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Godsend_1
Member

since 2001-04-19

Posts 247
great state of illinois

0 posted 2001-06-01 04:28 PM

I was hit with my last revelation
A sight I saw forever but never did see
I saw what was truly in me

I see the great in even me
I am no longer you play thing
For you to beat and kill as you wish

I will no longer cut myself for you amusment
Dance in my own self hatred for the joy of others
Nor will I die at my hand or yours cause you think its funny

I know now that I am me and better then you
I am not a toy I am a man
And I have qualities you will never have

I am good and nice and kind
Compastionate and empathetic and caring
Loving and gentle and always there no matter what

What have you got to say for your self
You get amusment out of life
By torturing people below you

Making ppl not want to live
Do you feel good when I told you
That you made me try to end my life

You want me dead so bad
Well to bad your gonna have to do it your self
I am here to stay forever and ever

Never gonna die until it my time
Not taking my life cause you don’t like me
If you don’t like me to bad, your loss

I just hit the final realization
I see what I should have seen long before
I see me, for what I truly am

I see me not as a loser
Or a fat freak
Or as a guy with no friends

I see me as a guy with many friend
A guy with much to live for
And a guy that will coninue to live for it

The final realization
The last revelation
Of me loving me

i am what i am and that is all that i am and all that i shall ever be.
heh i always thought i was right here

5_sweet_kisses
Junior Member

since 2001-04-20

Posts 49

1 posted 2001-06-01 04:42 PM

Aww Ben, I think this is the best one you have made so far

I am proud of you *huggles* You keep up the good work. You are my bestest friend

Peeker

AngelPoet87
Member

since 2001-04-21

Posts 280
Indy

2 posted 2001-06-01 04:43 PM

omg ben that was so great! i'm so glad you finally see what we've seen all along.

You really are the best hun, take care always!

MoeRocko
Member

since 2001-04-25

Posts 166
West Virginia

3 posted 2001-06-01 04:57 PM

Ben, I am your friend, but this is TOTAL bull if it's about who I think it's about. You have some serious issues to work out. This is wack. She wouldn't/didn't say these things.
"I remembered when I cared"

This Is Not Here

How do I know where to go when I don't know which way I'm facing

AngelPoet87
Member

since 2001-04-21

Posts 280
Indy

4 posted 2001-06-01 05:04 PM

what the hell was ^ all about

DarkAngelOfTheStars
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since 2001-04-21

Posts 255

5 posted 2001-06-01 05:08 PM

the poem what great hun! i liked the beginning the most but i also agree with moe...but hey i really dont know much and i could be totally wrong and way off the subject....but it was an awesome poem!

Dont knock on deaths door ...... ring the bell and run......he hates that

MoeRocko
Member

since 2001-04-25

Posts 166
West Virginia

6 posted 2001-06-01 05:08 PM

It's about people making false accusations, hurting other people, and lying about people he claims to have "loved". I know the truth

This Is Not Here

How do I know where to go when I don't know which way I'm facing

Godsend_1
Member

since 2001-04-19

Posts 247
great state of illinois

7 posted 2001-06-01 05:14 PM

ok i soooo have no clue what you guys are talking about now the poem is about how i have had an awful time at school and havent had any friends here cuz ppl tell me that i am worthless and no good and they made me not like life and act out in bad ways and the poems says i am not gonna let them abuse me anymore i finally realized that i am pretty cool just as i am and i dont need a bunch of ppl i wont see again and who never liekd me anyway to tell me that i am nothing when i finally see i am somethign and a pretty cool something at that soo umm ewok stop smoking the weed man
ben redshaw the great out!

i am what i am and that is all that i am and all that i shall ever be.
heh i always thought i was right here

5_sweet_kisses
Junior Member

since 2001-04-20

Posts 49

8 posted 2001-06-01 05:15 PM

Ben that poem was great. And if that is Ewok *points* he wasn't even talking to anything remotely like that, and you need to shut up because you dont know skwat about it. You need to keep your 2 sense out of it. No one gets in your business so stay out of Bens. But Ben that was a great poem hun.

[This message has been edited by 5_sweet_kisses (edited 06-01-2001).]

AngelPoet87
Member

since 2001-04-21

Posts 280
Indy

9 posted 2001-06-01 05:18 PM

Dude SHUT YOUR MOUTH it wasn't about all that get that through your skull

[This message has been edited by AngelPoet87 (edited 06-01-2001).]

DarkAngelOfTheStars
Member

since 2001-04-21

Posts 255

10 posted 2001-06-01 05:23 PM

..see i told you i could be totally wrong...sowwie

but i wasnt trying to be mean the poem was awesome

Dont knock on deaths door ...... ring the bell and run......he hates that

MoeRocko
Member

since 2001-04-25

Posts 166
West Virginia

11 posted 2001-06-01 05:25 PM

Lights up another (edited) and watched the (edited)signature-->

This Is Not Here

How do I know where to go when I don't know which way I'm facing

[This message has been edited by Dopey_Dope (edited 06-02-2001).]

5_sweet_kisses
Junior Member

since 2001-04-20

Posts 49

12 posted 2001-06-01 05:26 PM

LOL not you dude *points* We are talking about a Ewok. HI ALI!! im bens other friend, Im peeker!! well just wanted to meet you and stuffish *waves* anyway.. GREAT POEM BEN!!

