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It's 3 A.M...and I Should Be Sleeping..
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It's 3 A.M...and I Should Be Sleeping.. |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines 
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Tea and Sympathy Just when I finally stopped the missing returning, he, in a sorrowful way. I don't think to make amends, just needing another place to stay. We talked, I gave in, thirty years is so long. So much time, so memories few, thinking about the "what if's" again then there he started the blaming, mine, too. It doesn't matter right now, anymore what's done is done, can't be taken back but I won't be a part of this "rag" on me night, telling me that it is loving I lack... "Where have you been the last year and a half?" Where have YOU been, the three that have past? "You never cared, your tears are not real?" says he, as my eyes began filling, tears last. Why come back to torture me so, once was enough, an ongoing of hurt. What rhyme or reason, what fool must I be, with never a second chance would I flirt. Just tea and sympathy, that was my aim to ward off the worst, expecting it then. I've printed the pages of poems for him. Always, I have to prove my love again. Poems of sadness of hurt and dismay of his drinking and leaving, me lonesome, each night. Hours and hours of nothingness shared, for him to blame me of words written, each byte. Am I a fool, to take it again? Is this the game that is second to none? Tomorrow he'll read the pages of love that once had a meaning, but now not a one.... I've heard of a poll by the experts who say the computer is #1 cause of divorce. But the reason for finding a friend, in screen blue was the loss of attention, and worse things, of course. Always, I waited, was here every day, not running 'round, looking for love. A need, an outlet I found in these words releasing the grief and the pain, hurtful of. So blame me, your will, I'll take it for now. It's tea and sympathy You've lost, anyhow....... ~Wynter sighs.... [This message has been edited by nakdthoughts (edited 02-17-2001).] |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
But the reason for finding a friend, in screen blue was the loss of attention, and worse things, of course. Always, I waited, was here every day, not running 'round, looking for love. A need, an outlet I found in these words releasing the grief and the pain, hurtful of. So blame me, your will, I'll take it for now. It's tea and sympathy You've lost, anyhow....... ================== this will strike many a chord of relate and reality... beautiful outpouring of heart ... I've always said ... sleep is such a waste of good poetry time ... *S* take care jm As sure as God made wine you can't wrap your arms around a memory In the dark for me youre the candle flame that flickers to life ~Mission UK~ |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
What JM said, in spades.... I've found that the little screen in front of us is a good recipient for the blame of something that was already lost.... I heard your sighs.... I only sleep to recharge....doesn't take much! |
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JLR Senior Member
since 2001-02-04
Posts 1785 |
Amen Sunshine! I know this is silly but what I thought when I read this was that I wish I'd been on when you first posted it. 3AM can be so lonely. You've been very supportive of my poetry on here and I just want you to know that I appreciate all your encouraging words. My S.O. also blames the computer for everything. Sad to be jealous of a piece of electronics. I really hope the next time he knocks on your door instead of opening it...you turn on some music and dance to the rhythym of the knocking. He'll find someplace to stay, that's why God made hotels isn't it? Ha! |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
What will be will be...James |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
Janet Marie, you are correct about sleep..but I was just returning to a decent pattern of it...after 2 years of waiting every night for him to "barely" come home...and now I worry in my dreams... Sunshine, he can blame all he wants, I tell him I was here everyday and every night, I wasn't hitting the bars...I feel my time was no different then someone watching tv but I found it more challenging, and brain stimulating as tv puts me to sleep....and smokey bars and alcohol would do the same..*s JLR..hey that hotel is what got him into trouble the very first night (with her) anyway thank you J, I appreciate all your visits..I am beginning to feel I know you  James..that's what I tell others..no matter how hard I try, the forces here take precedence and it always ends up differently then I want...or expect...at least for the moment thank you all for understanding and taking the time to respond huggzzzzz ~Wynter "The worst prison would be a closed heart". ...Pope John Paul II |
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