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Lashing Out |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
" I hate you, I wish you were dead!" I know, my daughter, but I still love you. " I hate you 'cuz your mean to my Dad!" I know, my daughter, but I still love you. She, only nine, can tear a heart apart The words, the looks, the slamming of doors No more smiles that could melt my heart Or hugs and kisses that used to end the war. Not old enough to understand the adults Not knowing everything won't always be the same Only wanting to hurt and lash out And the words from her heart came. Mommy's are supposed to make everything all right But you are not giving in as you did I'm really little and trying with all my might To understand, but I am only a kid! "I hate you and wish you were gone!" I know, my daughter, but I still love you Even I have, when young, sang that song And heard, I know my daughter and I still love you! It has to get better before it can get worse. |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Well and truly said. It's something they have to, and will learn about...then wish they were nine again, not knowing the truth; or fifteen, twenty-six, fifty-seven and wishing we didn't know the truth. jwesley |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
jwesley: At only 9, think of the "lessons" she still has to learn. Thanks for reading. |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
My Mom* I'm glad I read this prior to putting my make up on this morning...or it would have all run down my face...Being so far away you seem to be looking right into the living room and heart of my little angel. Everything is so hard on her right now...carrying the weight of the world on those little shoulders...you know they are the only ones that matter in this and it's killing me to not be able to take away the pain this time....This is an amazing poem my mom....you are a weaver and say it better than I can here...I love you and so does she...Thank you my mom....from the bottom of my heart~ |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Things said in anger seem so devestating but it happens with all of us. I have to leave you with Butterflies comments I thought they were so well done! I appreciate the facts of this poem and I know things have a way of working out as time passes....take care... ethome |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
My Butterfly, I, too, wish I could take this adult time from our little-big one. Life isn't fair,but there it is! Love you and now you see why I don't wear make-up.  ethome: Thank you for reading. I am sure we can all fill in the blanks at one time or another. |
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Agust P Member
since 2000-12-29
Posts 157 |
what a poem, very good and butterflys comment, "My Mom* I'm glad I read this prior to putting my make up on this morning...or it would have all run down my face..." what a comment, I love it, thanks to both of you! |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
Agust P: Thank you for reading. And now you know Butterflies do cry! A tough time, but we will make it. Hugs, ME |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
If only we could insulate the little ones from pain, we'd gladly take on more of the hurt. *S* Wishing better times for you all... |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
suthern: you are so right. Thanks for the kind thoughts. Hugs, ME |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
I remember being 12 and feeling the same way ... change is a very hard thing for a child to accept ... but once they feel secure in the new spaces things do turn around better days are ahead ... patience is the key easier said than done ... I know. Touching poem ME ... I know where your heart and thoughts are ... your sincere poetry reflects your love, concern and support. take care jm Am I loved by my words Will my vows weather the tide Bended knees can forsee all the rhythms of life And a heart can be held without pride ~Vante |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
All we Moms can think about is taking away the pain that leads them to lash out. It will all work out, though. Very well expressed, ME! Denise |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
Thank you, Janet Marie. I am sure things will work out for the little one. In the mean time, she is a prickly pear. Hope you are feeling better and love and hugs, Mother |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
dsnyder: with the birth certificate, mom's should get a notice that we can't make all things all right for our kids. I wonder if that would make a difference. Probably not. Thanksand hugs for you, ME |
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Butterflies_dont_cry Member Elite
since 2000-03-06
Posts 3733Michigan |
My mom* I needed to add this to my library...you had me crying to hard to remember last time  ....I love you!!! |
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Charisma
since 2000-09-30
Posts 5906lost in blue pages |
yes I know how children can be...they are always in our heart, and we try to give them our best, mostly they appreciate it....sometimes they pay back with hurt...oh yeah I know all about it. excellent write (((hugs))) Charisma |
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tracie66 Member Elite
since 2000-01-18
Posts 4713Australia |
ME~ Hope it gets easier, those are hard times for all concerned especially the little one's ~HUGS~ Tracie~ Love is the life of the soul... It is the harmony of the universe |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
and I thought the well had run dry of tears...someday she will understand...HUGS and prayers of strength to you and yours. |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
