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beccymelling Junior Member
since 2002-08-09
Posts 31Birmingham, England |
“Take a seat” she said Delving into my head “The problems not you, just the way you’ve been bred.” I give a quizzical stare, Because I’m getting nowhere, “Lack of affection and emotional care.” I was trying to stay calm, When I pulled up my sleeve And showed her my arm. “Ahh” she said “The scars are quite new, How did you feel? What did you do?” “Threw a bottle, it smashed on the floor, Picked up a piece, watched my skin as is tore. Not enough blood – I wanted more, Found myself rifling the cutlery drawer.” “So how did you feel before this occurred?” “My insides were numb, my vision was blurred. I couldn’t stop crying but felt emotionally dead My internal mantra played through my head, No one loves you, your depressed and alone, You cant even blame them, you just sit here and moan Your selfish, your pointless, unworthy and bad Never making the most of opportunities you had” “And whilst you were cutting, how did you feel?” “Relief , a release, I began to seem real A pleasurable pain, emotional gain, Sat on my doorstep rinsed by the rain.” “You’re internalising criticisms that you have had To turn on yourself, when you feel bad. You need a distraction, What can you do? To avoid all this pain you put yourself through” “I don’t know! What do you want me to say? Call up a friend? Go out for the day?” I roll down my sleeve, lock myself up inside All I want to do is curl up and hide. |
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devina Member Elite
since 1999-10-28
Posts 3539Cali |
Hope you have not went through this Beccy, but by the vivid detail and feeling, I would say it must have been someone close to you if not...hugs to the topic. You've done outstanding in the short novel/series/type...this could actually go on and on until the patient was healed inside and out... I look forward to something like that!! Open arms can be the most fragile in the world... |
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beccymelling Junior Member
since 2002-08-09
Posts 31Birmingham, England |
Hi Devina Thanks so much for the response  I loved your suggestion about carrying it on...I will have to go and talk to my ..ahem...friend for some more inspiration! lol. Beccy |
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moshpit Member
since 1999-11-25
Posts 143cebu, philippines |
it's hauntingly sad and beautiful at the same time.. |
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Dragon Mistress Member
since 2002-08-26
Posts 289Washington, USA. |
Touched me...really it did. Not about to say why. But it did. Great writing. I enjoyed it very much. -Tanya ~*~I'm only a dreamer, with broken dreams, and only words to fall back on~*~ |
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D edgar Grey Member
since 2002-08-21
Posts 174Hell...(aka Wisconsin) |
This piece just sticks in a person's mind. Incredibly well done; but so realistic that I'm afraid to ask if this is a writing of what you really went through. Hope all is well! |
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bsquirrel
since 2000-01-03
Posts 7855 |
beccy, It sounds real, and that is enough. Mike |
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beccymelling Junior Member
since 2002-08-09
Posts 31Birmingham, England |
Thanks everyone, for reading and responding. It must have touched a nerve eh? lol. beccy |
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