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Farewell My Friend
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Farewell My Friend |
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startin_fresh Member
since 1999-08-13
Posts 137US |
Tonight I pulled to the curb in the fog Walking on the bridge the cool mist stung As though God knew I wouldn't show tears So he placed them there for me instead I walked over to the railing After 4 years it's over for good Once adoring friends and lovers Many hopes and dreams to fulfill My hands shaking I grabbed hold And leaned out looking at the water So quiet the current on this murky night So still in spite of the breeze that held me Grasp tight in the palm of my hand A single photo of you and the cross That you gave me for protection I could barely choke back the tears I stood by you during sickness and health Through all the cruelness of the world Then in one stinging blow you wiped out Four years of friendship and devotion You tell me that people wouldn't understand The type friends that we'd become Cyber friends with a small touch of reality As reality's dagger plunged into me. I clung to the railing trying to decide Whether to let go of you and Release all the pain within me And let the current take it to the sea. I no longer could contain the sobs As i climbed the rail and leaned out I took your picture and wrapped it In the cross you had given me I hurled it into the wind watching As it floated to the river's tide I felt so lost and empty now As I watched the last part of us die. It's not so much the loss of Romance That has burned me like hell's flames But the singular loss of the promise The promise made that we would always be friends. I climbed in grabbing the wheel I felt the moistness on my face Realizing it wasn't just the mist But a tide of sorrowful tears. Was this what i wanted I was asked I replied no but it is time I said She's found someone and I am reminder Of the baggage of a former life. I can't cling to what isn't there No more hope no more cares No wishing and wondering when I would hold you in my arms. Tonight I bid you farewell And a happy life with your new love. Tonight I released the spirit that held You so deep within me. Goodbye, I love you I said As I watched the picture sink God be with you my friend Because I no longer can. Turning away the headlights Blind me as the car approaches "Hey are you ok? You alright?" I simply replied with a nod. I left as quietly as I had come No one would ever know I came to the river with you And then left all alone. "You can't reason with your heart; it has it's own laws and thumps about things which the intellect scorns." ~ Mark Twain [This message has been edited by startin_fresh (edited 02-24-2001).] |
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dgvarner Member Elite
since 2000-05-13
Posts 3552High Springs, Florida |
WOW... the pain is so very raw...  excellently written my friend...but it hurts to read it... best wishes to you.. hugs, g "there is no BEST in a world of INDIVIDUALS..." "FORGIVENESS is giving up my right to hurt you for hurting me..." -unknown [This message has been edited by dgvarner (edited 02-24-2001).] |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
But the singular loss of the promise The promise made that we would always be friends. isn't this one of the saddest parts..that we at least can't remain friends even though promised? You wrote this so well. I was there with you on that bridge, gripping the rail beside you with one hand and the other on your shoulder making sure you didn't fall in too... ~Wynter "The worst prison would be a closed heart". ...Pope John Paul II |
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startin_fresh Member
since 1999-08-13
Posts 137US |
Thank you for your thoughts. You are a wonderful group. you are non-judgemental, accepting, and caring for those who have a kindred spirit. I am grateful for this forum. I don't get to come here and participate as I would love to do. I am thankful that this forum exists. Shawn "You can't reason with your heart; it has it's own laws and thumps about things which the intellect scorns." ~ Mark Twain |
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Julie Jordan Scott Member
since 1999-09-19
Posts 146Bakersfield, CA USA |
Excellent portrayal of deep feelings, my friend, and a step towards wholeness. Hugs, JULIE |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
Shawn~ i've never had the pleasure of reading your work before...but i am glad for the chance today. this just broke my heart as i read it, and the tears flowed freely from my eyes. i can in some ways relate to the pain that you have penned here. you have an amazing talent poet friend of mine--never stop. writing allows us to heal and gives us comfort through our darkest days. god bless you and take care amy  "A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart & can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words." |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Sometimes life is letting go...with acceptance comes strength and new opportunities...James |
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Irish Rose Member Patricius
since 2000-04-06
Posts 10263 |