AngelPoet87
Member

since 2001-04-21

Posts 280
Indy

13 posted 2001-06-01 05:31 PM

Ewok I swear to god you need to keep your pimpwannabe lil mouth shut befo you start some trouble and make me loose my temper up in here.

hi peekers!!

punkrockerrobin

Senior Member

since 2001-05-15

Posts 1180
Sparks, NV

14 posted 2001-06-01 05:52 PM

okmr whoever you are i know the truth and it ain't what you think the poem is about so you need to keep your mouth shut before you speak again! ben hun that was an awesome poem! moe next time you wanna say somethin do us all a favor and shut your trap!
robin

I AM WHAT I AM SO DEAL!

knightlyshadows
Senior Member

since 2001-04-14

Posts 791
obscured vision

15 posted 2001-06-01 05:57 PM

ok i wasnt going to get in to this at all. but ewok felt he was defending me because im his frined. well maybe i didnt need the defending after all but that doesnt matter. this has gone to far! just stop please. this isnt helping anything. nor is it going too. all this is doing is hurting ppl. so please just stop. leave each other alone. some of you dont even know ewok. and he doesnt know you and your pming him and cussin him out? thats just not right. and i dont appreciate is. maybe it wasnt about me. i dont know. it doesnt matter anymore. just stop! please....?

“A single choice can build destinies,or destroy them.”

Where are you when i need you....?

MoeRocko
Member

since 2001-04-25

Posts 166
West Virginia

16 posted 2001-06-01 06:08 PM

*points* "Look guys, Imma Pimp now!"

Haha anywayz this is non-sense, I'm staying out of this.... Thanx Tiff

This Is Not Here

How do I know where to go when I don't know which way I'm facing

Godsend_1
Member

since 2001-04-19

Posts 247
great state of illinois

17 posted 2001-06-01 06:45 PM

yea sorry guys idk got carried away with ppl miss reading stuff its cool i am sorry for being an ass and i hooe you will accept my apolagy ewok
ben redshaw the great out!!

i am what i am and that is all that i am and all that i shall ever be.
heh i always thought i was right here

punkrockerrobin

Senior Member

since 2001-05-15

Posts 1180
Sparks, NV

18 posted 2001-06-01 09:28 PM

umm ok did i miss something here you are letting this guy get away with this umm ok! shows who tiff likes! well whatever!
robin

I AM WHAT I AM SO DEAL!

Dopey Dope

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Member Patricius

since 2000-08-30

Posts 11132
San Juan, Puerto Rico

19 posted 2001-06-02 03:35 AM

Ben well done on the poem.

Moe, although your comments were said on the basis of protecting a fellow member they were COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE!

For future occurences you will have to solve your differences within icq, aim, msn, or any other program. This will not be tolerated any further.
No more argueing....it is over as of right NOW, alright guys?
If any further quarrelation appears I will be forced to pull this poem for further discussion behind the scenes.

So please, no more petty arguements or attacks. Be happy!

Once again, I enjoyed the poem and look forward to more ben.

I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust.

I'm in love with my shadow
I admire it daily

[This message has been edited by Dopey_Dope (edited 06-02-2001).]

MoeRocko
Member

since 2001-04-25

Posts 166
West Virginia

20 posted 2001-06-02 04:34 PM

It's my fault eh?

punkrockerrobin

Senior Member

since 2001-05-15

Posts 1180
Sparks, NV

21 posted 2001-06-03 12:20 PM

ben you should put you pic on here!
robin

I AM WHAT I AM SO DEAL!

mistic
Member

since 2001-05-06

Posts 233
Idaho, U.S.A.

22 posted 2001-06-03 01:38 PM

I think this is a really awesome piece. I really liked it.

Keep writing

Acies

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Member Rara Avis

since 2000-06-07

Posts 7665
Twilight Zone

23 posted 2001-06-04 12:34 PM

Beautiful poem Godsend_1
very emotional and expressive
I'm glad you feel that way about yourself now
be strong always
keep it up
keep sharing

I'm so sorry for doubting you Kit ... please forgive me!!!!

Acies

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Member Rara Avis

since 2000-06-07

Posts 7665
Twilight Zone

24 posted 2001-06-04 09:21 AM

On second note...., Moe such a sarcastic remark is also unacceptable here in the forums and in Passions in general. You're gonna need to show a little tact in the future. Dopey is not putting the blame on you, and you should see that. It's just that you started with such a rude and tactless reply which was blown into an arguement between you and your supposed friends. All Dopey is saying is that when you have arguements like this, take it out of passions....PERIOD....no exceptions. Hope you do understand that.

I'm so sorry for doubting you Kit ... please forgive me!!!!

never_a_princess
Member

since 2001-06-09

Posts 82
Show Me the Money

25 posted 2001-06-12 09:34 PM

*ignores the "fight?" up there (*points*) like she was told to* and aww, mr. bennerz! I love this one..when you were transformed from the old bennerz to the new bennerz...i think this poem should be the "ben redhaw the great is back" poem cuz now you're back, *hugz* i luv ya hun..*likes the happy bennerz*..and good poem! i love the form.
~Anna *waves*

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