13 PM

you sound like you're in the same place in life i am...
all i can say, is don't let them win. we all got demons. you have to fight. it's never easy, and now that you're opening this up to others, you're not alone in this.

if you give up, the you inside will die... and you become them.

and i love the idea of this neverending poem... like a rhyming biography. very cool indeed.

"The soul is oftentimes a battlefield where reason and judgement wage war on passion and appetite."

Dopey Dope

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Member Patricius

since 2000-08-30

Posts 11132
San Juan, Puerto Rico

3 posted 2002-06-06 01:02 AM

Wow.....a never ending story....In a way that is very inspiring. In fact.....it is. I am actually evaluating my life right now due to that. Thank yoU!
I enjoyed this...very powerful. I hope to see more from you.

I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust.

Somewhere out there a cow is laughing at you

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