Open Poetry #11 |
I was asked if I wrote "heartache" poems... |
jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
I was asked if I wrote "heartache" poems. I do, but not in a while...kind of been stuck on seeing how many times I can write on the "romantic" side of the heart without sounding too trite from piece to piece...(if I do please tell me and I'll stop). Anyway, since I don't have anything rushing to the keyboard on the "heartache" side at the moment, I submit these older ones as a few of my favorites in that genre. Rain. God-forsaken, bleak, bleary, rain, befogging the air as thoughts of you befog my mind. Harder it comes, wind-driven, thick, viscous drops, splattering against my face, stinging me with their insolent, uncaring, selfish manner, much as you, in your self-contained, self-preserving, self-centered world, denies all but that which is an achievement for self; denies me, after my being fulfilled your need; denies that which I gave freely, driving it pain-riddled into the depths of my soul. ------------------- I prayed last night, but the tears wouldn't come. Just the anguish, the dying, and still…I couldn't cry. I felt so hurt, so far away, so alone, so bad. I felt, oh God, let me cry. But the tears wouldn't come. I wanted to pack my bags, load up my car, and run, and run some more, till I came to the end, to a wall that wouldn't fall, to a place that wouldn't leave, to a something that would always be. I wanted to live. I wanted to cry. Oh God, I wanted to cry, yet my eyes stayed dry. If ever I was given a task, something to believe, something to hold, something to have… oh my, oh my, God, why? ----------------- Thoughts of you came to mind as I walked down the street last night, going nowhere, doing nothing, wanting only to have you close. I couldn't help but think of the fun we'd had, the quiet moments, the private jokes… and I smiled with the memory. For uncountable days, time has practically stood still, because I don't hear from you, I don't see you, I hardly know you anymore. And to think… my life took on new meaning because of you. And now, now I have to learn to live without you. -------------- ...and if you've managed to stick with it this far, just one more... Touch Me, Just Touch Me You know it's gone, don't you? You know you could have gone all my life without saying that. Of all things that could have passed your lips, you chose to say what I least wanted to hear. I thought with you it would be different. You'd understand. That you, of all people, would know such an explanation was superfluous. I thought you understood. I thought you knew. And yet, I can blame only myself for not saying, in so many words, the things that were unnecessary. But if I had done that, it would be the same as now. In the way I needed you most, in the only way you could have, you failed me. Or I failed me. Or something. I'm sorry, and I'm tired, so very, very, tired. Forgive me my shortcomings, and try to remember me with half the warmth by which I remember you. Please touch me… Just touch me… Oh God, I'm gone again. (c) w. james beard, jr. [This message has been edited by jwesley (edited 01-05-2001).] |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
JWesley~ Man ! When you 'ache' you do it in volumes ! These are all full of pain - but my personal favorite is - Something To Believe Now that hurts. *Hugs* for the writes and, as always, looking forward to more from you. ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ [email protected] |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Thanks Marge...yeah, that's my favorite too. jwesley |
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Poet deVine
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
Wow! Did you write these all together? My fave is the 'Touch Me' poem....excellent read! |
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Charisma
since 2000-09-30
Posts 5906lost in blue pages |
oh my james...heartaches are felt here...wonderful done my friend...excellent penned.....love them all ((warm hugs)) Charisma |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
Wow...put those and a little country music together and it'd make for a most depressing night Seriously, your pain in these piece was quite evident and at times almost overwhelming. My personl favorite was "Thoughts Of You" It's so hard to learn to live without someone sometimes and those thoughts of things said and did can often haunt both our dreams and our waking hours. Here's a hug, just because after reading those if you don't need one, I sure do |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Jimmy, "ouch!" these bite with a heartfelt passion. I could particularly relate to Touch Me. *HuGS* write on Kethry Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen. |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
yes you do (write heartache) and you ache with the best of them ... much sincere emotion expressed with depth JW All of them spoke to me for different reasons but I think Believe and Touch did so the most. well written showcase of your work. take care poet sir jm Am I loved by my words Will my vows weather the tide Bended knees can forsee all the rhythms of life And a heart can be held without pride ~Vante |
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brian madden Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 4374ireland |
POwerful writing here james, these words come from deep with as do your romantic poems, once the poems have feeling and passion they will not be trite, and there is no fear of your writing lacking emotion. There's a feeling of contentment Now that you are here I feel satisfied I belong inside Your velvet heaven" Depeche mode |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Poet deVine:Well, they were written in same basic time frame when a particularly close friend of mine (girl) was going through a difficult time with her soon to be ex. We'd talk for hours and these developed from her emotions. Mine, too, I guess, since I definitely felt her pain. j. Charisma: Thanks - and I'll take hugs anyway I can get them. I'm greedy that way. j. Hoot: Could probably do some serious beer drinking to county music and these... Kethry: Thank you, me friend, and thanks for the hug...wow, gonna have to write some more in this venue if I keep getting all these hugs! And thank you JM...I always value your comments. Brian...I really appreciate the vote of confidence. Like all on Passions...I try. |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
James, never stop; second write on! never will you know the extent of my appreciation for your writings, just know that I do |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
oh...what a tresure...sad stuff but so beautiful |
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