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Aimster
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since 2000-02-19

Posts 4297
Charlotte, NC

0 posted 2001-06-19 07:36 PM

There's a numbness to my feelings
As I sit and ponder tonight
Feeling the tears begin to rise
I push them back--and I begin to fight

Staring at the wall
Listening to the ticking of the clock
Trying to make myself stronger
My feelings I hide and block

But alas the floodgates open
And the tears come pouring out
As I kick myself again
But no one hears my internal shout

They say life is what you make of it
That you must just carry on
But what if your tired of the station
Tired of the same old song

And here comes that familiar feeling
Rising from the bottom of my chest
I'm just so damn tired of it all
My heart and soul need rest

Then I pick up a picture of you
As I let out a small smile
And realise there is good still left
I think about this for a while

But my smile slowly fades
As I think of the pain I've caused you
Though it was quite by mistake
It's something I can't undo

A blackness I haven't felt in a long time
I feel it creeping in
Once more I push it to the back of my mind
Tired of paying for another's sin

Now morning has finally come
As I head out place to place
Burying these feelings that I have
Hide behind the clown face

I make them all laugh
And am happy for a while
But do they see the tears
That hide behind this smile

The answer is no they don't
Some things are just too real
Once again I swallow life
The bitterness of the pill

AMK
June 19,2001

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart & can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."

Poet deVine

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Member Seraphic

since 1999-05-26

Posts 22612
Hurricane Alley

1 posted 2001-06-19 09:42 PM

If there is someone you think you've wronged, tell them you're sorry...how could they NOT forgive you! Peace, Amy.

snowpants
Member Elite

since 2000-09-16

Posts 2061
KS

2 posted 2001-06-19 09:59 PM

'They say life is what you make of it
That you must just carry on
But what if your tired of the station
Tired of the same old song

And here comes that familiar feeling
Rising from the bottom of my chest
I'm just so damn tired of it all
My heart and soul need rest'

Hey girlie...no, unfortunately, we can't take back the things we've said or done, but there is always forgiveness, and I'm sure that isn't out of the question...great write, Aims...

-e ~~~~~

I hopelessly, helplessly, wonder why
Everything gotta change around me
I’d tell it to your face,
But you lost your face along the way...

Logan
Senior Member

since 2001-05-28

Posts 1641
Arkansas

3 posted 2001-06-19 10:10 PM

Sigh, Amy/Aim, gentle smile. All through life, we make mistakes, some little, some big, but honest ones always. We are human, and will continue making these mistakes, hopefully, not the same ones. You are putting words down in honesty, they should be taken as meant, hopefully they will...thoughts with you..gentle smile

Janet Marie
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since 2000-01-22

Posts 18554

4 posted 2001-06-19 11:52 PM

And here comes that familiar feeling
Rising from the bottom of my chest
I'm just so damn tired of it all
My heart and soul need rest
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Amy girl...you write my heart tonite as well...
sometimes we just get tired...I been tired for a long time.
hugs sweets

jm

she said I dont know why you ever would lie to me
like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya
~MB20~

Fancy
Member

since 2001-06-05

Posts 189
TN/USA

5 posted 2001-06-20 06:12 PM

...seems you are reading this moving script straight from the wrinkled, tear-stained pages of my heart...move on from this place, dear one, no matter how hard...a new window is just waiting to be flung open to fill you once again with the warmth from the dawn of a bright new sun-shiny day...

Sven

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since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

6 posted 2001-06-20 07:18 PM

you know that sometimes, you have to not swallow the pill, and ask forgiveness. . . it's the only way. . .

great one here Amy. . . powerfully done. . .

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Marsha

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-10

Posts 7423
Maidstone Kent England

7 posted 2001-06-21 06:58 AM

Darling girl, YOU write such truth love, and with such a deft and light touch. Wonderful writing, and the light is there at the end of the tunnel, that I promise you love.

Take hold of your fears they are the enemy they make your heart foolish, you will prevail.
Love you always darling girl, now lift your eyes to the golden prize, fix your thoughts on that and walk forward to happiness.
Take care
love as always
Mushy

Take back the hope you gave,- I claim
Only a memory of the same
Robert Browning

Michael

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-08-13

Posts 7666
California

8 posted 2001-06-21 07:09 AM

God, what a whirlwind of emotions. No one should ever have to experience such grief.((Hugs)) to you, Amy.

Michael

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