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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines 
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Concerned Just once more a disappoint a never thought would be to have him steal, was like a knife that cut the heart of me. Each time I think it can't get worse and give in just because a thirty year together life, he gives me room to pause. I thought the other day I heard the rustling sound of green, and saw a hand that tried to stuff a pocket tight in seam. But played in mind, denied I did for fair I try to be. But when I counted what I had there seemed much less to me. Tonight I had him helping me as some days he will do. But when he sent me down the stairs I held back step or two. And when I heard him walk back in to where my money's kept, he couldn't find it 'cause last night I moved it, all except My purse which I forgot was there, lying on the floor. His head was bent as he reached down to try for just ten more. Or so he says, was all he needs, was short a ten for gas. But why not ask, instead of take my tears began at last. I asked was this all worth it, the hurt he put me through and now to even steal from me, the sadness of this view. What makes one turn his conscience off? What makes one do these things? Why can't they see the wrong in this, the hurt that all this brings. I try to hope he's not too lost to turn around his life. And wonder how this all will end, a concerned, almost ex-wife. ~Wynter...~sighing "The worst prison would be a closed heart". ...Pope John Paul II |
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2dalimit Member Elite
since 2000-02-08
Posts 2228Mississippi coast |
We all know people like that. I'm sad for you. Melton |
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Poet deVine
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
How this must hurt you..I am so sorry you have to go through this...he must be desperate indeed to steal from you. All you can do is protect yourself. Well done poem though.... |
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Voiceless Senior Member
since 2001-02-19
Posts 686Under the stars upon the wind |
The hurt and sadness shown in this poem is overwhelming.. The truely sad part is though that it is realistic... ~*Peachy Be*~ |
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Celeste Senior Member
since 2000-11-11
Posts 597 |
*******hugs******* Your emotions through this are so clear. But my heart hurts for you. To hold tomorrow we must first be willing to let go of yesterday. |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
wynter- powerful poem! you titled this very well. if this is true and about you (which im assuming it is) then it sounds to me like your almost ex-husband has a real illness. stealing like he is doing is a sure sign that he needs help. i can't believe im giving advice here LOL but the best thing i think you can do is remove yourself from this situation--the faster the better. take care and i hope all works out for you. amy  "A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart & can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words." |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
Melton pretty sad if we all know people like that...and I am more sad for him than myself. Sharon thank you..I tried to think it was a mistake til I caught him...funny thing is I feel so guilty for doing that Voiceless it's truth but always with an excuse...  dreamkeeper sad thing is it's money he gives me to pay the bills with amy I don't know if it's an illness along withthe drinking, or that it is that he thinks so little of me that it doesn't matter what he does to hurt me anymore. thank you all..I just needed to vent and you never know if someone else has had this happen to them. Maureen/Wynter "The worst prison would be a closed heart". ...Pope John Paul II [This message has been edited by nakdthoughts (edited 03-09-2001).] |
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snowpants Member Elite
since 2000-09-16
Posts 2061KS |
Very well-written poem, wynter, but I am sorry you had to go through this... sp do I believe we'd be better off apart? can I see my world without you in it? baby, not for a single minute... |
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Cerenity Member Elite
since 2000-02-16
Posts 2637Escondido-California |
Hi Wynter, I feel your pain, I've been through this with my ex and I did not like how he forced me to act, and to think you might have some kind of handle on things and then they throw something else in the pot, well I would just become really knomb/dumbfounded, my heart goes out to you friend, and for the poem you did a awesome job of writing about a very hard issue, Love, Cerenity "God doesn't have to be reminded that we exist. We have to be reminded that He exist!" (Writer Unknown) |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
thank you snowpants, I appreciate the response *s Cerenity, I use to not want to write about him except when I was just missing his love and attention. But to tell you the truth for me this is a record of when he does these things..they are dated and in print and he can't deny them as all my poems are my daily diary, some I post and some I just place in folders. Otherwise I, myself would be confused by the mood swings he puts me in. Thank you again, my friends all divorced years ago in the 70's after short marriages, we were one of the last of 20 or more couples, so the experience is new to me and advice doesn't seem to work in my situation. I just have to go with the flow trying to endure until it comes to it's end. And I am trying not to be angry anymore, as it affects my health...but I am just so disappointed sometimes. Maureen "The worst prison would be a closed heart". ...Pope John Paul II |
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