Butterfly, my kid! Sorry, I just wanted you to know I'v heard these words and understand. And it will get better. She will forget and you have to try. Love and hugs Charisma: I guess if we gave up because of the little ones words, that would make the hurt worse. Thanks & it will get better! tracie: Thanks for the hugs and reading serenity: Oh, how I wish it only took tears to heal, but it seems to help. I love those hugs.....thank you |
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Lone Wolf Member Ascendant
since 2000-03-16
Posts 5842Lansing, MI USA |
ME, In her own time and way she will see and understand. Not much you can do about that. Hang in there. I know you will find comfort in your butterfly. Well said here. LW Poetry should surprise by fine excess...it should strike the reader as a wording of his own highest thoughts and appear almost a remembrance. -J.Keats |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
Thank you, Lone Wolf, for the words of encouragement. Like everything else, it is easier out in the open. Hugs, ME |
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BloomingRose Member Elite
since 2000-08-09
Posts 3092Florida |
Yes, they do lash out sometimes. Inner feelings end up in turmoil when they can't express themselves or understand. Keep telling her that you love her, yet let her know she must respect you. I used to tell my children they could cry on my shoulder, cry in their pillow, but if they were mad and wanted to scream at me they better scream in their pillow. (that one worked some of the time) It will get better, hang in there. Hugs, Deb |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
BloomingRose: I like your method...screaming into the pillow. I will have to pass that one along. I guess we all go through things like this growing up, at one end or the other. Thanks, ME |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
This one I have read more than a dozen times since you have posted it and I am sorry that it took this long for me to reply to it. I know that you know why this one is so hard for me so I know that you understand why it took me this long to reply. I too found myself in a position when I was 12 that called on a lot of growing up quicker than I should have had to but time does give us answers and peace in the heart. It will be hard but the most important thing is that she knows she is loved and I know that butterflies will always do that. I know it is also hard on butterflies and though she sheds tears and you say she does cry, I feel a need to post something I wrote a long time ago for her. You will find it below and I hope you don't mind. I know her strength and I know she and the little one(s) will make it just fine and with you on their side, I have no doubt that it will be sooner than later. Hugs to you all and many prayers for all of you as well. ============== For both the mother and the daughter butterflies Butterflies Don't Cry They say that butterflies don't cry This is really true as you will see Just listen and I will tell you why Remember this is between you and me Tears of sorrow from a broken heart Displaced memories forming shades of grey No more yellow suns for each day to start Clouds of darkness from love thats gone away Eyes of green no longer will they shine Blue skies tossed aside with promises spent I beg of you just a little of your time On the tips of wings only happiness is sent Butterflies are not just mere little souls They are promises of love for all that seek Wings of purity guiding us to our quested goals Fluttering by for both the strong and the weak Flittering patterns of color and grace Distinguished beauty that only they can keep Tears of sorrow streaming down their face No not crying...for she's a lady...and ladies sweetly weep Mark Bohannan [This message has been edited by Mark Bohannan (edited 01-06-2001).] |
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Kethry Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082Victoria Australia |
Mother Earth, like Mark I too have read this anumber of times and even now can only say, I feel your pain, even knowing it gets better. *HuGS* Kethry Those of us who refuse to risk and grow get swallowed up by life. Patty Hansen. |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
I forgot to add to my library so here I am. |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
Mark: how can I thank you for the beautiful words and poem to my Butterfly. I know it will get better, but right now we are all in the "raw" stage. Thank you again and for letting me know you read. Hugs, Mother E Kethry: I am glad you let me know you read this and like I told Mark, we will make it expecially with friends like y'all. Hugs to you, ME |
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bslicker
since 2000-12-04
Posts 2321state of mind |
ME, After meeting you and now reading you, this needed to be brought up to the front. I like Mark also needed to add this to my poetry thread.... Bernie It takes less muscles to smile than to frown |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
Bernie, I was so surprised to find this back on and thank you for bringing it back. Not much has changed for the better, but we will hang in there and try to keep those smiles in place! Hugs, ME |
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Mother_Earth Senior Member
since 2000-11-20
Posts 13701/2 year Texas & 1/2 year Michigan |
Bernie, I was so surprised to find this back on and thank you for bringing it back. Not much has changed for the better, but we will hang in there and try to keep those smiles in place! Hugs, ME |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
aren't they wonderful creatures? |
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