In Remembrance of Friendship with Benefits Other Occasional Surprises

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Temptress

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Member Rara Avis

since 1999-06-15

Posts 7136
Mobile, AL

0 posted 2001-03-09 01:32 PM

What was it about us that always seem to fit?
Absent moments of rambling silly phone calls,
While things never went unsaid or unpracticed.
In times when we were needing to reach out,
And hold someone just because life had gotten in our way,
There we were in your car
Beside the soccer complex and looking into each other's hearts.
It never took more than a far off look from me,
To make you touch my face and softly kiss my forehead.
Funny how it was alays in the car,
And I suppose that should make me feel cheaper,
But it doesn't
It didn't then either.
It just felt right
That we should be together yet not be together.
When I didn't have company enough to share the town fair with,
There you were holding my hand and screaming,
Right along beside me, and later we would kiss,
Or you'd wrap your arms around my waist while we waited in line.
Tenderly, you made me feel beautiful.
In your own loving way you made me feel accepted,
No matter my position on us.
I may remember silent instances where we said "I Love You."
But I think it was only to ease whatever far off ache we were both witnessing.
We loved but did not love,
Touched but it was like the rope of our connection,
Had already been frazzled and slightly severed.
Damaged not by any harshness of life and us,
But damaged nonetheless.
We
Like a spark that never ignites.
We
Like the bulb that flickered but died too quickly.
We
Like paths that never cross but come very close together.
Just enough to glimpse each other,
And catch each other's arms as we pass by.
I remember nights beside the soccer complex,
Where we listened to our favorite music,
Just to become inspired.
Where we kissed, and roamed while entwined with one another
Where we danced our slow dances outside your car,
Making show only for each other and the watchful eyes of the night.
I remember that little town where we went for drives.
I remember us.
A spark that never ignited.
A flame doused by the need to feel no strings.
I remember us.
The pair that through all of life's indignities,
Engagements,
Breakups,
Friendly once again meetings,
Marriages,
And now questions,
Search again together like once we did.
Trying to figure out why we don't love each other
Trying to know why, since we don't love each other,
We continue on together whether seperate or apart.
I remember us.
A meeting of minds, troubles, hearts, secrets and inner faults,
Finding comfort in someone who wouldn't judge.
Finding solace in someone who wouldn't ask for love.
Now and forever you'll be my friend again.
Patiently dancing around the subtleties,
Loving to understand me yet never have me.
Or will you?

"This above all-ask yourself in the stillest hour of your night:MUST I write? Delve into yourself for a deep answer.

Rainer Maria Rilke
from "Le

PoeticKnight
Senior Member

since 2000-01-20

Posts 1144
New Orleans, LA

1 posted 2001-03-09 01:58 PM

Oh wow...what a cool, sad, but i can relate to, story here. Very nice and emotional.

Irish Rose
Member Patricius

since 2000-04-06

Posts 10263

2 posted 2001-03-09 02:41 PM

Ok, you got to me with this one, by the way, Jenn, I have a new icq number on my post...

this is beautiful!

Kathleen Blake

"When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass,
and the sun drips honey."
Laurie Lee

Red-uni
Member

since 2000-07-30

Posts 192
Georgia, USA

3 posted 2001-03-09 07:08 PM

Neat!!! Very beautifully written. I always did like your writing.
Red

Masked Intruder

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Senior Member

since 1999-05-23

Posts 1231
Near golden sunsets

4 posted 2001-03-10 02:06 AM

So, I felt this, but I didn't. I imagine its sort of being able to empathize but not sympathize; I dunno. "Friendships with Benefits" is definitely going to be one of the more memorable writings that you've done because it touched on a wide array of emotions that I can certainly feel even though I have not experienced them...yet? Lovely work you've done here, Dreamerlady.
I just noticed I said array. I hate arrays. I hate programming. I hate computers.

That said, I'm off.

Sven

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since 1999-11-23

Posts 14937
East Lansing, MI USA

5 posted 2001-03-10 11:58 AM

Wow. . . such a range of emotion and feeling here. . . from one to another. . . all woven together. . . it is like a dream. . .

Wonderful. . .

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