Tonight I pulled to the curb in the fog Walking on the bridge the cool mist stung As though God knew I wouldn't show tears So he placed them there for me instead I walked over to the railing After 4 years it's over for good Once adoring friends and lovers Many hopes and dreams to fulfill My hands shaking I grabbed hold And leaned out looking at the water So quiet the current on this murky night So still in spite of the breeze that held me Grasp tight in the palm of my hand A single photo of you and the cross That you gave me for protection I could barely choke back the tears I stood by you during sickness and health Through all the cruelness of the world Then in one stinging blow you wiped out Four years of friendship and devotion You tell me that people wouldn't understand The type friends that we'd become Cyber friends with a small touch of reality As reality's dagger plunged into me. I clung to the railing trying to decide Whether to let go of you and Release all the pain within me And let the current take it to the sea. I no longer could contain the sobs As i climbed the rail and leaned out I took your picture and wrapped it In the cross you had given me I hurled it into the wind watching As it floated to the river's tide I felt so lost and empty now As I watched the last part of us die. It's not so much the loss of Romance That has burned me like hell's flames But the singular loss of the promise The promise made that we would always be friends. I climbed in grabbing the wheel I felt the moistness on my face Realizing it wasn't just the mist But a tide of sorrowful tears. Was this what i wanted I was asked I replied no but it is time I said She's found someone and I am reminder Of the baggage of a former life. I can't cling to what isn't there No more hope no more cares No wishing and wondering when I would hold you in my arms. Tonight I bid you farewell And a happy life with your new love. Tonight I released the spirit that held You so deep within me. Goodbye, I love you I said As I watched the picture sink God be with you my friend Because I no longer can. Turning away the headlights Blind me as the car approaches "Hey are you ok? You alright?" I simply replied with a nod. I left as quietly as I had come No one would ever know I came to the river with you And then left all alone." You left with peace, though didn't you? These words made me literally shake and cry. I'm crying right now. I've lived every one, to a degree, not the exact things you portrayed but I know the sting of dismissal. Sometimes it comes without even the decency of a true dismissal but you know it in your heart. Blessings to you and may you never be treated like this again. No friend would do this. God bless. "When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass, and the sun drips honey." Laurie Lee |
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Voiceless Senior Member
since 2001-02-19
Posts 686Under the stars upon the wind |
So sad.. The ending to a love is so sad.. As they found someone new I do not doubt so will you.. Emotional poem.. ~*Peachy Be*~ |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
The thing is, the love you felt for your friend, the memories are not ever lost...and remain a part of who you are forever. Very emotionally powerful writing...well done! |
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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
Shawn, Powerful writing filled with raw emotion and images of letting go of the past in order to move on. Not an easy thing to do, I know. It is sad that the friendship that was there first is always the price we pay. Just doesn't seem fair to me. I know you have the strength to carry on or you could not have left alone that night. Well written. Lone Wolf Poetry should surprise by fine excess...it should strike the reader as a wording of his own highest thoughts and appear almost a remembrance. -J.Keats |
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startin_fresh Member
since 1999-08-13
Posts 137US |
Thank you all. "You can't reason with your heart; it has it's own laws and thumps about things which the intellect scorns." ~ Mark Twain |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
I lived this! it was so vivid and real. write on Kethry. Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen. |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
It's not so much the loss of Romance That has burned me like hell's flames But the singular loss of the promise The promise made that we would always be friends. This absolutely breaks my heart... and you've written the anguish of broken promises so well. |
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2dalimit Member Elite
since 2000-02-08
Posts 2228Mississippi coast |
I'm catchin_up, "startin-fresh". I enjoyed your story. You seemed to have handled it well, without violence, to start a fresh life. Melton |
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rottyguy New Member
since 2001-03-04
Posts 6 |
wow! well done here. "I left as quietly as I had come No one would ever know I came to the river with you And then left all alone." was particularly poignant. But could youth last and love still breed, Had joys no date nor age no need, Then these delights my mind might move To live with thee and be thy lo |
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